"As Is"

Tau mmg dah lama gler tak update... Ada beberapa faktor yang mendorong kearah kemalasan atau ketidak ada masaan utk mengupdate blog ku ini. Antaranya:

*Mmg malas.....tahap gaban!!!

*Nk bukak laptop pun tak sempat...sebab
-Busy (busy apa?..tunggu...later bgtau)
- Yah dok guna laptop

*Byk benda nk citer smpi tak tercerita....

*Dok sibuk baca blog orang.....

*Malas nk upload gambar dlm blog (mcm la wajib upload gambar kat blog??!!..DUH!!)

*Pape jer la alasan yang seangkatan dgnnya

Ni pun masih malas nk buat pape... sebab hati tgh bengkek gler dgn org2 yg tak reti buat hidup org lain senang... pikir kepala hotak dan buntot sendiri jer... Org2 yg mmg suka menuysahkan org lain..yang hidupnya tak lengkap kalu org lain tak susah. Walaupun dia dlm keadaan senang bin lenang......

Apa2 pun....kalu nk tau citer....Tungguuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!

: tak tahan dgn tahap kebusukkan yg agak luar biasa nih.....seminggu lagi weiii.....

: tension berat turun skit jer tahun nih (ke tak turun langsung??!!). Selalunya min 4kgs. Maybe sebab baru lepas operate and dok umah jer bulan posa nih...

: bersemangat nk menambah income sara diri...hihihihi

: nervous tunggu monday ni - Jeng, jeng jeng.....

: sedih baca kisah2 org lain yg terus-terusan diberi dugaan ALLAH. Esp Mawar.

: tak mau pikir ttg kesedihan yg pasti akan ada bila melawat kubur Mama nnt. Ya Allah, Pls dont let me cry this time....

: wondering how this raya would be?. -Balik umah maktok bersama2 semua including mami and my step siblings...

: bersepah bilik tak kemas2 lagik.... (It's not something new....hahahah)

: syiokkk bila dpt cuti raya smpi lepas raya.

: dah tak tau apa nk cakap....hehehhehe....

The entrance

Bergambar before menunggu waktu Iftar

Selepas berbuka... posing lagik...

-is exactly 1 month I am on MC. This date last month I was admitted due to Viral fever at SMC. Dr. Hazim extended my MC for another week coz my nose still 'berkerak' and bengkak inside. I did my follow up yesterday to remove the 'kerak'. Masa buat tak sakit, tapi half an hour after dat, MasyaAllah punya la berdenyut area hidung membawak ke mata... Raised by Mama where we were tought not to easily take any painkiller and try as much as possible to tahan sakit, I didn't take any medicine for that. Alhamdulilah mlm skit sakit pun skit2 hilang....


-kakak dah dua hari admitted kat SMC due to UTI / Bacterial Infection. Since kakak demam panas, we bawak jumpa Dr. Ling. (Kakak lately, for the past 2 months selalu demam. Her demam only attack ker at nite. Dan her temperature akan naik gegila.) Before gi SMC, we went to klinik Dr. Shima asking for referal letter. That was at 9.20 la lebih kurang and her temp 38.1 (which is already high for 7 years old kid). Later about 10 am at the hospital when the nurse checked her temp, it was 40.4 (less than 1 hour!!!). Terus nurse kena masuk ubat kot buntot. Takut kena sawan. Naik jer ward terus kena letak towel kat ketiak la...atas kepala la...atas perut la... to kurangkan her panas. Of course she was on drip. Dah dok muntah, dehydrated la makcik tu. Towards petang she was a bit ok. But when I visited her this morning, nmpk la dia cam tak berapa sihat. Weaker than yesterday. Tadi Ocha message kata Kakak start balik vomitting. Tambah ngan cirit lak... Hmmmm... nk gi tgk la nih...

-Today gak birthday Sharia... Hapy Birthday Sharia. Sorry I couldn't find any of ur photo in my PC. Dlm album ada lah... nk kena scan la plak kan...later la kay... Anyway, enjoy ur day. May Allah bless u and your family always.

till then...chowwww

Happy Birthday Balqis

(Kek tak de lagi sebab kek adik pun belum habis... so weekend ni baru nk beli- will upload gambar kakak with cake later)

September mmg ramai yg celebrate Birthday. After I saw a list of september birthdays in Aishah's, terasa nk buat list gak. Based on apa yang di ingat dlm pala nih... Hmm let me see..



4 - Norli
7 - Bazleen
9 - Bibi Chik and Fidya
10- Balqis and Amirah
11- Rasa cam ada tapi tak ingat.... (bukan WTC runtuh time ni ker?...hehheheh)
12- Sharia
22 - Ammar
25- Lizzie & Aqeel
27- Azie
28-Kak Tnee, Kak Alee and myself
29- Zack
30-Ina Zarinawati

So today,



Happy Birthday to Bibi Chik (Sharifah Nadirah Syed Omar AlQadree)

This was the conversation on 26th August between me and my officemate, Jeff, at the hospital less than 24 after the surgery.

Me: Jeff, Mr Ho berlakon kat TV yek?
Jeff: Berlakon. Citer apa?
Me: Tah... Something to do with Clear...shampoo Clear. If I' not mistaken the title is GODA..or something....
Jeff: Goda?? (giggling). Dia nk goda sapa? Naper I tak penah tau pun citer tu.
Me: Ala tu citer baru...kat 8TV. I baru bgn tido time tu... tetiba ternmpk kat TV. I ingat I mimpi. Tapi rasanya betul la MR. Ho.
Jeff: U miss him ke smpi nmpk dia kat TV. Hihihihih
Me: Bukan la... I rasa betul I nmpk dia
Jeff: Ye la. Nnt I balik ofis I bgtau dia u rindu sgt kat dia smpi nmpk dia kat TV...
Me: I nmpk dia laaaaaa.......

So today masa tgh boring... terjumpa la citer GODA kat 8TV online. Memang SAH!!. Mr Ho yg berlakon dlm tu (Epi 3). Dgn swift dia lagik. So sesapa nk tgk Mr. Ho kat Goda, gi la here. Click kat All shows, pilih Goda.

Selamat Menonton!!!!

Kakak punya:

Basically sama cam adik. Except from me. Kakak nk 'Emergency Cart Set'- Ala2 set doktor2 nih la...

Since dah beli utk anak menakan yg pompuan ni... Tetiba teringat lak kat anak menakan yang boys tu. Jarang dpt hadiah dari Bie ni. Esp Nassar. So carik2 la benda yg kot2 dorang suka...:

Naffzan dpt Radio Control Batmobile and since abg dia dapat 'car' Nassar pun dpt 'Shackin' Wacky Sounds Driver'.

On 24th August, dlm kol 6 ptg gi 'check in' kat SMC. Kalu la bole masuk malam...mmg sehabis2 malam la nk masuk. Tapi memikirkan kena posa la segala bagai... masuk la ptg. So posa start kol 12 mlm sebab scheduled to operate around 8 am the next day.


Esoknya at 8 am dorang dah soh tukar baju... dah dibawak ke OT (Dewan pembedahan). Dari wad dah ada 2 nurse tnya mcm2 soklan. Nama sapa? Bila last mkn? Sapa sign borang nih? Dah baca surat bius? Blah blah blah... Smpi lak kat OT tu sorang lagi staff kat situ tnya benda yg sama. Jawab jer la. They are just doing their job. Sementara tunggu DR yang patut buat ku pengsan and DR yg patut mengoperate hidungku, dorang letak kat holding area. Tunggu punya tunggu smpi jadi heran. Apsal aku tak berdebar2? Selalu benda2 camni mesti aku rasa semacam. Tapi tah...relaks jer... Tepat kol 8.20am, nurse kat depan tu dpt call. Tetiba i feel strange. Bunyi cam pelik jer. True enuff, yg call tu DR Hazim. Dia nk postponed the op sebab MIL dia jatuh and pengsan. No wonder la relaks jer... So hantar balik masuk wad.


Kuar jer dari OT ocha dah tunggu. Aik? Hmm.. Tak jadik. DR Hazim ada emergency. Postpone esok. Lepas tukar balik baju, dorang hantar breakfast. So bila dh nmpk mknan (2 keping roti ngan milo je pun) belasah la mkn. Around 8.45 dah settle mkn semua. About one hour later, sorang misi ni masuk ( I think she's Indian from India coz her English not that good - what more her BM kan?) asking me dh mkn ke belum. I said dah la.. Rugi la tak mkn kan. Dh org bagi... Amik jer la.. Rupanya dia tnya tu sebab kalu I tak mkn lagik DR Hazim 'ajak' operate skrg. So since I dah mkn.. operation will be at 3pm. So 'puasa' la lagi sekali before operate.

So around 3 pm smpi la kat OT tu (lagi sekali). Masuk je pintu tu nmpk DR Hazim. Tetiba...dup dap dup dap. HA!! confirm operate nih. Tetiba berdebar. Masuk jer terus ke holding area and terus disoal jawab by DR Zul (tukang bagi pengsan). From holding area terus ke BILIK BEDAH 3. Dup dap dup dap lagik. Camno la rupenyer tmpt org operate. The moment I dok jer kat tmpt nk operate tu org semua tgh busy gler buat apa tah. Masa tu la mulut ni terkumat kamit baca apa yg patut. Later I saw Dr Zul amik my left hand and dah nk start cucuk apa yang patut. While waiting for him to carik urat yg mana patut cucuk, one nurse came to me and put the mask. She said it oxigen. "Nafas cam biasa ye". Camne nk nafas cam biasa. My nose block. So kena nafas kot mulut. Tgh elok2 nafas tetiba.... Eh, pesal aku rasa semacam ni. Intai2 Dr Zul dah cucuk... Oooo camni rasa bila kena bius...(sempat lagi pikir camtu hahahah). E eh... apsal rasa semacam ni mcm semacam jer... Ehh...ehhh....eh.... LUP!!!!!! GELAP............


Eh rasa nk batuk lak... Batuk la... Uhuk..(batuk pun cam nk tak nak). Uhuk lagik... sambil mencuba sedaya upaya nk bukak mata. Ya Allah...apsal berat mata nih? Bukak mata jer berair. Mencurah2 air mata. Bila lak aku nangis? Naper aku nangis??. Aku kat mana nih... ?? Tetiba dengar cam ada baby nangis... Oooo... kat holding room. Baru lepas operate. Operate? Apa jadi kat hidung aku? Nk pegang hidung tapi tangan ni nk angkat Ya Allah punya la beratt!!!. Naper rasa semacam nih? Tak suka nyer... It's like my mind is working but not the body. Lemah ya amat. Tetiba kedengaran 'Pn Safwin'...Puan dah sedar?... (hangguk mana panggil aku puan nih... aku lom kawin la).. tapi sempat gak menggangguk... Hehehhe..'Tak pe. Puan rehat dulu yer. Nanti kita masuk wad'. Ha... pape jer la... Nk rehat pun tak bole... asyik nk batuk jer.. Tekak punya la perittttttt!!! Hidung??? Alhamdulilah... mmg tak sakit. Cuma rasa 'berat'. Walaupun dlm keadaan sedar tak sedar, sempat kedengaran 'Ma, BB mana ma?' (or something like that - tapi suara tu mmg kenal sangat esp bila dgr terjerit2-hahahah). Oh! My dearest nieces and my sis tgh tunggu kat luar... cepat la bawak kuar... malas dh nk tunggu kat sini. Uhuk! Uhuk! Uhuk lagik...


Ok puan, nk naik sekarang? Saya panggil kan nurse ye...Sekejap. About less than 3 minutes that nurse pun sampai. The moment pintu OT tu bukak, I saw my nieces, ocha and yah. The first question my nieces tnya. 'Bie kata nk buang hidung, tu ada lagi' (I told them that DR kena buang hidung I. That's why kena operate) Hahahah... I gelak jer. Tetiba kakak tnya.. 'Naper bie nangis'. Bie tak nangis pun kakak.. mata berair jer.


(Adik mengintai dari pintu bilik op - Mana Bie nih, lamanyaaa!!!)





(Kakak pun join sama intai)

(Baru kuar OT - Muka (esp hidung) kembang semangkuk!!)

So on 27th, as DR Hazim promised, bole balik. Tapi walaupun dah discharge, my nose still bleeding and my tekak is damn so sakit. Nk minum pun payah. Cuma hari ni selepas 2 hari puasa... alhamdulilah dah bole mkn skit. But nose? Still ada darah skit2 and berair jer. But getting better. On this 4th, I have my second appoitment (after the op) dgn DR Hazim. Hope semua will be ok.

(Nurse Bazleen smpi tertido jaga patient....heheheh)

"Acute on CRS"

'alam maya' menyatakan:

Acute: Of abrupt onset, in reference to a disease. Acute often also connotes an illness that is of short duration, rapidly progressive, and in need of urgent care.

Rhino-sinusitis is an inflammatory process involving one or more of the paranasal sinuses that usually follows an allergic reaction or viral upper respiratory infection. In some cases, rhino-sinusitis may occur due to increased production of bacteria on the surface of the sinus cavities.
Technically there is no difference between Rhino-sinusitis and nasal polyps, though a slight distinction is made that nasal polyps are a worst case scenario of the condition of rhino-sinusitis. Rhino-sinusitis refers to the inflammation of the tissues of the nose (rhino-) and sinuses. Nasal Polyps (tissue swellings) can form within the nose and sinuses, these are responsible for many symptoms described by patients with chronic rhino-sinusitis.

Chronic rhino-sinusitis is the inflammatory and infection that concurrently affects the nose and para-nasal sinuses. Chronic Rhino-sinusitis is a debilitating form of sinusitis that can lead to significant physical symptoms as well as substantial functional and emotional impairment.
Chronic Rhino-sinusitis may become extensively painful and tissues of nose (rhino) may swell since this condition lasts for longer than 12 weeks. In chronic rhino-sinusitis, a long duration of the following symptoms is typical and may be present:
*Nasal polyps
*Cystic fibrosis
*Nasal obstruction

Chronic Rhinosinusitis is a persistent inflammation and swelling of the membrane and tissue lining the nose, sinuses and their connecting channels. The definition of a chronic nasal and sinus disorder is a combination of symptoms, persisting more than 12 weeks. Nasal symptoms occur due to tissue swelling within our nose while sinus symptoms occur due to blockage of the osteomeatal channels which will block air flow and mucous drainage. Chronic Rhinosinusitis can improve briefly, however it does not go away completely even with many different medications and longer periods of treatment. Therefore, this "blockage" tends to be permanent and causes symptoms to persist and linger. In fact, these symptoms may be less obvious to an individual than those that occur with acute Rhinosinusitis. However, they can impact on our quality of life significantly

Pansinusitis : inflammation of all of the paranasal sinuses.
Pansinusitis is usually the result of infection rather than allergy, and in extreme cases may require surgery.

Akhir kata, the operation is scheduled on Monday 25/8/08 at 8:30 am @ Selangor Medical Centre.

Baru ku tahu betapa bohsannya tak keje. Pelik tul. Time keje paler ni asyik la nk cuti. Asyik la kata bosannyer keje. Tapi bila kena cuti camni... Aduhai... Bosan gak.

I was on MC since Monday 11/8/08. Masa tu demam. Selasa admitted to SMC. Demam panas a.k.a Viral Fever. Ingat kan biasa la. Ye la...skrg ni kan musim demam2. So standard la demam tu kan. Kita ikut musim gak la. Admitted dlm kol 11 p.m. Setia Ocha ngan Azul teman kat SMC tu smpi admitted. Kalu ikutkan mmg nk balik jer. Tapi mmg tak larat gler time tuh. Masa amik darah kat A&E tu doctor kata normal. Uiighh!! Lega. Jangan la kena denggi lagi. Dah penah sekali kena serik beb!!. Naik lunyai badan kena denggi. Tapi viral fever pun ala2 denggi gak. Letih gak menahan sakit. Lepas A&E dorang bawak gi masuk wad. Sekali tu Ocha kata dapat Dr. Shaikh. Macam penah ku dgr nama tuh. Kawan papa rupanya. Kawan surau jln jingga. Aduh. Baru ingat nk dpt doc 'wangi' tu. (Doc masa kena denggi. Wangi seh... masa buat wad visit belum sampai dah bole 'bau' dia...hahahaha)

Dr. Shaikh cek punya cek and kata...panas nih. (kalu tak takan admitted kan). Terus kena drip and ubat antibiotik yg dicucuk kedlm drip. (Ada sorang nurse tu gila kasar... sakit gler masa boh antibiotik tu. Yg lain ok jer. Yg sorang ni ha... tension jer).

Esoknya Dr Shaikh datang balik. Biasa la Doc kena visit at least 2 kali sehari. Bila dia datang cek my tekak merah bak delima. Selsema bagai nk rak. Dia pun heran. Terus I was refer to doc ENT. Masa tu dlm hati kata... ENT? Dr. Soni? Hmmm... Belasah jer la. Sebelum Dr. Shaikh blah dia kata i will refer you to dr. Hazim. Dr. Hazim??? Tak penah dgr pun. Hmm.. .Pape jer la.. belasah. Oh! before that Dr. Shaikh soh gi buat x-ray. X-RAy??? Terconfuse kejap. Demam pun kena gi x-ray ker? Bukannya eksiden or patah kaki. Eh! halo!! Dah doc suruh tu buat jer la... Degil!!!... OK...OK...

Lepas xray smpi mmg sah lagi nyata la kena refer trus ke ENT. Kena buat CT Scan la plak. Pe hal la plak nih kan smpi scan2. Lepas result scan kuar (time ni demam dah kebah..cuma hingusan jer mencurah2 and muntah tak renti2). Dr. Hazim announce that I have a Chronic Pansinusitis. Dlm erti kata lain sinus yang agak kronik and need to be operated ASAP. Aduh!! Bila tahun lak aku ada sinus nih. Tak penah tau ada sinus tup tup terus kena operate. hmm.. 'Doktor saya nk balik bole tak'? Balik? Hmmm.. selalunya kalu kes camni kena terus operate. Tak pe la.. Awak balik dulu. Pikir dulu. Mkn ubat dulu.. Rabu nnt datang balik. Saya KIV awak nyer operation.

Masa tu pikir nk balik jer. Malas nk pikir pasal sinus ni. Kalu ikutkan tak la baik sangat lagik. Jln pun terhuyung hayang lagik. Tapi malas (or takut) nk operate punya pasal...balikkkkkk...heheheh.

Tapi kejap je dah rabu. I have appointment with Dr. Hazim tomorrow. And I need to be prepared to be operated ASAP. Apa2 pun need to be done before puasa starts. Which is less than 2 weeks. Kalu operate... hmmm... lagi lama la MC (home rest)... Bole ke tahan lama2 dok umah nih?? Aduhhh!!!

"Hi Safwin. Your make up is superb. Everyone wanted to know how you managed to transform me into a lovely maiden...he..he..he.."



That is part of the sms I received today. So glad Sharon a.k.a Sara loved it. I'm glad ppl around her loved it too. She's actually my cousin's boyfriend's cousin. I was quite nervous to make her up for her reception because she will be wearing saree. I must admit that I am quite weak to make hair do. I prefer wearing tudung. I love playing with tudung and try to make ppl look good in tudung. Anyway, I managed to make Sara look beautiful. And most importantly she loved it.


Despite of doing make up for many many many many times, I still feel that I need to take a pro course or something to make my skill better. I never satisfied with my skill eventhough most of my client loves it. For me I need to learn and keep on learning. Coz make up is just like fashion. It will keep on changing. So my foundation must be very strong. Eventhough I had 2 certificates from different 'cikgu', I still feel there is a need to keep on learning. InsyaAllah.


I'm giving myself say 3 years to actually have a 'Bridal & Boutique'. I'm praying and working hard to materialize it. With the support of my siblings and family, insyaAllah it will come true. The mistake I did was not having a dream and plan. Well, ppl learn from mistake. It is definately not easy to be successful. It will definately consume more time, energy and most importantly money. But above all this, it must start off with a dream follow by a plan. That's how it's gonna work and that's how I'm going to make it work.


Wish me luck....Hehehehe....

1) Kakak - Kakak admitted to SMC this morning due to some infection in her usus. She was ok when she had her breakfast kat Kapar Town but later she complained 'sakit perut' to the extend nk jalan pun susah. Her papa and mama bawak gi clinic and later was refered to SMC. The doctor took her blood for blood test. The result should be out soon.

I dont really like menunggu org sakit ni. Kita pun bole sakit. Letih ooo... Menjaga org sakit memerlukan takan kesabaran yang tinggi. Which I dont think I have that. Hehehehe







2) Acai - From my previous post I mentioned that I visited Rumah Kanak2 Tengku Budriah. Well, supposedly there is another visit today (dept lain yg buat, I jer sesibuk nk gi lagik) however it is postponed to next month. Sedey gak la.. Sebab I'm looking forward nk jumpa Acai. My fav. Well it is more like I'm his favourite. Heheheh. Comel kan.. Masa gi sana he will never let me go out of his sight. Nk dukung la segala bagai. And jgn harap budak lain can seat beside me. Mmg dia tak bagi.
Just look at him. Isn't he so adorable. Cuteeee. Jatuh cinta trus ngan mamat kecik sorang nih. Hihihihihihih. I still dont know his background. But I will definately find out. I'm so in love with this cute little boy.




3) Alisa - Mawar's dotter confirm kena undergo chemotheraphy. Oh dear!. I tak bole tgk my late mom chemo apatah lagi a cute-not-yet-3 years old gal. Mmg hebat dugaan ALLAH bagi kat mawar. Apa2 pun, usaha la selagi terdaya. 1 advise from me Mawar, pls dont take any susu kambing kononnya utk cure the CA. NEVER!!. I've seen what susu kambing can do to a CA patient. It make the CA worse!! So please. Get away from susu kambing.

Lama seh tak update blog. Here are some things in my life lately.

1. Charity - Visited Rumah Kebajikan Kanak2 Tengku Budriah at Cheras last Saturday. Penat nak mampos. But I had fun. Seronok melayan budak2 yg kurang nasib baik. This event organized by ECCO (E-channel Menara) and Magic Inc (MGCC-Bkt Jelutong). Every month Maybank will send representative to tmpt nih. Those kids pun mmg expect Maybankers to come every month to pampered them with love.

2. Alisa - Mawar's dotter. She was diagnosed to have a tumor dlm kepala. Tumor sebesar RM0.50 tu MIGHT have CA cells. The tumor was successfully removed last Friday. Todate I still haven't got the time to visit her. I will be taking leave this Wednesday to pay her a visit at Damansara Specialist Hospital. To Mawar, byk2 bersabar. Allah takan duga kalau umatnya itu tak dapat menerima dugaan itu. U are strong that's why u are chosen to be tested with all this.

3. Transfer - I might got the transfer I wanted (siap gaduh dgn bos tuh). Well, at least that's what my boss informed me last wednesday. However, on Friday my bos said to me... 'I might have to think it over again. I think I need to do Isytiharah on whether shall I release u or not'. Eh!!! Hampeh gler... He IS ALWAYS like that. What ever it is, memana pun sama sebenarnya. Mana you campak pun I will still do my job. But it would be better kalau I can gain new experience. Cuma kalu tetiba my tahap kebohsanan melanda... Well.. be prepared my dearest bos. I sometimes do what I myself dont expected. Heheheh

4. Unsolve issues - My biggest and most critical problem have reach the max (I think...). I still have yet to find the solution. Truth is I have no idea how to live for the next 3 months but I do hope it can be solved by then.

5. Unwanted dreams - At this point of time I dont see the importance of having you in my life or in my dreams. However, it seems that you are appearing in my dreams more than you have in real life. Truth is I dont need you to colour my dreams. My dreams would be better without you. (I hope). So please...shhyyyuuhhh!!!

6. Unhealthy 3 weeks - I have not visited FF for the past 3 weeks (or more??). I was so busy sampai tak sempat 'fikir' bila nk gi (Yeah! blame it on your schedule!!!). So basically i'm taking leave this wednesday not only to visit Mawar's dotter but also to visit my RM155-monthly-fee-fully equip-sweating place. Hehehehe.

That's all folks...!!! See ya

Have you ever feel that you really know someone but in reality you dont?

Have you ever feel that he's the one but it turn out to be otherwise?

Have you ever hope to forget bout him but his image is glued to your mind?

Have you ever hope that he will not be the one but at the same time you know that only him can make you happy?

Have you ever try to avoid him but whenever you see him your heart will immediately stop functioning?

Have you ever hope that you can erase all the mistakes you've done and forgive each other?

Have you ever wish that you did not have a fight with him and everything is back to normal?

Have you ever wish that you didn't meet him at all so that you dont have to go thru all the pain?

Have you ever???.....Well....I Do....

I do hope I can forget bout him forever. It's been 4 years...It's time ( I said that every year for the past 4 years)

I do hope any of us can end this fight. I tried. But both of us just too stuborn!

I do hope I dont have to see his face anymore.

But at the same time I do hope that we can be friends again....

Truth is I dont know what to hope. But I do know that this is killing me. The time will come. Either I go... or you...

I was on leave last Tuesday to accompany Ocha to one of the Fitness Center in Bukit Tinggi. FF in Bukit Tinggi is nothing compared to TF in USJ. TF is like damn so canggih and so class place to get healthy. I was forced (in a way) to go to TF coz was trying to help one of my friend who worked there. They have this quota that the have to meet daily (or is it weekly??). So pretending to be her client, I was brought for a tour in that 3 storey building. Like I said, I was impressed with almost everything there. The equipment, the saunas, jakuzi, steam room etc. Even their dance room (they have this bollywood dance, techno dance dan byk lagi). Maybe I was amazed because that was my first time ever visiting a fitness center. I dont know that you can have fun trying to be healthy. But the fees is kinda 'membunuh'. Especially if you sign up for the personal trainer. I dont know that the fee is membunuh until I visited FF in Bukit Tinggi.

I have to admit that FF is nothing compared to TF (the surrounding i mean). But they have all the baiscs that you need to be healthy. Best thing is, the fee is much much more affordable. Truth is, the whole package of TF is as good as if you enroll yourself at SlimWorld etc. YES! U heard me rite!. But in FF, the admin fee and registration fee is only RM167 (April Promotion). YES! and they dont force you to pay using your card like TF did. TF will charge it to your card under installment. Which mean they have already took up the total amount from the credit limit. But not with FF. The best thing that I like most bout FF is that they allow you to 'freeze' you subsciption up to 12 months (as what the representative said). This is very useful when it comes to fasting month which obviously no one will want to sweat on a threadmill.

Enuff with that. Later in the evening, we (ocha, B2 and tukang sibuk a.k.a yah and me) went to Sunway Pyramid. That was ocha's first visit since the new wing opened. It was my second. The initial plan was to eat at Subway however the tukang sibuk a.k.a yah suggested we try the newly open fast food restaurant called Wendy's. Heavenly superb!. We ate the burger. Yah took 1 slice and I insisted Ocha to take 2 slices burger. We also ordered brocoli and cheese potato baked and chili (NO! not chili sauce...it's chili). Cewah!!! konon macam tau apa kebenda Chili tu. If not because of Ocha's recommendation (more like paksaan) I will never know the wonderful, superb, marvelous taste of that chili. Credit to Ocha! Yeah...I have to admit that she got the taste and she knows what her siblings like and dislike.

Since I still have the Subway promotion voucher (thanks to Jeffrey), we decided to take away Subway. Not only that, we also tapau J.CO. Yea..J.CO. Call me jakun but this is my first time eating it. I've tasted Big Apple and trying J.Co lak since namanya menjadi sebutan lately. My opinion... I think I like Big Apple better. But J.Co still not bad. Bole la. But Dunkin doughnut is wayy out of the topic. Hehehhe. Kinda lupa daratan huh??!!

Actually there are numbers of kedai makan yang buat we meleleh air liur. Byk gler ok! Nasib perut and poket ada hal limit. Kalu tak... GONE!. So we decide to try Carl's Junior this saturday. Yup, this saturday. No more IKEA weekends. Welcome PYRAMID weekends. Of course if we talk bout Carl's Junior standard, we have to bring along...not you YAH! heheh... we have to bring along our banker... the one who obviously will pay the bills. Yg Berhormat AZUL...Muahahha.

Will upload the pic later. TBC......

Yeah! 2 weeks no update. Been busy lately. Sooo many things happened. My precious WMF2809 pay his visit to his doctor twice this month. 'Workshop Pakcik Mat' is his usual clinic. The first visit due to the timing belt a bit 'tegang' (as what pakcik mat said). So he had to longgar kan a bit. I guess the timing belt is just like me. I was a bit 'tegang' with some things for the past couple weeks. The second visit was because some 'pengcungkil amatur' yg tidak berjaya mengcungkil kereta ku. Alhamdulilah they failed to cungkil the car but their action caused me to repair the door as it can't be open neither from outside nor from inside. Kesimpulannya kereta tak bole bukak pintu. So again, klinik pakcik mat la arah dituju....heheheh.

Since early March a collegue of mine was on MC and later was admitted to hospital. He'd been suffering from gall stone. He went thru few times of checking here and there and finally the doctor decided to laser him. So after all the lasering , home rest for 2 weeks. This is where 'MY OWN' timing belt started to feel 'tegang'. All his work load transfered to me. Well, actually to me and my other collegue. Both of us shared his load. Statistically my work load increase by 37% (statistic given by my bos actually). Not to mention that I am one of MGCC Magic Inc committee and we were busy with our 'Chocolate Fool Day' event. Will explain that later. Going back to the extravaganza work load that I had, I'm amaze that I actually managed to do all the work. Despite of the complaint I made to myself everyday without fail, I still manage to do it. Of course la I have to sacrife my weekend. No more 'IKEA' weekends for me. For the past one month, no more leisuring, lepakking and day dreaming at IKEA. Man!! I missed that! My weekend = struggling in the office.

This was the ad for the chocolate fool day. 'Fool' day is simply because this chocolate was distributed on the April Fool day itself which is yeterday. Hell memenatkan!!. Imagine to distribute almost 1 thousand boxes to the whole office. Of course with the help of other committe (other committee mostly helped on the distribution part jer, the packaging part biasa la... muka2 wanita2 jer yang buat) Packaging was the most leceh part. But overall it was ok. We managed to get some good profit out of it. No bad...!!!

'Demi masa'

A friend emailed me this. Worth reading....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needsto...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to seeher in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a youth she's content to leave behind....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .... ..
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, thatwill make her guests feel honored...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruiningthe friendship..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY... the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more... and why she shouldn't take it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table... or a charming inn in the woods... when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...

Di kala kebohsanan.......

Tak payah citer banyak. Tengok tangan bengkok camni apa lagi. Jatuh. Ajmal ni my cousin. Baru in kindergarden. He followed his daddy to change the 'atap zink'. You know la budak2. When you say 'dont', they hear it as 'do it'. So bila berjalan atas siling tu apa lagi... Pereparppp!!!!. Jatuh. The best part is no one heard anything. They (the parents) only realized it when the found his slipper is up there tapi tuan punya tak de... Tau2 dah jatuh masuk dlm bilik. Senyap jer. Dia pun tak berani nk nangis because dia tau salah dia. Ajmal suffered from total dislocation of his elbow. Broken wrist and benjol kepala. Was rush to the hospital. Direct to ICU, did scanning and he went for the operation twice....Hmmm...

2) Kakak

Kakak made this 'story book'. The title of the book is..."Buku cerita Hantu...Ha...Ha....Ha". Antara isi kandungan nya; "Ha...Ha...Ha... Saya adalah hantu terbang"...."Nama ayah saya pocong. Kami adalah keluarga hantu. Nama adik saya Zombi. Nama kakak saya Joon. Nama ibu saya Hantu". I was a bit surprise nama dia tau nama2 keturunan nih... Bila tnya dia kata kawan2 dia bagitau. See...Budak2 sekarang. Baru standard 1 dah tau semua.

3) Adik

"Adik, gi naik atas mandi pastu siap"

"Nak gi mana?"

"Adik nk gi mana?"

"Adik nak gi em...o...em...o (as in M...O...M...O)" -Trying to spell out the shop name.

"Huh? Gi mana dik?"

"M...O...M...O..........TESCO!!!"

"Hoi...sapa ajar tah"

As usual...adik mmg hampeh!!!!

Mimpi apa tah hari ni nk gi keje pki baju kurung. Actually dulu hanya 2 perkara that will make me wear baju kurung to work. First during Ramadhan. I dont know why terasa kealiman menyelubungi diri bila tiba Ramadhan. Infact during college time pun mmg akan pki baju kurung everyday ke class. Like so alim gitu. Terbawak2 la tabiat tu smpi keje. You will be looking at the ayu me for the whole month. Next is when I terbabas tido and no baju to wear therefore baju kurung menjadi mangsa. (Sbb baju ni the material tak payah iron). Actually thats what happened today. Tido terbabas. Nk cepat pki baju kurung. Lagi pun mmg lama tak pki baju kurung tanpa sebab.

Sampai keje jer everybody was like....wah... pesal ko ayu ari nih?. Pesal nmpk lain hari ni? Pesal tu... pesal nih. Ayooo!... Wa pki baju kurung je la... It is not big deal. (Nmpk sgt wa brutal smpi pki baju kurung pun org tegur). But it was really uncomfortable for me today. Today is the day that I have to do a little bit of running here and there. To settle things that I am not supposed to settle. Smpi ada org tegur, apsal cam semacam je? That obvious huh? Siap pesan lain kali pki jeans jer la. Cam biasa. Baru senang skit. Caitsss!!

Lepas lunch ada meeting. Calls ada lagi 6 tak buat. Actually nk buat awal2. But tetiba tmpt gua tak bole bukak system. Nk tunggu org IT rectify the issue? Minggu dpn pun tak tentu. Nk tumpang kat tmpt geng lain, dorang tgh buat keje. Maka terpaksa la singgah office esok sambung that 6 calls. Jap jer. Pastu merapu kat comments tu....Done. Monday leh hantar. Meeting ended at 5 something. Ingat nk balik la. Ocha minta tlg amik kakak dari sek agama. Tapi tak bole. Gua nk attend briefing dari big big bos gua. Actually apa yang dia nk cakap tu wa dh dgr kat Langkawi. But wa berminat nk tau how he will handle the staffs here considering that they... I mean we had been demotivated since last 4 years. He is very much aware of the situation but like I said, I am more interested to actually hear what he is going to say.

He handled it quite well. For me...very well. But I must admit that some of the staffs dont understand what he was trying to say. You see, he is the kind of person who dont give a straight 'no' to the face. His PR skill is good. Selalunya org kat level dia ni cam hampeh skit. Tak payah gi jauh la. Bos2 yang bawah dia pun mmg mostly hampeh. I can barely heard a single negative word from his mouth. Oh! I actually cought 1 word. Which is 'problem'. ( I cant believe I said this. I actually QAed my bos) Hehehe. He will never use a negative phrase or any negative examples. He never say bad thing bout others. He tried very much not to say our managers are monsters. Never say we are wrong. He said all the 'moving forward' thing. How to make things better...together.... and I think what I like most bout him is that he never promise that he will give this or that. In other words he dont let us put overly high hope on him alone. It must be a team work thing. As a person who likes to be motivated by someone who knows how to talk and who talk based on experience, I like him. I respect him. He dont tell you what to do. He wants us to understand why we do it. That is more effective. So, thing I learn from him today:

1) Sometimes is not what you say, it is how you say it.
2) Beware of what you wish for. It may come true.
3) Effective communication is very important.
4) Ala....lupa lak... tu jer kot... Hehehhehe

Mak ai! Nk kol 12 dah. Apa la yang wa merapu sini kan. Anyway need to stop. Tomorrow ada bowling tournament kat pyramid. Wa dh kata wa tak reti main pun ada org ajak main. Kalu kalah jgn nak salahkan gua. Ahad lak nk gi Putra Heights. A friend of mine minta tlg buat mekap as her hubby nk buat photoshot for his portfolio. Wa pun buat la amal jariah skit. Lagi pun bole masuk wa punya porfolio gak. Wa kena mekap natural and gothic punk...(camne la gamaknya muka model tu nanti yek). Nanti kan....

Eh lagi satu wa tak paham and malas nk pahamkan diri. FB nih. The day before yesterday I cleared my requests tinggal bout 174. Pastu yesterday tertiba tambah to 209. Tadi wa bukak Fb mau nk tertonjol mata wa. 354!!! gila byk. Amenda la korang2 anto kat wa nih? Pening la. Wa rasa ajaran terkurang lak kalu wa ignore semua. Kesian penat2 korang dok depan pc, pilih muka wa, click send, tunggu jap... alih2 smpi kat wa, kena ignore. Tu yang wa tak smpi hati. Tapi nk buat camne. Korang ada idea tak?? Tolong wei!!

What is Facebook (FB)? According to FB itself, FB is a 'social utility that connects you with people around the world'. How long have this FB exist? If you ask me...I dont know. But I came to know bout FB somewhere middle last year. At that point of time I dont really know what is FB. But I know the existance of FB. I dont even bother to have a closer look on what FB is all about. I thought it is another version of 'My Space' and 'Friendster'. But someone change my perception on FB. A long lost friend found me in FB. (Dont ask me how my name exist in FB coz I dont know!!) What I know is that she was so glad that she found me. According to her, she had been trying to get in touch with me for a loooonng time. She was my best friend when we were in Standard 6 (that was like 19 years ago). I am so glad dia dpt cari I. Harapkan I...hmmm... Tak tercarik la.

So that starts everything. Of course being a super dumb in IT make it worst for me to understand FB at the first place. Again with the help of IT genius in this house (who else! Ocha la). Slowly I begin to understand what FB is all about. I start looking for my old friends and amazingly I do have my long lost friends here in FB. When I say long lost fren, I really mean loonngggg lost fren. Some of them I havent met in more than 10 years. I also met one of my best frens during my college time and she is currently in London wit her husband. Bila dia kawin pun tak tau...Hehehe. Bila dah terjumpa my lovely fren ni who is in London, later I figured out ramai rupanya org yg I kenal dok sana. YES...sana means London. Aduh! Tekanan jiwa bermula!!! They are all happily working there and me here? everyday facing stress!! Sungguh jeles!! Kira2 dlm 4-5 org yg I kenal kat London. Uhuk! Uhuk! Uhuk! Nk gi gak!!! (Mimpi la Safwin!)



That's all bout FB. Something interesting happened to me last few days. Antaranya, we had a mini bowling tournament in Alam Sentral Shah Alam. The reason I joined that tournament is because Af offer me to join her group. And saja suka2 (OMG!! Baru teringat yang tak bayar kat dia lagi. Hopefully I dont forget to pay her on Monday). So saja la main2. 1 group consist of 5 ppl. There was me, AF, Kak Jijah, Epoi and Af's anak menakan. We were playing like we never played before. Dah tentu suka2 jer. The funny thing is that we call our lane as "Lane Berhantu". It is because there will be 1 pin that will fall by itself whenever the thing try to turunkan the pin. We were playing with this free 1 pin. Later towards the 2nd game, the worker came and clean our lane. They were cleaning others as well la. They used a bottle of soap sprinkle it on the lane and use the machine to clean it. Kak Dot later came to us and said "Habis la hantu korang, dah kena simbah dgn holly water...." Heheheheh. True enough after that.... none of use can actually play. Hahahahah! How coincidence. There were no spare at all. Not to mention Strike la!. So funny. Nasib game dah nk habis.

One more funny thing bout this bowling. I won Best Female Player. Kuang kuang kuang!!. How and what is my point? Dont ask me coz I also dont know. Infact when my name was announced, I asked them back. 'Salah kira ka?' Hahahaha. But dah org nk bg... Amik jer la...Here is a pic taken after the tournament.

P/s: Last 2 nites Adik was sleeping wit me. We shared the single bed together. Suddenly dia tarik my hand. She was asleep. At first I thought she wanted me to hug her. OH! She just love ppl hugging her time tido. So knowing her nature, I let her pull my hand. Tetiba out of sudden both her hand holding my hand and she BITE me!... Yes. She bite me! terjerit2 dia. Rupanya ngigau!!! Punya dok main petang tu. dok gaduh2 dgn kakak dia. Lastly Aunty dia yang kena gigit! Uwah!!!...... Later bila dah bgn I ask her why she gigit me... She gave me that blur2 look. Adik...Adik!!!

BTW ada bekas tau adik gigit....:(

It has been a while since my last update to my blog. Reason is I was very very very busy. Tak percaya???....hmmm...


Virtual Banking 1st convention - Langkawi 25-27/1/2008

I was informed one day or two days before the event. I was a replacement for my colleague (Mr. J). Mr. J refuse to go as he hates outdoor activities. I thought he was just kidding when he say wanted me to replace him. Lagi 2 hari ni gi dia kata "Bos said ok. U can replace me". As for me, I'm ok jer. I prefer outdoor activities as compared to indoor (like ice breaking la, ntah pape lagi). So kelam kelibut la 'preparing' for the event. So 24th nite we all gathered at Menara Maybank and the buses (all together 3 buses) depart from there at about 11pm. There were 2 buses for MGCC's and 1 bus for E-Channel (Virtual Banking consist of MGCC and E-Channel)

We arrived at Kuala Perlis about 6.20a.m. And waited bout 2 hours for the ferry to Langkawi. And Yes!!! Our 1st convention is in Langkawi. To some ppl Langkawi = shopping or langkawi = chocolates or langkawi = pinggan mangkuk...hehehe. Which is true enough. Some of my male friends were forced by their wife to buy pinggan mangkuk, sudu garfu, senduk bagai....heheh...
Sian tgk dorang....

Anyway the event went on smoothly. What I like bout this event is that the trainer/facilitator will never force you to do the outdoor activities. We were basically enjoying our time. It was fun. Really fun. And the next financial year (which will starts this June) MGCC will have the honour to organize the event.

Oh! I almost forgot bout JB. (Yes sherry....its JB!!! And you know who...heheh) I just wanted to add comments on him. I was pretty kesian on him thru out the event. (At first I tak tau pun dia gi...kalu tau mmg I tak gi) I always avoided him what!. Anyway back to JB and Langkawi. He was so 'home alone' there. I never thought he was that pemalu. Selalunya tak tau malu. Diam jer cam org bodoh (Mmg bodoh pun!! -jahatnya aku!) But it's true. He acted as if tak de PG (you know who Sherry...hhehe) dia hilang akal. Tu la... You dont appreciate me when we were friends. Now that we are not.... sapa susah. Not that I dont try to berbaik dgn him. He was so sombong to accept my apology. (Macam la dia tak buat salah). So skrg sapa yang rugi? Obviously I'm not!!

Ok. Enuff wit Langkawi story. We arrived at Sg. Buloh RnR at apprx 11.p.m 27/1/08. (Our driver bawak skit punya laju). Our bus were the first to arrive. Nasib la amik cuti on 28th. Konon nk rest tapi kena gi Ikea la segala bagai. Bangun dlm 8 a.m gak. Tetiba teringat something. ALAMAK!!!! Caterer tak confirm lagik...Caterer?? untuk apa tuh? Haaa.... Utk ni la..



My Bos Retirement Farewell Party


My bos is on the right. Yang left tu super bos....hehehe... This farewell event was scheduled on 30th. Tertiba on the 28th baru teringat. Adus!!!!. Patutnya before pegi Langkawi I suppose to get 2-3 food quotations. Tapi lupa sesangat. Apa lagi... Minta tlg my sifu (CL). So finally on the 29th at about noon, dpt la confirm dgn 1 caterer nih. Alhamdulilah. Of course wit the help of CL.

And the best part is most of the staff love the food. Ter'at all' jap. Heheh. Tapi punya la kelam kelibut. The party ended bout 6p.m. Lepas kekemas pastu balik. Bila dah balik tu teramat la penatnya. Mana tak. Penat Langkawi blom habis....dpt penat menggelabah nk carik caterer (penat tau bila menggelabah nih) Dah tu penat on the farewell dah lak. Dahtu the most penat among all Penats!!! SCORING!!... a.k.a kerja ku!!!Adus... Ada lagi 2 hari haram 1 team pun tak habis... Pening! Tapi belasah gak and I managed to complete beratus calls tuh. Yehaa!!!. (Pat helped me with 1 call -Thanks buddy)

Enjoy some pics from the Party. I will upload gambar lain in my fotopages later.

P/s: I've been having headache too often!!!

"Ya Allah, aku berlindung denganmu daripada berpecah, sifat munafik dan akhlak buruk"

I have been starring at my laptop for the past 2 hours, trying to figure out what are my feelings rite now. Angry? Sad? Hate? Happy? Hungry? It's a mixture of everything!!!. One thing for sure is at this moment of time I am emotionally disturbed. But if you think that it is a routine 'monthly thing', sorry to say you are wrong. We women have feelings not only during 'that time' but all the time. It's just during 'that time' it's a bit uncontrollable.

During my teenage, I always have problems controlling my emotion. To be more specific to control my anger. I will be screaming like a crazy person trying to let go of my anger. I can't control that at all. But I guess as we get older, we tend to know how to control certain things. To this very minute I'm still trying and will keep on trying.

Supposedly today is my dept head's Farewell Dinner. Yes! The only nice, kind and understanding boss ever exist in my office. I was overjoyed for today's event. My plan was to take pictures of all my collegues so that we can frame it up and hand it over to our bos. So that he would remember the faces whom always give him trouble! (Heheheh). I was so excited that I even planned on what to wear to work so that it will look nice in the pic. :P

But everything don't seem the way I planned it. It was already past working hours. We were lepakking wasting time. Most of us rather waiting in the office than go back and out again for the dinner. Except for this one guy because his house is about 5 minutes drive from the office. I or rather we were called for a meeting (Not from the 5-minutes-drive guy). Now that starts everything! A simple meeting that tensed me up. Really up! I was so pissed off. At first it was just a statement which lead to my disaggrement and while trying to elaborate further I got really confused and angry! I just can't tolerate people who pandang remeh on etika kerja simply because to 'solve' things. Kononnya benda tu dah solve. Kononnya benda tu kecik jer. But the 'impact' to us is so great!. Why can't he see that!!. And what ever it is do not overrule your bos. Especially when you have a good one. Pay some respect guys. After all he is your bos. Just because you are our representative, it doesn't mean you can make your own decision. Geessshhh!!! Am I thinking too hard or he don't think at all?

I didn't know that I was mad that time. But after we adjourned the meeting, I felt this watery thing on my eyes. At that point of time I knew that I was holding my anger that lead to 'limpahan' air di mata. YES! I can end up cry trying to control my anger. That's just the way I deal with it. I tried to cool myself. Had my moment alone in my room. But, the moment I felt pain on my forehead and my neck, that's it! I knew it. It went up and up. I just want to go home. I figured out that if I make it to the dinner, I will not be me. I will just keep silent and do my job which is eat. That's why I decided not to go. I sms Ocha telling her that I dont feel like going. Langkah kanan when Azul is also fetching Yah @ Brunsfield. So dekat sgt la.

But I still have the money and the camera with me. Wanted to pass it to 'J' but he refuse to take. I think he noticed. (Or was it so obvious that he knew it just by looking at my face). Then I gave it to Abg 'I'. I lied (have to) to him said that I have to rush back. Then I went down and waited for Azul.

When I think it over, I wonder what makes me so mad. When I got home, some of them rang me, sms me. I just dont feel to answer them. I just want to sit and think of my behaviour. Am I being selfish? Am I being unfair? Did I give them a hard time? I don't know. I try to think that I am rite. But I'm afraid that may lead to 'hey aku betul!!' (bongkak) attitude. That's why I put Doa Mengelak Daripada Perangai Buruk as intro to this entry.

"Ya Allah, ampunkan la aku sekiranya perlakuan ku ini menimbulkan rasa tidak senang hati dan menyusahkan sahabat2 ku. Sesungguhnya yang buruk itu adalah dari ku dan yang baik itu adalah daripada Mu".

-AMIN-

Antara 'penambahan' yang berlaku:

1) Bertambahnya berat badan
- Time posa dulu ok jer...Dah ok dah... lately telah meningkat segala faktor yang mendorong ke arah penambahan ketumpatan badan...hehhe.. Kena start posa

2) Bertambah usia
- This happens every year. It will not stop until we stop breathing. I will be carrying new number this year. Welcome '31'.

3) Bertambah work load
- This is expected. Increase in workload is very much expected but can I really carry this extra load? Will try... tak try tak tau.

4) Bertambah stress
- Workload tambah stress tambah la.. Bila stress tambah kena tambah kan kecerdasan otak memikirkan cara utk tangani strees.

5) Bertambah gedix nk baca buku
- Well at least this is a positive one. Last week baru habis baca buku 'Once Removed' by Andrew Luci. Cerita bout one mat salleh guy living in Malaysia. Very funny. Nice story. Especially utk hilang kan stress. Skrg tgh membelek 'Jangan Bersedih'. Keagamaan skit. Well hidup kena la balance kan. Baca buku keagamaan ni biar sedar diri skit. Biar insaf skit. hehe. Tapi biasa la... bab buku agama ni mula la slow je baca. Baru 1 page...ngantuk...!!

6) Bertambah relax
- More relax in living daily life. A lot of things happened last couple of years. Those things really made me think alot bout life. The more I think the more I will tell myself to relax. Try to accept things the way they are meant to be. Just try to follow the flow.

Asyik tambah jer? Mana kurangnya?

PS: Kakak dah ok.. much better. Sek kebangsaan still sama but sek agama dah tukar. I can conclude that sek agama ni very good sebab baru 3 hari kakak dah 'bawak balik' macam2. Ocha kata dia siap ajar adik dia kata kalu nk lalu depan papa or mana kena tunduk. Kalu papa balik kakak ngan adik kena salam papa. And kena sembahyang (of course la. This is expected from sekolah agama). But everything ok. Cuma kat sek keb tu ada lagi sisa prob tak habis lagi.

PSS: I got back my car on Monday evening. It cost me almost RM1k!!!... Aduh!. Migraine la cam nih!

Not today...but yesterday. This is what happened....

Today is epit's wedding. So dah planning nk gi jgk wedding dia eventhough Noreen refuse to go. (Well... she said she had more important things to do but I know it's just an excuse..:P)
So bgn pagi terus tgk almari baju. What to wear? After few minutes, I decided to wear this Green baju kurung moden with kain satin. Obviously this is my fav as the colour is GREEN and I bought this kain when I was on unpaid leave (masa jaga mama sakit). Nmpk terus berkenan. Cinta pandang pertama...hehehe. That was like almost 2 years back. I remembered wearing it only twice. Tu pun attend wedding dinner. So... ok... I have decided what to wear. So nk gi iron baju la. (Note: Ocha bought her new iron. Not to say yg lama tu dah rosak but the new one is the kind yg old style tu... yang berat skit. Suppose to function better.) I swithced on the iron. Memula no 2...hmmm... not so hot... so I put straight to 4. Ok... just nice. Half way ironing the kain rasa cam panas skit.. So I go back to no 2. Waited for a while. Then I started to iron again. Letak jer kat kain tu....THAT'S IT!!!... Nasib la tindakan reflect ku masih berfungsi. There, on my kain a nice 5cm x 0.5cm hole.!! Aduh!!! Kain ku... Hampeh punya iron (Of course I blame it on the iron!. It was doing fine on no 4 but suddenly became so hot when it is on no 2-Stupid!)

But still ok. I managed to 'tampal' the lubang and still can wear it. I don't want to spoil the day only because a hole on my kain. So terus la bersiap. I have to fetch Kasma. ( I pujuk her to accompany me as in the invitation card says 'Cik Safwin Saidin & partner'). So kena la carik sesapa jd partner since I don't have a so called 'permanent' partner.

Everything went well. I arrived at Epit's around 1 something. Smpi terus mkn and duduk jap. Tgk tetamu cam ramai jek so ingat nk bgn n carik epit. Just to let him know that I dtg to his wedding. Jumpa dia kat meja beradap. Salam2 and amik gmbr. To upload kat my fotopages ( As I promised Iva utk amik gmbr epit n wife). Klik here klik there. OK ..Done! "Dah kasma, jom balik". So we headed to our car and gerak!

Masa otw balik tu tetiba teringat kat jep. Yup. Jep dh selamat balik Myanmar. Tak sempat nk jumpa dia. So ingat tak pe la. Gi la melawat mak Jep. So dari Ampang singgah la Melawati. When I made my turn to Melawati junction tetiba tergerak hati lagi (asyik tergerak hati jer smlm). "Eh, ko nk tgk umah lama aku tak?". I said to Kasma. "Belasah la..". So kona la ke jln B tu. Dekat selekoh B12 tu tetiba kereta terhenjut2. Dah! Apa pulak nih... Nasib baik sempat stop kan kereta kat tepi jln. Pelik!. Tak de angin tak de ribut main henjut2 lak keta nih. Try start keta. "Vroom!!" Ok. Bole start. Lega. Tak de masalah. So I happily tekan clutch and masuk gear. "Eh! Pesal ni. Aku salah tekan ker?" Try lagi. Tak bole jgk. Ha Sudah! Pesal keta aku tak bole masuk gear??? UWAH!!! kenapa kah ini terjadi! Apa lagi...call ocha la...Hehehe.

Me: "Wei, keta tak bole masuk gear la. Camne nih?"
Ocha: "Hah! Naper lak"
Me: "Mana la xpin tau"
Ocha: "Hmm, jap soh azul call Pak Cik Mat"

At this moment I already knew that this car need to be towed!. Sementara tunggu I call papa. Hoping that he will be in KL area. "Papa kat Rembau attend kenduri" Adus! Tunggu jer la.
So dipendekkan cerita, I talked to Pakcik Mat as he need me to check first before he can confirm that the car need to be towed. Conclusion for my checking, Pakcik Mat said try to get break oil and put it in the clutch punya bekas and try to pump. Kalu bole tu bole la bawak. Kalu tak bole mmg kena tow. So memerah otak lak nk pikir camne nk gi carik break oil nih. Bunge!!!. Dia dok kat Melawati.

Me: " Salam bunge. Ko balik umah mak ko tak minggu nih:
Bunge: "Salam. Aku balik. ni dari umah mak aku la ni"
Me: " Ye ker? Ko kat umah mak ko la yek nih. (stupid! she just told me that). Aku nk minta tlg nih. Aku kat Melawati nih. Keta aku rosak...blah...blah...blah.
Bunge: "La..ko lambat skit jer. Aku baru kuar. Aku dh kat area Ampang"

Gone!.......Ha! Zack!!!

Me: "Zack ko balik umah mak ko tak?" (Weekend seems to be balik-umah-mak day)
Z: "Balik. Tapi aku skrg kat Bukit Raja"
Me: "Hampeh!. Ko buat apa kat sana? Ko gi umah aku ker? Yang aku nk lak kat Melawati...blah...blah....blah...

Habis dah kawan harapan. As the same time kasma tried to get help.She managed to get her bro inlaw's friend to come and have a look at the car. They did something but come up with conclusion that the car still need to be towed. Well nak buat camne. After I thanked them I made a call to ocha. Pastu Kasma kata "Eh, kita tak yah bayar ke? "Ha ah la..." So kasma asked kena bayar ker? (Lepas tu baru perasan kinda stupid coz obviously he will say no). True enough the guys said " Tak pe la"... I think because kami ni pompuan yang cam blur2 wearing baju kurung yang agak glam. So they kinda have to say no to this so called glam-blur2-girls. Hehehe. Anyway thanks abg mekanik. (we dont even ask the name!!)

To cut the story short again. Gi lepak umah kawan kasma jap which happen to be seberang jln jer. While waiting for ocha. Lepas ocha dh sampai Pakcik Mat belum kuar lagi. (Dah la fr shah alam and it was raining- surprisingly raining only at Melawati. As what ocha told me. Huh! What a day!) So sementara tunggu kena la singgah kat rumah Uncle Jaafar. I very much wanted to avoid going there. Tapi nk jadi cerita tak bole elak. So me, ocha, azul and kasma pun gerak la ke rumah tu sementara tunggu kereta untuk ditow. After slightly more than 1 hour, tow dh smpi and we all pun gerak balik. Otw back called Pakcik Mat. Kalu bole minta buat cepat psl nk gi keje on Monday. Pakcik Mat kata ok. Nnt dia call.

Today Pakcik Mat call kata keta tak bole siap. Ingat kan pump jer rupanya clutch pad rosak! So kena rongkah (bukak) the whole thing. So nk tak nk kena tumpang azul ke TBC esok n minta papa hantar gi keje. Ikut hati nk EL jer tapi...KEJE BANYAK!!!! Uwah!!!!

Ocha: "Jumaat nnt xpin hantar kakak sekolah yek"
Me: "Hantar kat gate ke hantar smpi class?"
Ocha: "Memana la...gate ke class ke"
Me: "Kol berapa nk kena kuar"
Ocha: "Latest by 7.10a.m"
Me: "OK"

So on Friday January 11th terjadi la episod menghantar my beloved niece to school. Balqis is in Std 1. Dia ni prob skit bila nk gi sekolah. The reason why mama dia tak nk hantar is because.....baca la seterusnya.

7.00a.m- Kakak: "Bie dh nk gi keje? Adik tinggal ngan sapa?"
Me: "Biar la adik tinggal sorang pun"

7.03a.m- Ocha: "Hari ni bie hantar kakak ye. Mama hantar adik"
Kakak: "Naper mama tak hantar" (Muka dh tukar skit)
Ocha: "Gi jer ngan bie...bie dh tunggu kat keta tuh"

7.05a.m- Masuk jer kereta....
Kakak: " Bie, kakak tak nak gi sekolah"
Me: "Tak bole la... kakak kena gi sekolah. Kan mama ngan papa dah cakap."

Dengan muka yang penuh emosi dan air mata dok bertakung, kakak diam jer. The 'drama' is about to happen.....smpi jer sekolah (which is about less than 5 minutes)

Me: "Ok kakak, jom turun"
Kakak: " Kakak nak mama!!!!! (started crying...loud....lounder...and....)

Maka bermula la drama swasta.... To actually get kakak to get out from the car took me bout 20 minutes. From the car to the scholl gate another 10 minutes. Meraungnya tok sah kira la. Like I said....Drama Swasta di Pagi Hari.... Semua mata terpaku memandang ku (Not because I'm pretty gorgeous or what...It's because I have a 'fight' with a 7 years old girl trying to 'drag' her to school. 1001 excuses dia bagi.... Kakak mengantuk sgt la... kakak rindu mama la... There was a question she asked me. Rehat pukul berapa (I told her mama will come during your 'rehat' time). I said in 2 hours. She said kakak tnya berapa minit.... kakak tak nak jam... Then I said it will be 120 minutes. Terjerit2 dia kata lamanya!!!!... I said mana lama... only 2 hours... Ye la tapi beratus minit....Eeee! Hampeh budak nih....

So berbalik ke 'dragging' her to the gate (baru gate tau!!!) Time ni ramai dh beratur for the perhimpunan. Kakak still meraung.... (director belum kata "cut!!!...tu yang dia tak stop lagi tuh") Pengawas pun dok la help me to pujuk kakak. Mana makan saman!. Punya la dok having an "intelectual reasoning" with kakak tak sedar dari tadi 1 teacher kakak dok berdiri kat belakang. I didn't realize until kakak said " kakak tak nak beratur!!" And the teacher replied " Tak nk beratur takpe..berdiri jer kat tepi....Bawak dia ke sana" She told me. So I did bawak ...hmmm... no...more like jln2 sesorang and kakak terpaksa ikut ( I was carrying her school bag). Smpi kat depan perhimpunan tu...Histeria lagi... Nk tak nak 2 org cik terpaksa pegang kuat2. Habis baju ku ditarik2 kakak. Cikgu tu kata... Pergi jer la.... So I did... Kakak punya la jerit time tu... She was screaming sambil terjege (something like terbeliakkan mata). As if cikgu tu dera dia... I walked half way pas tu pusing tgk kakak ok ke tak... Sian plak... tak smpi hati.... tapi terpaksa tinggal kan dia....tak tau la smpi bila kakak will be camtu....

Kakak ni bukan apa... me and my sis kinda agree that she may suffer from Didaskaleinophobia (School Phobia) . Check out my sis's blog for it: http://bamz107.blogspot.com/. Dia ada almost all the symptoms. Sian nya budak nih.

Turn out mama dia tak gi pun time rehat. Ocha takut dia tak nak masuk class balik. Bila amik kakak kol 12, makcik tu ok jer!!!!... Siap beli belah kat kedai buku. Habis RM4. Beli buku kaler la, sticker la, playing cards la... Hampeh tul.... Kesimpulannya: Nk hantar tu jer prob... Dh smpi sekolah ok jer.

So...sapa nk hantar kakak gi sekolah Monday nih? Hehehhehe....

Who doesn't?... I remembered as a kid I used to lie. Well, most of the time. (hey! At least I admit it). Again, the question is who doesn't? I believe everyone in this world tell lies at least once in their life. Either you lie to your parents, your brothers, your sisters, your friends and most frequently you lie to yourself. As a kid we lie because we are afraid of punishment.

Why do we lie? I would say that people lie because they are afraid of the consequences of telling the truth. 'Truth hurts', some may say. But which one would you choose? Beautiful lies or hurting truth. If you choose 'beautiful lies' well nothing is this world is beautiful forever. And if you choose 'hurting truth', again nothing in this world is beautiful forever. Therefore, do expect to be hurt once in a while. After all truth doesn't hurt ALL the time. It depends on how you take it.

People say the older you get the wiser you are. Which I totally agree. As I moved on with life from kid to teenager, I realize that I lied too much. Especially to myself. So I decided to stop. I tried to tell truth nothing but whole truth. But I failed. This was when I discovered truth really hurts. Either it will hurt me or the other person. Then I realized that there will come a circumstances that we HAVE TO lie. I got this from the internet. They call it the advantages or more acceptable reasons for lying.

1)the truth can be very hurtful
2)helps avoid unnecessary conflict
3)helps maintain a sense of privacy

I would very much agree on this. Especially in 2 and 3.

I remembered once I tell the truth to one of my best friends. Guess what's the price that I have to pay for that. Our friendship!! Maybe I was too hard on her when telling the truth. Or maybe she is not ready for the truth. Anyway, we avoided each other for 8 months but thankfully we are now friends again. (How can you let go a 17 years old friendship just like that!!!)

Can we avoid lies? I believe not. There are 2 ways to look at it. For me it is 'ok' to lie if the results will make the world nicer place to live and make others happier. But what I dont agree is when the results of lying will hurt other people thus make the world not worth to live in.

So the choice is yours. You decide whether or not to tell the truth or lie. But if you ever come across people who lie to you, don't simply go crazy for that. Try to understand. Understand why they are lying to you. Try to understand their situation. Sometimes they might have reasons for that. But if they don't...then go ahead! Do what ever you want. Hehehehe!