"As Is"

: tak tahan dgn tahap kebusukkan yg agak luar biasa nih.....seminggu lagi weiii.....

: tension berat turun skit jer tahun nih (ke tak turun langsung??!!). Selalunya min 4kgs. Maybe sebab baru lepas operate and dok umah jer bulan posa nih...

: bersemangat nk menambah income sara diri...hihihihi

: nervous tunggu monday ni - Jeng, jeng jeng.....

: sedih baca kisah2 org lain yg terus-terusan diberi dugaan ALLAH. Esp Mawar.

: tak mau pikir ttg kesedihan yg pasti akan ada bila melawat kubur Mama nnt. Ya Allah, Pls dont let me cry this time....

: wondering how this raya would be?. -Balik umah maktok bersama2 semua including mami and my step siblings...

: bersepah bilik tak kemas2 lagik.... (It's not something new....hahahah)

: syiokkk bila dpt cuti raya smpi lepas raya.

: dah tak tau apa nk cakap....hehehhehe....

The entrance

Bergambar before menunggu waktu Iftar

Selepas berbuka... posing lagik...

-is exactly 1 month I am on MC. This date last month I was admitted due to Viral fever at SMC. Dr. Hazim extended my MC for another week coz my nose still 'berkerak' and bengkak inside. I did my follow up yesterday to remove the 'kerak'. Masa buat tak sakit, tapi half an hour after dat, MasyaAllah punya la berdenyut area hidung membawak ke mata... Raised by Mama where we were tought not to easily take any painkiller and try as much as possible to tahan sakit, I didn't take any medicine for that. Alhamdulilah mlm skit sakit pun skit2 hilang....


-kakak dah dua hari admitted kat SMC due to UTI / Bacterial Infection. Since kakak demam panas, we bawak jumpa Dr. Ling. (Kakak lately, for the past 2 months selalu demam. Her demam only attack ker at nite. Dan her temperature akan naik gegila.) Before gi SMC, we went to klinik Dr. Shima asking for referal letter. That was at 9.20 la lebih kurang and her temp 38.1 (which is already high for 7 years old kid). Later about 10 am at the hospital when the nurse checked her temp, it was 40.4 (less than 1 hour!!!). Terus nurse kena masuk ubat kot buntot. Takut kena sawan. Naik jer ward terus kena letak towel kat ketiak la...atas kepala la...atas perut la... to kurangkan her panas. Of course she was on drip. Dah dok muntah, dehydrated la makcik tu. Towards petang she was a bit ok. But when I visited her this morning, nmpk la dia cam tak berapa sihat. Weaker than yesterday. Tadi Ocha message kata Kakak start balik vomitting. Tambah ngan cirit lak... Hmmmm... nk gi tgk la nih...

-Today gak birthday Sharia... Hapy Birthday Sharia. Sorry I couldn't find any of ur photo in my PC. Dlm album ada lah... nk kena scan la plak kan...later la kay... Anyway, enjoy ur day. May Allah bless u and your family always.

till then...chowwww

Happy Birthday Balqis

(Kek tak de lagi sebab kek adik pun belum habis... so weekend ni baru nk beli- will upload gambar kakak with cake later)

September mmg ramai yg celebrate Birthday. After I saw a list of september birthdays in Aishah's, terasa nk buat list gak. Based on apa yang di ingat dlm pala nih... Hmm let me see..



4 - Norli
7 - Bazleen
9 - Bibi Chik and Fidya
10- Balqis and Amirah
11- Rasa cam ada tapi tak ingat.... (bukan WTC runtuh time ni ker?...hehheheh)
12- Sharia
22 - Ammar
25- Lizzie & Aqeel
27- Azie
28-Kak Tnee, Kak Alee and myself
29- Zack
30-Ina Zarinawati

So today,



Happy Birthday to Bibi Chik (Sharifah Nadirah Syed Omar AlQadree)

This was the conversation on 26th August between me and my officemate, Jeff, at the hospital less than 24 after the surgery.

Me: Jeff, Mr Ho berlakon kat TV yek?
Jeff: Berlakon. Citer apa?
Me: Tah... Something to do with Clear...shampoo Clear. If I' not mistaken the title is GODA..or something....
Jeff: Goda?? (giggling). Dia nk goda sapa? Naper I tak penah tau pun citer tu.
Me: Ala tu citer baru...kat 8TV. I baru bgn tido time tu... tetiba ternmpk kat TV. I ingat I mimpi. Tapi rasanya betul la MR. Ho.
Jeff: U miss him ke smpi nmpk dia kat TV. Hihihihih
Me: Bukan la... I rasa betul I nmpk dia
Jeff: Ye la. Nnt I balik ofis I bgtau dia u rindu sgt kat dia smpi nmpk dia kat TV...
Me: I nmpk dia laaaaaa.......

So today masa tgh boring... terjumpa la citer GODA kat 8TV online. Memang SAH!!. Mr Ho yg berlakon dlm tu (Epi 3). Dgn swift dia lagik. So sesapa nk tgk Mr. Ho kat Goda, gi la here. Click kat All shows, pilih Goda.

Selamat Menonton!!!!

Kakak punya:

Basically sama cam adik. Except from me. Kakak nk 'Emergency Cart Set'- Ala2 set doktor2 nih la...

Since dah beli utk anak menakan yg pompuan ni... Tetiba teringat lak kat anak menakan yang boys tu. Jarang dpt hadiah dari Bie ni. Esp Nassar. So carik2 la benda yg kot2 dorang suka...:

Naffzan dpt Radio Control Batmobile and since abg dia dapat 'car' Nassar pun dpt 'Shackin' Wacky Sounds Driver'.

On 24th August, dlm kol 6 ptg gi 'check in' kat SMC. Kalu la bole masuk malam...mmg sehabis2 malam la nk masuk. Tapi memikirkan kena posa la segala bagai... masuk la ptg. So posa start kol 12 mlm sebab scheduled to operate around 8 am the next day.


Esoknya at 8 am dorang dah soh tukar baju... dah dibawak ke OT (Dewan pembedahan). Dari wad dah ada 2 nurse tnya mcm2 soklan. Nama sapa? Bila last mkn? Sapa sign borang nih? Dah baca surat bius? Blah blah blah... Smpi lak kat OT tu sorang lagi staff kat situ tnya benda yg sama. Jawab jer la. They are just doing their job. Sementara tunggu DR yang patut buat ku pengsan and DR yg patut mengoperate hidungku, dorang letak kat holding area. Tunggu punya tunggu smpi jadi heran. Apsal aku tak berdebar2? Selalu benda2 camni mesti aku rasa semacam. Tapi tah...relaks jer... Tepat kol 8.20am, nurse kat depan tu dpt call. Tetiba i feel strange. Bunyi cam pelik jer. True enuff, yg call tu DR Hazim. Dia nk postponed the op sebab MIL dia jatuh and pengsan. No wonder la relaks jer... So hantar balik masuk wad.


Kuar jer dari OT ocha dah tunggu. Aik? Hmm.. Tak jadik. DR Hazim ada emergency. Postpone esok. Lepas tukar balik baju, dorang hantar breakfast. So bila dh nmpk mknan (2 keping roti ngan milo je pun) belasah la mkn. Around 8.45 dah settle mkn semua. About one hour later, sorang misi ni masuk ( I think she's Indian from India coz her English not that good - what more her BM kan?) asking me dh mkn ke belum. I said dah la.. Rugi la tak mkn kan. Dh org bagi... Amik jer la.. Rupanya dia tnya tu sebab kalu I tak mkn lagik DR Hazim 'ajak' operate skrg. So since I dah mkn.. operation will be at 3pm. So 'puasa' la lagi sekali before operate.

So around 3 pm smpi la kat OT tu (lagi sekali). Masuk je pintu tu nmpk DR Hazim. Tetiba...dup dap dup dap. HA!! confirm operate nih. Tetiba berdebar. Masuk jer terus ke holding area and terus disoal jawab by DR Zul (tukang bagi pengsan). From holding area terus ke BILIK BEDAH 3. Dup dap dup dap lagik. Camno la rupenyer tmpt org operate. The moment I dok jer kat tmpt nk operate tu org semua tgh busy gler buat apa tah. Masa tu la mulut ni terkumat kamit baca apa yg patut. Later I saw Dr Zul amik my left hand and dah nk start cucuk apa yang patut. While waiting for him to carik urat yg mana patut cucuk, one nurse came to me and put the mask. She said it oxigen. "Nafas cam biasa ye". Camne nk nafas cam biasa. My nose block. So kena nafas kot mulut. Tgh elok2 nafas tetiba.... Eh, pesal aku rasa semacam ni. Intai2 Dr Zul dah cucuk... Oooo camni rasa bila kena bius...(sempat lagi pikir camtu hahahah). E eh... apsal rasa semacam ni mcm semacam jer... Ehh...ehhh....eh.... LUP!!!!!! GELAP............


Eh rasa nk batuk lak... Batuk la... Uhuk..(batuk pun cam nk tak nak). Uhuk lagik... sambil mencuba sedaya upaya nk bukak mata. Ya Allah...apsal berat mata nih? Bukak mata jer berair. Mencurah2 air mata. Bila lak aku nangis? Naper aku nangis??. Aku kat mana nih... ?? Tetiba dengar cam ada baby nangis... Oooo... kat holding room. Baru lepas operate. Operate? Apa jadi kat hidung aku? Nk pegang hidung tapi tangan ni nk angkat Ya Allah punya la beratt!!!. Naper rasa semacam nih? Tak suka nyer... It's like my mind is working but not the body. Lemah ya amat. Tetiba kedengaran 'Pn Safwin'...Puan dah sedar?... (hangguk mana panggil aku puan nih... aku lom kawin la).. tapi sempat gak menggangguk... Hehehhe..'Tak pe. Puan rehat dulu yer. Nanti kita masuk wad'. Ha... pape jer la... Nk rehat pun tak bole... asyik nk batuk jer.. Tekak punya la perittttttt!!! Hidung??? Alhamdulilah... mmg tak sakit. Cuma rasa 'berat'. Walaupun dlm keadaan sedar tak sedar, sempat kedengaran 'Ma, BB mana ma?' (or something like that - tapi suara tu mmg kenal sangat esp bila dgr terjerit2-hahahah). Oh! My dearest nieces and my sis tgh tunggu kat luar... cepat la bawak kuar... malas dh nk tunggu kat sini. Uhuk! Uhuk! Uhuk lagik...


Ok puan, nk naik sekarang? Saya panggil kan nurse ye...Sekejap. About less than 3 minutes that nurse pun sampai. The moment pintu OT tu bukak, I saw my nieces, ocha and yah. The first question my nieces tnya. 'Bie kata nk buang hidung, tu ada lagi' (I told them that DR kena buang hidung I. That's why kena operate) Hahahah... I gelak jer. Tetiba kakak tnya.. 'Naper bie nangis'. Bie tak nangis pun kakak.. mata berair jer.


(Adik mengintai dari pintu bilik op - Mana Bie nih, lamanyaaa!!!)





(Kakak pun join sama intai)

(Baru kuar OT - Muka (esp hidung) kembang semangkuk!!)

So on 27th, as DR Hazim promised, bole balik. Tapi walaupun dah discharge, my nose still bleeding and my tekak is damn so sakit. Nk minum pun payah. Cuma hari ni selepas 2 hari puasa... alhamdulilah dah bole mkn skit. But nose? Still ada darah skit2 and berair jer. But getting better. On this 4th, I have my second appoitment (after the op) dgn DR Hazim. Hope semua will be ok.

(Nurse Bazleen smpi tertido jaga patient....heheheh)