"As Is"

People change. They do.

2011-09-18T00:37:00.001+08:00

Sesetgh org kata, ppl will never change. Well I say, ppl change IF they WANT to. I've seen that. Been there done that.

Samada seseorg tu nak berubah ke arah baik atau sebaliknya. But as human being yg serba serbi kurang, kita sentiasa la mengharapkn yg pertukaran tu ke arah kebaikan.

Perubahan bole berlaku dimana2 dan pada sesiapa pun. Pertama sekali of course la dgn izin Allah. Tanpa izinNya apa pun xjalan.

Kedua, kita perlu MAHU berubah. Kalau sekadar cakap nk berubah. Air liur je la. Mmg xkemana. Perubahan memerlukan pengakuan dari hati, akal dan perbuatan. Ketiga2 berjalan serentak. Niat saja xcukup. Pikir saja xcukup. Anggota badan dan hati serta akal harus bergabung tenaga mencari perubahan. Bukan senang.

In fact, xde sapa pun kata berubah itu senang. Bukan saja berubah menjadi baik susah. Menjadi jahat pun sbnrnya susah. Bayang kan kalu kita ni mmg selama ini agak baik. Kita nak buat jahat nk bunuh orang misalnya. Org bg kita pisau, adakah kita akan amik dan terus bunuh org? Susah kan? Nak jadi jahat pun perlukan gabungan tenaga hati, akal dan perbuatan.. Apatah lagi perubahan kearah kebaikan.

Selalunya akan ada pendorong atau tulang belakang pd setiap perubahan diri kita. Biasa la, kita manusia biasa. Dan semakin significant nya pendorong itu pada kita, maka makin kuat dan yakin la kita utk berubah. Walaupun sebenarnya kita patut yakin dan kuat kerana Allah. Hehehe. Xpe, sekurang2nya pendorong kita tu akan dpt pahal sbb bantu kita mencari perubahan kearah kebaikan.

For me, Alhamdulilah tgh mengusahakan utk berubah ke arah yg lebih baik dr dulu. So far agak tidak mengecewakan. Dan berharap dpt kekal seperti itu. Terima kasih kepada pendorong saya. Dan saya harap, terus la mendorong saya. Saya jgk sentiasa berdoa agak kita sentiasa mendapat paduan akal, hati dan gerakkan anggota utk berubah ke arah kebaikan.

InsyaAllah.....

I am on mobile

2011-09-11T07:23:00.001+08:00

Yes... I know I said I'm back more than 6 month ago and that's it.. Hehehe

Honestly I don't know what kept me busy. But i certainly dont have time to open up my pc, check my mail, open up blogger and update something.

Anyway, now that I do own an iPhone, I certainly hope that I will have more time for this. Or at
least to check my fren's blog.

For a start, let me tell u how I can afford an iPhone. This smart phone only cost me rm70. Yes!! U read it rite.. Rm70 ONLY!!!

See, that's the beauty of being a banker in a wellknown bank. Hehee. All the telecommunication companies berebut2 nak buat promo. And of course the staffs pun berebut2 nk dapatkn promo.. Hehehe

So si Gomok Kuning came to the office abt 3 weeks ago. At first xde la minat sgt since i already owned a Blackberry (from Celcom who have the lousiest Acct Manager and the second ridicolous billing system EVER!!)- waiting time to have it disconnected. Lagi 6 bulan.

Berbalik kepada cerita kononnya nak TENGOK je promo tu. Sekali tgk terus tertambat hati. Rm70!!! Just pay rm70 and u wil get a white 16gb iPhone 4!!! Btw i chose white colour coz black for me is too comman. Ocha n apiq n azul is having black ip. So let's have some white to balance it. Hahahaha

So itu la cerita ip. Tp setelah 2 minggu pki, saya masih lg blur2.com. Still learning and Apple system is not user freindly for me. Berapa kali asik kene marah je sbb xpaham. Uhuk2!

Sian Kita Wak!!! Hehehhe

I'm back

2011-02-28T23:20:00.002+08:00

Dah lama hati ini membuak2 nk berblog kembali.....

Sudah lama kamu ditinggalkan....

Terlalu banyak utk diceritakan.... Terlalu banyak....

Sabar ya... ;)

Cerita pendek bergambar

2010-04-10T22:54:00.011+08:00

1) Cerita pertama

Makan2 nasi ambeng di tingkat 4 MGCC. Sungguh kenyang dan menyebabkan berlakunya perkembangan badan!! Para2 penyumbang adalah para2 kenaikan pangkat.... *peace*

2) Cerita 2

Perasmian Futsal Court @ Rooftop. Sesi mendera mgmt level. Main futsal berkaki ayam dan berkain batik (ada yang smpi koyak la kain batik tu)

3) Cerita ketiga

Vote for nad. BFF adik ku. Support support support. Tumbler itu dapat percuma bila pergi Debaran AF.

4) Cerita yang bukan cerita

Saje nk letak gambar ni. The Generasi 1 of Ashadi Gals. Yang S2,S3,S4 and S6 tu bukan saiz baju ye. Itu adalah turutan adik beradik.... :)

5) Cerita Bangga

Ini adalah hasil jahitanku yang pertama (versi baju). Bangga sebab bole pki.. Kira jadi la kan. Tapi masih byk yang perlu diperbaiki. Practise makes perfect. Oleh itu mari la beli kain murah2 (rm5 semeter kat nagoya) and practise.. Target: Raya nk pki baju jahit sdr... yehaaa!!

6) Cerita cinta

Ini lah chenta hati baru saya... kenal kan...sihitam manis beriberi... muahhs... Segala lautan dalam dan gunung berapi ku tempuhi utk mendapatkan chenta ini. Yang pasti kesimpulan utk segala pahit maung ini, service Celcom Account Manager MALINDA MD NOR amat BUSUK sekali!!!!

Adohai!!!

2010-03-29T09:07:00.003+08:00

Kejadian di Nyonya Colours - Bukit Raja

B2 : Bie, kakak ada kedai....

Me: Kedai? Kedai apa?

B2: Ada kedai tu nama dia Balqish Jati

Me: Balqish Jati? Kedai apa? Jual Perabot ek?

B2: Bukan

Me: Habis tu jual apa?

B2: Jual kerusi, meja, almari... macam2 lagi la (muka penuh suci dan tak bersalah)

Me: *speechless dan rasa nk hempuk je*. Adik, kalu jual meja kerusi semua tu namanya PERABOT la... adohai!!!!

Letih melayan budak ni!!!!

Surat untuk Mama

2010-03-22T20:27:00.031+08:00

Assalammualaikum Mama,

Mama sihat? Xpin harap mama ok2 jer kat sana ye. Xpin selalu doa agar mama ok kat sana. Sorry la sebab kekadang xpin lupa nk doa kat mama. Rasa bersalah sangat kalau lupa. Sorry ye mama. Xpin akan cuba tak terlupa lagi.

Rindu la kat mama....
Mama rindu kitaorang tak? Diam2 dh 4 tahun kan mama. Dalam 4 tahun ni sekali pun xpin tak penah tulis surat kat mana. Memang macam nk tulis. Tapi tak tau nk tulis apa. Rasa tak terzahir rindu xpin ni dgn kata2 atau tulisan. Sudahnya, langsung tak tulis kat mama kan... Sorry ye ma....

Ma,
Xpin ada banyak citer best nk citer kat mama. Jarang xpin dapat byk citer best2 ni. Rasanya dlm 4 tahun ni baru kali ni bertubi2 citer best dtg ma. Sebelum ni agak kurang best citer xpin. Ma nk tau? Hehehe. Meh nk citer.

Pertama sekali dan citer yang paling best.... XPIN PROMOTED!!!... Hehehe..best kan ma. Xpin pun tak de la harap sangat ma. Sebab penah frust dulu. Kan masa xpin jaga mama dulu, time tu kira ala2 due for promotion. Tapi sebab MC xpin byk, dgn unpaid leave lagi sebab jaga mama masa tu. Xpin tak dapat. Frust tu mmg ada frust jugak. Tapi xpin tak ralat. Sebab xpin jaga mama. Lagi pun kalau mama ada mesti mama akan kata...bukan rezeki xpin lagi... kan?? So sebab tu xpin tak kisah sangat. Kali ni pun xpin tak harap sangat. Walaupun bos xpin cakap dia recommend nama xpin tapi xpin malas nk pikir sangat.. Actually xpin tak pikir pun. Tetiba ada officemate xpin dtg and congratulate me. Memula terpinga2 gak, tapi terasa macam mesti psl promotion. So I did my checking. alhamdulilah, xpin dpt ma. Masa tu kan ma, tak tau nk kata apa. I was very very speechless and extremely happy. Rasa mcm nk tepon mama n bgtau. Instead I told Ocha and Yah. Dorang la orang pertama yang tau. Heheheh.. Happy sangat ma.

Bukan setakat tu aje...
Dlm seminggu dua ni byk jgk benda best2 jadi. Rezeki bertambah. Ramai bagi xpin hadiah ma. Kat ofis xpin kan ma, ada sorang bos tu, baik sangat. Xpin kalau down kan suka dgr dia citer. Kekadang tak minta nasihat dia pun tak pe. Dengar je dia bercerita psl masalah dia, masalah orang lain terus buat xpin insaf. Dia ni kan ma sangat2 pemurah. Kalau la xpin bole jadi mcm dia. InsyaAllah....
Dia ada bagi xpin 1 barang ma. Xpin SUKAAAAA sangat2!. Dia bagi xpin boots ma! Mahal tau boots tu. Dia bgtau xpin dia beli RM400!! Xpin dh la mmg suka boots. Dari dulu lagi... tapi tak terbeli2. Pastu dia kata dia ada yang tak nk pakai dh. Kalu muat dia nk bagi. As what she said, rezeki xpin. Xpin try mmg muat ma... Hehehe. Suke sangat. Yang buat xpin suka lagi apa tau? Kasut tu brand BALLY. Brand favourite mama kan. Dulu mama byk kasut BALLY kan. Xpin pun suka kasut mama tu. Tu yang bila dpt boots tu xpin teringat mama. Suka sangat.....

Pas tu... ada lagi orang bg xpin hadiah. Ada sorang adik ni. Close ngan xpin. Kekadang dia dtg tido kat umah. Teman xpin. Dia bagi xpin handbag. Hehehe. Xpin skrg gila handbag ma. Sebab ada 1 website tu, handbag dia murah2 dan cantik2. Ala...mama dulu kan suka kumpul baju kan.. xpin suka handbag.. mcm dh byk jgk la.. tapi tetiba asyik ada kaler yang tak de jer... hehehe..
Xpa pun hari tu belanja xpin handbag ma. Tapi tak dpt lagi. Kalu ma ada kan, mesti ma bising kat xpin sebab handbag byk... Hahahahhaaha..

Sekarang kan ma, xpin dok belajar jahit baju sdr. Start dgn nk jahit kain (skirt). Ada sorang officemate ni kan, dia la yang encourage xpin jahit baju sdr. Ma kan tau xpin tak penah dan tak berapa suka menjahit. Mesin pun mana reti guna sangat. Nasib ma sempat ajar xpin guna mesin jahit tu. Tq ek ma sebab belikan mesin tu. Ada lagi dan masih elok lagi. Baru kak tnee hantar smlm. Xpin akan belajar jahit smpi menjadi baju/skirt xpin tu. InsyaAllah bole. Sekarang kena jahit sendiri ma. Penny dah tak amik tempahan. Dia kata mata dia dh tak nmpk. Dah berapa tahun dah kitaorang tak tempah baju. Asyik beli yang dh siap dh. Ma tau je la kalu beli yang dh siap. Kain senteng. Nk pki kain mesti ke ala2 londehkan bawah pusat.

Ni la antara citer2 best yang xpin nk citer. Lagi best kalu dpt citer terus kat mama kan. Tapi tak pe lah.

Xpin sebenarnya kan rindu sangat ngan mama. Xpin rasa bukan xpin sorang. Ocha, Yah, Xpa, Apiq. Semua rindu mama. Dh 4 tahun tapi most of the times kami still rasa lost. Selalu gak kami cakap, kan bagus kalu mama ada. Tapi tak baik kan cakap cam tu. Mcm tak redha. Ma pun mesti marah kalu kami cakap cam tu kan.

Dulu xpin selalu tertanya kenapa mama tak penah dtg dlm mimpi xpin. Xpin rasa nk sangat jumpa mama. Not even once dlm 4 tahun ni. Ocha penah mimpi mama. Yah penah. Xpa pun penah rasanya. Apiq? Tah, kalu penah pun dia takan cakap. He is very secretive sekarang. Sian dia rindu mama tu. Tapi lepas pikir2 balik, mungkin ada hikmah ma tak dtg jumpa xpin dlm mimpi. Xpin rasa xpin tak bole handle. Sedangkan menaip ni pun bergelen2 apatah lagi kalu jumpa dlm mimpi.

Eh ma, ok la... dh lambat ni. Xpin kena gi dulu la. Lain kali xpin tulis lagi ek. Hilang sket rindu dpt citer kat mama. Nanti ada citer best2 lagi xpin citer lagi tau.

Bye Ma...

Assalammualaikum.....

Pojaan Hatiku.. ;)

2010-03-08T08:48:00.010+08:00

Haloooo....

Lama tak dgr cerita? hehehe... Byk citer ni... Been busy and away for few days. On 26th Feb, I sent my buddy, Norli and her family to LCCT. Mereka nk bersuka ria di Bali. Si kecik Icha tu excited gler bila smpi LCCT. When I fetched her at around 7 a.m, she was a bit moody. Ha la..kena bgn awai hari cuti (mcm dia tau hari tu cuti...wakakaka).

Most of my close friends know that I'm crazy over shot glasses. So far I've collected more than 60. Most of them was given to me as souvenir from my frens and family members and some mmg I pesan, and some I got it for myself.

Norli didn't disappoint me when she came back with these:

She brought back not 1 but 3 shot glasses from Bali. Heaven! This is my 61th, 62th and 63th collection of it. I just love the Special Edition Shot Glass from HRC. In total now I have 3 different design of HRC Bali shot glass.

And the flip flop.... GREEN!!! dont you just love it? Bling-bling lagik... hahaha.. I was planning to buy a slipper for office, since I got this... so officially this will be my Prayer slipper in office... Wow! Glamer slipper I! ahahahah.

And the excitement doesn't stop here. Remember my previous entry I said I was a bit excited to go the the Team Building at PD and I don't know why. Only when the program started I know why I was looking forward for it... Will let you know later in this entry...hehehehhe.

Anyway, about the Team Building, I had a great time at Ilham Resort as expected. Actually, I have been to the same program last 4-5 years. I was fun but very tiring. Not as tiring as before because this time I already know what to expect from the program. But still tiring and semua sendi2 dan otot2 bekerja keras sepanjang 3 hari 2 mlm kat situ...

Meh la nk citer skit2 pasal program tu.. Tapi kalu nk best kena pergi sendiri dan rasa sendiri. Baru la mantap.. hehehe..

I arrived at Ilham resort on Friday after Friday prayer. We actually arrive quiet early. (we = me and afniza, we drove there). Petang tu ada acara indoor dan amik gambar. We were divided into groups and of course I wasn't together with Af. There were 6 teams all together. Oh ya.. Before I forget, this team building is for all Maybank Compliance Officer-CO (or if you are involve in compliance matters la). When I said all, I meant all. Not only locally but international CO were also there.. Namely from Philipines, Hong Kong, Shang Hai, Brunei, Singapore, Vietnam, London and hmmm... tak ingat lak... agak ramai gak la...

That nite itself dah mencabar. Masuk hutan ok..!! The group were given 2 lampu kat kepala tu dgn compass. Masuk hutan, carik la jln keluar. It was dark and really dark. But again it was fun. My group took 26 minutes to get ourself out from the woods. We got 2nd place for this.

Among other interesting activities were rafting and rappelling. Rappelling was the most 'popular' activity. Some were ok, some were not. Some cried, some 'argued' with the trainer to pull them back.. Heheheh... As for me, like I said, I have done this before so tak la takut sangat. But still ada gak dup dap skit2. Normal la kan. When our group Q utk buat benda ni, one of the trainer said 'Ok next please stand by'. Since I've done it before ingat nak make way to those ppl yang belum penah buat. So that tak de la dorang takut sangat. 2-3 kali trainer tu panggil tak de sapa nk pergi...tetiba kedengaran 'Ok Safwin, Come!' Mak ai!! The trainer actually called my name. I smiled to him sarcastically and bangun jugak la... The other trainer gave a puzzled look at me as in 'camne la mamat ni tau nama minah ni'. And I smiled to him jgk. So...camne mamat ni tau namaku?? Heheheheheh...

Camni...

I had a crush on him (the trainer) during my last Team Building kat tmpt yang sama. It was like 4 years back. Back then I tgk dari jauh jer. Sungguh semat mamat ini. Smpi habis program pun I didnt have the guts to tegur him to get his phone no ke apa ke. So with the help of my dearie fren, I finally manage to get his phone number. So the friendship starts. We keep in touch for few months. Then tetiba stop. But I still have his number. The last time he ever contacted me was last 2 years I think. He was checking whether I still remember him. Halo!! Wa ada crush sama lu of course la wa ingat lu... kan? Hehehehe.

So going back to the reason why was I so tergedik2 to go to this program, I think this could be the reason. I told some of my friends in the office that 'ntah2 mamat tu ada kot'. Tapi sumpah tak harap. Coz he told me once that he quit from the company to became free lance. Later he joined Lost World of Tambun. So mmg tak expect langsung. So bila ternampak dia.. I was like confuse.. Eh? Mamat ni ker? So I sms him. True enuff!! Mmg dia... But I didn't introduce myself face to face to him. I said, pepandai la awak teka nnt ek. And I didn't expect he know me sebab we never talked to each other during the last program and he only knew me melalui gambar masa program. Hehehehe. But he got good memory. He came to me and say 'Ni cik ke puan'. Choi!! hehehe..

I didn't have the opportunity to amik gambar dgn dia. Sorry Ocha. Busy la dgn program. I was committed to the program 100%. Hp pun tinggal kat bilik. But no worries, for those who ever wonder what kind of guy that I adore / admire.... mcm ni la rupanya. This is my defination of Encem!... hehehehe

Tadaa... This pic was taken from his FB. (Ye, dia add saya..hehehe) En Faizal, incase awak terbaca ni, sorry ye saya curi gambar awak. Ramai tertanya2 bagaimana rupa awak. And since saya tak sempat nk bergambar dgn awak, maka dgn itu saya terpaksa mencuri.. hehehe. Ampun ya pak!

So this is my kind of guy. The first guy yang I felt in love yang muka mcm ni .. Bernard Chandran!!! Ala2 muka cam ni kan?. There was another guy ala2 gini gak la... masa kat college dulu. Pun wa jatuh cinta gak! hehehehe. So he is the 3rd. Eh jap... looking at this pic again... sekali lalu macam ada muka uxop gak. (Bro uxop, u pun encem gak kan? Apsal u tak ngorat I dulu ek? - Hahahahaha)

So his name is Faizal. Sorry to disappoint my dear readers, he is MARRIED with 1 adorable son. Actually he was already engaged when our friendship started. He was frank about it and I respect him for that. Andddd, if he is not married, JGN HARAP WA NK TEGUR DIA. I will never ever tegur orang yang wa ada hati. I'll chicken out when comes to this situation. Once I know that I dah tak de feelings kat orang tu...baru la bole sembang mambang... Benggong kan...

Adoi... panjang lebar lak entry kali ni.. Ada lagi nk citer. Kisah balik umah lepas Team Buiding ni.. tapi later2 la...

Hmmm...Ntah

2010-03-02T21:57:00.005+08:00

Mcm tak de feel nk berblog... tapi cam lama sangat dh tak blog. Too many things to tell and yet dont know how to tell...

Rasa terhina bila mengetahui kisah sebenar disebalik angpau merah pada entry sebelum ini. For me better nothing dari memilih kasih. Tak baik tau. For what ever reason, I still feel it is not rite to do that. But xpin masih berterima kasih atas pemberian.

Feel bad today. Was being productive, tapi masih tak mencapai my own set of KPI. I was late for the submission of outbound report.(actually not really late as the due is today) but I still feel bad as I should have submitted it yesterday as per my plan. But again, my plan was hijacked by other ppl's plan... hehehe... what to do... kerja is kerja...

Since yesterday my face felt like burning. Macam berjemur plak... This happen at nite only. Like now!. Ayo.... tension sebab sangat pedih ok. Tapi bila siang ok lak. But if I gelak, people said I blushed. Mcm tadi, we were teasing Nora (baru balik cuti kawin). Bila xpin gelak, semua kata xpin blushing. Aik? Orang lain kawin, orang lain kena usik tetiba orang lain blushing. Apakah kaedah itu? hehehe...

Tetiba mcm tak sesabar nk gi Compliance team building kat PD jumaat ni. Tetiba excited semacam. Benggong xpin... hehehe

Lately terfikir, kalau xpin sakit ke, jatuh pengsan tetiba ke, will anyone in this house realize it? (Except for Apiq who always berebut my laptop?) Hmm... I doubt it....

Sekian

Terima kasih

2010-02-22T23:22:00.005+08:00

Sangat suka hari ini.
Hari ini adalah hari menerima...
Xpin menerima 3 benda yang sangat disukai hari ni....
Semuanya unexpected... tapi xpin suka... :))

Yeay!! Big Big bos bagi angpau... Best ooo... First time dpt angpau dari bos.. Semua yang keje hari ni dapat. This is my 7th year keje sini and baru first time dpt. I dont really care bout the amount (which as you can see is RM3) but the thot that counts. Mau dekat RM2k gak bos berabis bagi angpau kat office ni... (agaknya la).
THANK YOU CWH

As you all know, this year is the year of tiger. So let's roarrrr..... hehehehe... And you all also know that Maybank is tiger. Kebetulan Maybank is celebrating 50th year anniversary this year. An I personally feels that it time for the 'Tiger' to roar again.. This time, louder. I've been working here in Maybank Call Centre dh masuk 7 tahun. Of course there's ups and down's, the good times and bad times. But overall I can say that I like it here. I like working here. I like Maybank. And I would like very much to serve Maybank more. (have I mentioned that I lost all my cert therefore I cannot apply job else where? - actually that's the reason I'm stuck here). Hahahah... No la... half true and not... But I do like it over here. Despite of all the complaints I had and will be having, I still like it here.

So, for Maybank 50th anniversary ni ada dpt Tshirt. Just a normal tshirt. (Have I also mentioned that selama 7 tahun ni berapa byk baju Maybank I have collected?- 1 fine day bila xpin rajin, xpin akan amik gambar all the shirt ok). Most of them given to staff for free... So generous kan... Anyway, this year we will be getting 1 more. And Telesales are also showing off their generosity by giving us the F1 shirt. I love the cutting. It make me look slimmer... HEhehe. Once I get all the shirt + tshirt, I will post it here ok...

So going back to the second item that I received today.... Tadaaaa......

A Note book.... sangat cantik ok!!!... byk budget dh kuar awal tahun ni... I'm praying hard that Wahid is generous enough to give us extra bonus sempena ulangtahun ke 50 and I hope that Maybank will continue making profit in sempena tahun TIGER ni... So Maybankers.... Together we ROARRRRR!!!!!
THANK YOU MAYBANK

And last but not least... Chenta hati beta... Double yeay and horray!!!!

Penambahan kepada koleksi ku... Special thanks to my kazen... T1. Sangat2 suka. Ini adalah koleksi xpin yang ke 60....
THANK YOU T1

Thank you, Thank you and Thank you.....

p/s: Moga xpin bole jadi pemberi plak lepas ni... AMIN....

Suka suki di rumah

2010-02-21T18:50:00.008+08:00

Weekend ni xpin bersuka suki dirumah....
Sebenarnya tak la bersuka suki sangat. Dont feel like going out. Tak de orang nk ajak kuar pun. So untuk mengelakkan segala tahap kebosanan dirumah, xpin pun carik jalan nk suka suki dirumah. Walau pun tak berapa suka suki. Tapi buat2 je la.... ;P

FYI, xpin kalu dh dok umah ber'suka-suki' begini.... mmg tak gerak dari bilik... bangun dari katil hanya utk kenchhh ye... and mandi... kalu tak sorry... tak bergerak... In other words, bfast ter skip, dinner diabaikan... hanya mkn lunch... tu pun roti jer... begitu suka suki xpin tau... hahahah

Suka suki pertama ialah... xpin berjaya menghabiskan cerita ni... Fuh! finally...setelah berhari tgk.. Citer ni best... ala2 CSI gitu... tapi mistik sket arr..To complete this 20 episode ada la dlm 4 hari kot. I started during weekdays... habis keje, balik mandi terus on laptop... Tapi ada sambungan season 2.... so terpaksa tunggu S1 habis dload baru minta... tak suka tgk sekerat2....

Ceritanya:

In Season 1, FBI Agent Olivia Dunham recruits Peter to convince his estranged father Walter to help her save the life of John, her partner and lover. Olivia must deal with John's subsequent betrayal and piece together his role in the mysterious "Pattern," a series of unexplained events that have been occurring around the world. When Walter and Peter prove their worth, Olivia forms a team whose ongoing mission is to decipher the Pattern. Along the way, she must decide how much to trust John and Massive Dynamic executive Nina Sharp, both of whom seem to be hiding something.

Fringe is an American science fiction television series co-created by J. J. Abrams, Alex Kurtzman and Roberto Orci. The series follows a Federal Bureau of Investigation "Fringe Division" team based in Boston, Massachusetts under the supervision of Homeland Security. The team uses unorthodox "fringe" science and FBI investigative techniques to investigate "the Pattern", a series of unexplained, often ghastly occurrences that are happening all over the world. The show has been described as a hybrid of The X-Files, Altered States, The Twilight Zone, and Dark Angel.^[1][2]

Overall cerita dia best gak... since xpin mmg layan CSI, Heroes, Numbers, so citer ni pun xpin layan gak la... sesapa nk tgk bole pinjam.. Tapi cd xpin leh tgk kat pc saje ok.. ;)

Suka suki yang kedua:

1 Litre of Tears..... Uwahh... citer ni sedey giler... True story. Xpin mmg suka tgk / baca true story. Suka imagine apa yang sebenarnya orang lain lalui dlm hidup dorang. We sometimes or most of the times complaint about our life. How we are not happy, we still dont have this, dont have that, how we wish of this and how we wish of that... mcm2. Kita kekadang lupa, sesusah mana hidup kita, ada orang lagi yang lebih susah. Sepelik mana hidup kita, ada lagi orang yang pelik... So in a way, banyak iktibar bole diambil dari kisah2 benar ni...

Citer ni kazen xpin yang bagi. Dah lama dh dia soh tgk.. Sekarang baru sempat nk tgk... (lupa sebenarnya kewujudan citer ni dlm laptop...;))

para pelakonnya

sinopsisnya:
1 Litre no Namida (1リットルの涙 Ichi Rittoru no Namida^?, lit. "1 Litre of Tears"; also called A Diary with Tears or A Diary of Tears) is a dramatic tragedy diary written by Aya Kitō (木藤亜也 Kitō Aya^?, July 19, 1962 - May 23, 1988) published shortly before her death. The diary, a true story based on her own life, was originally written in first person. It is about a girl coping with her teenage life along with a degenerative disease. She keeps a diary of not only what she does but how she feels and the hardships she must endure. Initially, the diary's purpose was for Kitō to chronicle impressions she had about how the disease was affecting her daily life. As the disease progressed, however, the diary became Kitō's outlet for describing the intense personal struggles she underwent in coping, adapting, and ultimately trying to survive her disease. As she notes in one entry, "I write because writing is evidence that I am still alive."

Based on a true story. This story is about a girl named Aya who suffered from an incurable disease, but lived life to the fullest until her death at 25.

The original story is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. The book that later followed entitled “One Liter of Tears" has sold over 1.1 million copies.

Aya's only wish was “to live." By carefully depicting Aya's earnest desire to live, and the love of her family, friends, and lover, the drama, “One Liter of Tears" wishes to deliver her simple but strong message: “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing."

Amat2 sedey ok citer... My tears was more than 1 litre... seyes!! Tak per caya bole tgk dari sini.

Nak pinjam cd xpin pun bole... tapi warning ye... sediakan tisu byk2....

Jiwa kacau

2010-02-18T19:50:00.004+08:00

Jiwa kacau

Jiwa teramat kacau

Jiwa tengah teramat kacau

Jiwa tengah teramat kacau sekarang

Jiwa tengah teramat kacau bilau sekarang

Teramat kacau sampai xpin tak tau nk tulis apa...

Tak tau mana nak start...

Sekali lagi syaitan berjaya mengganggu jiwa ku... meracuni fikiran ku... menanamkan perasaan prasangka dan hasad dengki....

Doa Perlindungan Daripada Sikap Negatif (got this from Koleksi Doa PTS)

"Ya ALLAH! Aku berlindung denganMu daripada perasaan keluh resah dan dukacita, aku berlindung denganMu daripada sikap lemah dan malas, aku berlindung denganMu daripada sifat takut dan bakhil. serta aku berlindung denganMu daripada tekanan hutang dan kekerasan sifat manusia."

Dan jauhkan lah aku dari sifat prasangka buruk dan hasad dengki....

AMIN!!!

ok.... lupa nk update psl ni....

Dah tgk dgn kasma last week (or was it last monday??? Confuse!!)...
Comment? Ok la... ada gak adegan2 yang tersentap.... hehehehe....

Ini sipnosisnya:

Universal Studios resurrects the classic lycanthrope with this tale of a man who experiences an unsettling transformation after he returns to his ancestral home in Victorian-era Great Britain and gets attacked by a rampaging werewolf. When Ben Talbot (Simon Merrells) vanishes into thin air, his brother Lawrence (Benicio Del Toro) returns to his family estate to investigate. Upon reuniting with his estranged father, Sir John Talbot (Anthony Hopkins), however, he discovers a destiny far darker than his blackest nightmares. Ben is dead; the victim of a savage attack by a beast that keeps the superstitious locals cowering in fear every time the moon shines bright in the sky. Shortly after discovering his brother's true fate, Lawrence swears to Ben's wife, Gwen (Emily Blunt), that he will bring her late husband's killer to justice. As a young boy, the untimely death of his mother caused Lawrence to grow up before his time. Though Lawrence had previously attempted to bury his pain in the past by leaving the quiet Victorian hamlet of Blackmoor behind, he discovers that you can't outrun fate when he's attacked by the very same nocturnal beast that claimed his brother. Not even recently arrived Scotland Yard inspector Aberline (Hugo Weaving) can dream up a rational explanation for the gruesome spell cast over Blackmoor, yet rumors of an ancient curse persist. According to legend, the afflicted will experience a horrific transformation by the light of the full moon. Now, the woman Talbot loves is in mortal danger, and in order to protect her he must venture into the moonlit woods and destroy the beast before it destroys her. But this isn't a typical hunt, because before the beast can be slain, a simple man will uncover a primal side of himself that he never knew existed. Screenwriter Andrew Kevin Walker pens a film directed by Joe Johnston and featuring creature effects by special-effects makeup legend Rick Baker. ~ Jason Buchanan, All Movie Guide

Sharing is Caring

2010-02-13T22:47:00.003+08:00

Someone forwarded me this email. I think this is very useful information.

AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY AND ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINSIS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY ..
Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.

3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumors.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor destruction.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.

WHAT CANCER CELLS FEED ON:

a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses but only in very small amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.

b... Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk and substituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells are being starved.

c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer.

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline environment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes t o nourish and enhance growth of healthy cells.?

To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water--best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines become putrified and leads to more toxic buildup..

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the body's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor.

Anger, unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy life.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.

Mula kan dgn 1

2010-02-11T22:02:00.011+08:00

Xpin rasa sungguh berbangga hari ni... Hahahahaha!

Kenapa? Kerana segalanya perlu mula dgn 1. 1 yakni Satu. ONE...

Balik kerja tadi xpin singgah SKI. Ada barang kena carik. Seperti biasa bila ke SKI ada acara wajib perlu dilakukan. Apa??? Teka la... Ok ok... meh xpin bg clue... Bendanya petak 4 segi. Kalu kita berdiri di posisi yang betul, ia akan mengeluarkan cahaya kebiru-biruan.... Kekadang kita suka dgn kaler biru tu... kekadang kita nyampah dgn kaler biru tu. Kaler biru tu berubah2 bentuknya.. tapi bentuk yang dikeluarkan hanya la bentuk nombor.... Apa?? Lagi sekali.... HAAA!!! betul... mesin timbang berat....

Xpin timbang tadi udah turun 1 kg.... Iyeee...betul!! Tak tipu la... Amat suka ok.. Walaupun dietnya tidak begitu strict... tapi menampakan kesannya....Ini adalah satu motivasi yang sangat best... Xpin try carik gambar sumber inspirasi... Tapi tak jumpa la plak... Tapi pikir2 balik gambar tu terlalu kurus... Kalu tak silap masa tu dlm 62-63. Utk org lonjong cam xpin ni mmg amat skinny ye berat camtu... Cam tak best lak. So xpin ada jumpa 1 gambar yang xpin rasa ok. Dan akan jadi sumber inspirasi. Masa ni dlm 68 kot.

So ni la rupanya yang di idam2kan... Tidak terlalu besar dan tidak terlalu kecik. Lengan tu pun masih bole diterima akal. Sekarang longan xpin ni ha dh macam longan awie... Gerun!!..Paling penting kehadiran muffin top seakan2 tidak disedari... TETAPI, kehadiran kuih kapit tetap ada ye dan wajib dicover........ Hahahahahha!

Operasi diet dan eksesais berjalan tidak berapa lancar... tapi masih bole diterima. Second day telah dgn jayanya xpin gi gym awal pagi... Threadmill yang dilakukan hanya lah 25 minit tetapi 25 minit yang amat berkualiti ok... JE pun tak berpeluh mcm xpin hari tu. My target was to burn at least 100 kalories or 2km which one first. Ternyata xpin bersemangat sangat berkobar2. Reading hari itu adalah 127 kalories dan 2.24km. Hahahah... Bangga... mmg bangga... Rasanya budak2 pensera tu tgk kat camera tu tergelak2. Gaya lari ala2 'kuda ku lari gagah berani', tapi sebenarnya pace dia ala2 JE terkedek2 atas threadmill. Hahahahahaha

Hari ketiga badan sakit2...tidak mampu ke gym dan disebabkab jgk oleh adik terchenta ku lewat bangun utk ke kerja... (apakah relaven? ). Memandangkan tidak ke gym, maka kononnya menu hari tu mesti la healthy. Segalanya berjalan lancar sehingga malam muncul. Kawan xpin, KMA nk belanja. Nk tolak bukan senang dia nk belanja... so follow la... nk tau xpin mkn apa?? Heheheh... Jgn jeles...

Tmptnya di Port Klang

Ni la makanannya - Lamb Shank... Teramat sedap OK!! RM35 sahaja.

Maka itu lah dinner xpin mlm itu... dan bila balik nk tido terus rasa bersalah... Adalah xpin telah mengupgrade kan muffin xpin dari muffin kedai kek RM1.50 ke Starbuck muffin RM5.90?? Oh tidak... Walaupun muffin starbuck itu amat sedap tapi tak hingin xpin nk upgrade. no no no!

Report duty - Day 1

2010-02-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

Dgn penuh rasa kecewanya diannounce kan bahawasanya Hari pertama gagal!!!

Well tidak la gagal sepenuhnya... Separuh gagal la...

Kegagalannya ialah:

Tidak jadi ke GYM. Dh bangun awal... dh siap. Tapi pikir hari ni kena ke BDZ. Dan sebab lama tak ke gym, takut badan kurang menerima. So tak jadi dan akan start hari ni.
Makanan - Bfast pun tak berapa jadi. Nk mkn telur separuh masak. Bila ditnya dek bala tu telur ada? Dia jawab...esok ada kakak... Hangguk tul... nk kena tunggu esok la baru bole mkn.. Cait. Sudahnya mkn roti bakar. Ingat tgh hari mkn berat skit la.. sebab budget bole pergi awal and balik awal. Hampeh. Lunch - Sangkut kat menara. Dh la gi BDZ lambat coz panggil meeting. Lepas scoring kena gi menara ada last minute meeting. Adoi.. masa tu lapar tahap gaban. Sekali pergi kat Hawker menara tu sorang2... mkn gerai ikan goreng tu...Perghh!! Terbaek wok!. Mau 3 senduk nasi mkn tadi.. Diet?? GONEE!!!... Itu la jgn biarkan perut terlalu lapar. Lupa daratan bila makan. Dinner - I bought Apple muffin kat starbuck. Bukan epal jer... dia ada mcm bijik2 berkhasiat... tah apa namanya... ala2 sunflower seed tu la... Sedap and I assume healthy... So itu saja dinner...Bak kata pepatah. Eat breakfast like king (king mkn telur ker?), Lunch like prince and dinner like begger (wah begger mkn muffin) Hahahahha.
Puasa.. InsyaAllah khamis ni kalu tak de halangan
Inspirasi...belum bawak gi ofis lagi nk tumpang scan... Later, bila ada kesempatan

Ok. report seterusnya pada minggu hadapan.....

Pesanan penaja:

Yah - Gambar poyo tak sempat upload. Ada prob lak tadi... tgk kat fb ni jer la
To my silent reader FAJ. Sekali sekala apa salahnya tinggalkan komen.. :D

Muffin Top!!!

2010-02-07T21:36:00.008+08:00

It is definately the time to:

"GET RID OF THAT MUFFIN TOP!!!!!!!!"

I'm damn serious!!!. I think it's about time to do something. Seriously do something. And I'm serious. Terasa sungguh teruk apabila 'ter'lihat my muffin top. Bagi mereka yang tak tau apa itu muffin top. Sila refer sini.

It start off smlm.. Baru kesedaran datang. I was suppose to attend En. Fuad's son wedding kan. So the first thing to think of when u got an invitation is what to wear to the majlis. Me being me, dont have that many baju kurung. Esp yang elok utk dibawa ke majlis formal mcm ni. So korek2 la yang lama yang masih elok. Sgt confident yang baju itu akan muat. Bila pakai kain dia... haram tak muat!!... sangkut kat perut.. Mak Ai!! Gemuk gler aku... Tak pe la... Tried another baju.. SAMA!! Mak oii... den tertekan!!! Amat sangat ok!

So mlm ini den dh nekad. Hari ni adalah hari terakhir den makan tak ingat dunia. Makan tak catu. Lepas ni den akan bersungguh2 untk kurangkan badan.... Ok... antara plan yang den nak buat ialah...

Pergi gym kat ofis pada waktu pagi. Kalau bole mmg nk hari2. Tapi jgn la cita2 tinggi kan.. kalu tak dpt hari2 den nk gi at least 3 kali seminggu. Yakni, Selasa, Rabu and Khamis. Kenapa hari2 tersebut??
Sebab nak puasa hari Isnin dan Khamis. Insyallah azam nk puasa terus smpi bulan Ramadhan. Lagi pun ada lagi 5 hari posa tak ganti. Even dah ganti, den berazam nk terus kan puasa smpi bulan posa.
Slowly kurang kan makan benda2 yang cepat menggemukkan. (tapi dlm peti ais bilik den ada coklat melambak. Camne?) Takpe... kita kurang kan... chocolate is not bad for you. U just need to know how and when to eat... InsyaAllah. U can get the tips here.
Carik sumber inspirasi. Tak payah gi jauh. Carik jer gambar lama diri sendiri. Tenung lama2 and hari2 compare dgn diri sendiri. Selagi tak sama mcm dalam gambar, selagi tu jgn stop step 1,2 and 3.

Ok. Naper den kata hari ni last? Sebab hari ni den makan dengan lantaknya... Dah lama tak kuar dgn Ocha n family. Tgh hari gi mkn kenduri kat MAEPS. Pastu gi mkn kat Tarbush Sunway Pyramid lak.. Nah.. siap!!.. Tak caya? Nah tgk sdr.....

Ye. Ini lah makanannya ok... Yang bawah kiri tu all sorts of jeruk asam. Cam ala2 pickles la.. Sungguh amat kenyang ok. Mkn kol 5 tadi smpi kol 11 ni pun terasa kenyang nyer...BUrrp..

Moments bersama nieces kesayangan. Tgk betapa poyonya mereka bersama makcik mereka. Pantang nmpk camera... Hahahahaha

Next entry den nk story psl MAEPS.... hhihihihihi... Skrg kena tido sbb esok cita2 nk gi gym... InsyaALLAH

Buntal dalam Aquarium

2010-02-07T09:43:00.008+08:00

Ini lah yang terjadi apabila kesengalan diri tgh mengemuncak.... Hahaha..
Ni la gambar dlm aquarium office... Ikan2 dlm tu semua dh kong... Haa.. ganti ikan baru ni ha... Ikan buntal... kuang kuang kuang. Bila tak de kojo ni la jadi nye....masuk smpi dlm aquarium... HAHAHAHAHAH

Ni kejadian hari jumaat... agak tidak smooth jgk la kejadian hari jumaat. 'Keluarga' aku dh mula nmpk keretakan. Aku ingat selama ni aku je la punca 'keluarga' aku pening. Disebabkan kelaseran mulut aku. Tapi ada yang lebih dasyat... Ntah aku... aku no comment ttg sapa salah sapa betul. Yang pasti mereka tidak perlu begini. Dan by not choosing the rte words la maka ini semua terjadi. Pada aku, kalu dh diberi kerja... maka adalah tanggungjawab kita sebagai pekerja utk melaksanakan nya... U are paid to do the job... Maka untuk mendapat gaji yang halal, perlukan laksanakan tanggungjawab kita dgn penuh dedikasi. (Walaupun aku selalu mengomel psl kerja, tapi sebaik mungkin aku melaksanakan kerja aku). Tidak pernah terlintas utk aku cantas kerja yang diberi pada aku... apatah lagi mengkomplen dgn menyatakan ini semua salah orang lain. Bagi aku selagi ada kudrat nk buat... buat... Yang penting bagi aku ialah gaji hujung bulan utk bayar segala hutang piutang...FULL STOP! Kan??

Itu kejadian Jumaat. Ini kejadian sabtu. Attended En. Fuad's (former boss) son wedding at Holiday Villa.. Tgk pic dulu baru aku komen psl dinner tu.

Meja committe gitu... Hahahahah. aku sorang tersengeh amik gambar. Nmpk sangat gler camera and giler glamer... Tapi dok kat meja ni jap jer... Kena tukar meja lain. Tak kisah la kena tukar meja.. Tapi aku kesian kat orang yang kena dok situ. Sebab air sirap nyer, aku and af dh minum smpi setengah...Sian kan.. Well, not my fault... Hahahahah

Oh Ya, mlm tu akumalas gler nk mekap. Tgk jer la muka tu. Tu la muka tak mekap aku. Mcm tak senonoh kan gi wedding kat hotel tak mekap. Tapi gi keje mekap bagai nk hape.. hehehe. Well, mood tak smpi nk mekap. Nk buat camne.. Bak kata AJ, natural beuty. AHAKSS!!

Ni la pelamin nya dan 'bunga telur' nya. Sungguh menarik. Masa first wedding dulu pun dpt camni gak... tapi kaler biru... Kos bunga telur ni tak kurang dari RM5. Mau RM10 ni...

So overall comment on this wedding:

Aircond tak rasa sangat - mungkin sebab sekarang musim panas, so kurang rasa dan feel agak sesak bila keadaan agak panas.
The service (minta maaf) mmg agak teruk. Bagi a well known hotel, mmg agak mengecewakan. The first wedding the service ok. Cuma time tu masalah dia ialah tempat duduk. But the service masih up to the standard. This time mmg agak mengecewakan. Dh la mmg lambat start nk makan. Nasi we have to take from bekas nasi tambah which obviously tak cukup. Lauk jgn cakap la... within 5 minutes licin semua pinggan. Baru datang nk bawak nasi utk tetamu. Mmg tak best la camni. Tunggu pencuci mulut?? Adoi... Nk clear the table pun lambat apatah lagi the creme caramel...
Tak cukup staff - tu yang jadi semua ni. Mereka bekerja keras. tapi mmg tak cukup. I think 1 waiter kena handle 6 table kot. Usually 2 waiters handle 4 table...
Kesian the host - mereka tak salah. The hotel mgmt yang perlu disalahkan. Duduk kat hujung dunia, I can see that ada muka2 tak puas hati. Ye la, kalu benda ni jadi, orang akan kata the host. Bukan hotel. Host pun of course akan harap kan hotel for good service kan. I personally feel that ppl can accept this kalu buat kat umah. But not in hotels....
Bila keadaan dh berterabur, MC cakap dan ucapan tuan rumah langsung tak dgr. Sebab tetamu sibuk bercakap sesama mereka. Kekadang masyarakat malaysia ni langsung tak peka. Tak hormat. Masuk umah orang buat bising. Kesian aku tengok.

Tetapi biasa la... setiap wedding mesti ada hip cups nya.... Just hope mine will not be that bad...

Sujud Syukur

2010-02-04T21:08:00.006+08:00

Baru last nite selesai habiskan Ketika Cinta Bertasbih (KCB) Part 2 via Youtube. Nk tunggu Kasma dwload berzaman la plak kan. Sangat sangat menyukai KCB. Terasa keinsafan bila tgk movie tu.

I fell in love with the song first. Then I got to know that the song was actually lagu untuk cerita Indonesia yang kearah keislaman. Agak teruja jgk bila Kasma bagi 100 koleksi cd dia and antara byk2 cerita dlm tu ada terselit KCB. Watched part 1 few weeks back. Amat tersentuh sekali bila last part of the movie, dia tunjuk sesi pengumuman siapakah actor dan actress yang terpilih. Tersentap jgk melihat seorang pria yang bilamana namanya disebut sebagai antara barisan pelakon yang terpilih, telah secara automatic nya melalukan sujud syukur. MasyaAllah. Tidak pernah aku sangka ada orang akan melakukan sedemikian bila dia berasa dlm situasi sebegitu. Actually that was the 2nd time I saw orang actually buat sujud syukur immediately selepas mereka berasa syukur. The first time was this Malaysian hockey player. Secara zahiriahnya mmg dia nmpk agak kealiman (i totally forgot his name- Ocha mungkin ingat). Tapi lepas 1 game (maybe SUKOM in 1998) the moment wisel bunyi tanda Malaysia menang, he immediately buat sujud syukur tgh2 padang tu. Sungguh aku terkedu.

Melihat keadaan itu, aku jadi malu. Malu pada mereka2 yang begitu tahu cara untuk mengucapkan syukur. Betapa pada pandangan ku, Allah sentiasa dlm permikiran mereka walau apa pun yang mereka lakukan. Apa yang terjadi, pertama sekali mereka ingat adalah pada Allah. Sungguh aku malu dan rasa rendah diri. Masih byk kekurangan diri. Tidak pernah sekali aku terfikir melakukan sujud syukur. Walaupun didalam hati aku bersyukur dan bibirku menyucapkan Alhamdulilah. Tetapi??? Hmm... masih byk yang perlu dibaiki....

Going back to the actor dan actress yang melakukan sujud syukur itu, mereka bukan lah lulusan Al-Azhar sepertimana yang dilakonkan. Tetapi kedua2nya amat fasih dlm berbahasa arab. Actressnya lulusan Univesitas Indonesia dan actornya hmm... tidak pasti... masih belajar barangkali. (Need to google more). Kedua2nya berusia 20 dan 21. Bagi aku, amat muda untuk berperwatakan begitu. Meh nk tunjukkan muka mereka....

M Kholidi Asadil Alam

Oki Setiana Dewi -Sungguh comel & tudungnya sentiasa menutupi dada. Sekali lagi... Sungguh terasa malu dan amat terasa diri ini masih byk perlu dibaiki..

Ini adalah sinopsis on KCB:
Abdullah Khairul Azzam – 28 tahun- pemuda tampan dan cerdas dari sebuah desa di Jawa Tengah. Dari kecil, Azzam sudah terlihat sebagai anak yang sangat baik budi pekertinya. Atas usahanya yang gigih dia berhasil memperoleh bea siswa untuk belajar di Al Azhar Mesir selepas menamatkan Aliyah di desanya.

Baru setahun di Kairo dan menjadi mahasiswa berprestasi peraih predikat Jayyid Jiddan (Lulus dengan Sempurna), ayahnya meninggal dunia. Sebagai anak tertua Azzam mau tidak mau harus bertanggung jawab atas kehidupan keluarganya, dikarenakan adiknya masih kecil-kecil. Sementara itu, dia sendiri harus menyelesaikan studinya di Negara orang. Akhirnya dia mulai membagi waktu untuk belajar dan mencari nafkah. Ia mulai membuat tempe dan bakso yang ia pasarkan di lingkungan KBRI dia Kairo. Berkat keahlian dan keuletannya dalam memasak, Azzam menjadi populer dan dekat dengan kalangan staf KBRI di Cairo. Tapi hal itu berimbas pada kuliah Azzam, sudah 9 tahun berlalu, ia belum juga menyelesaikan kuliahnya.

Seringnya Azzam mendapatkan job di KBRI Cairo mempertemukan ia dengan Puteri Duta Besar, Eliana Pramesthi Alam. Eliana adalah lulusan EHESS Perancis yang melanjutkan S-2 nya di American University in Cairo. Selain cerdas, Eliana juga terkenal di kalangan mahasiswa karena kecantikannya. Ia bahkan pernah diminta main di salah satu film produksi Hollywood, juga untuk Film layar lebar dan Sinetron di Jakarta. Segudang prestasi dan juga kecantikan Eliana membuat Azzam menaruh hati pada Eliana. Tetapi Azzam urung menjalin hubungan lebih dekat dengan Eliana, karena selain sifat dan kehidupannya yang sedikit bertolak belakang dengan Azzam, juga karena nasihat dari Pak Ali, supir KBRI yang sangat dekat dengan keluarga Eliana.

Apa yang dikatakan Pak Ali cukup terngiang-ngiang di benaknya, bahwa ada seorang gadis yang lebih cocok untuk Azzam. Azzam disarankan untuk buru-buru mengkhitbah (melamar) seorang mahasiswa cantik yang tak kalah cerdasnya dengan Eliana. Dia bernama Anna Althafunnisa, S-1 dari Kuliyyatul Banaat di Alexandria dan sedang mengambil S-2 di Kuliyyatul Banaat Al Azhar – Cairo, yang juga menguasai bahasa Inggris, Arab dan Mandarin. menurut Pak Ali, kelebihan Anna dari Eliana adalah bahwa Anna memakai jilbab dan sholehah, bapaknya seorang Kiai Pesantren bernama Kiai Luthfi Hakim.

Ada keinginan Khaerul Azzam untuk menghkhitbah Anna walaupun ia belum pernah bertemu atau melihat Anna. Karena tidak punya biaya untuk pulang ke Indonesia, Pak Ali menyarankan supaya melamar lewat pamannya yang ada di Cairo, yaitu Ustadz Mujab, dimana Azzam sudah sangat mengenal ustadz itu. Dengan niat penuh dia pun datang ke ustadz Mujab untuk mengkhitbah Anna Althafunnisa. Tapi ternyata lamaran itu ditolak atas dasar status. Karena S-1 Azzam yang tidak juga selesai, dan lebih dikenal karena jualan tempe dan baso. Selain itu, Anna telah dikhitbah lebih dulu oleh seorang pria yang alih-alih adalah Furqon, sahabat Azzam yang juga mahasiswa dari keluarga kaya yang juga cerdas dimana dalam waktu dekat akan menyelesaikan S-2 nya. Azzam bisa menerima alasan itu, meskipun hatinya cukup perih.

Tetapi kemudian Furqon mendapat musibah yang sangat menghancurkan harapan-harapan hidupnya. Hal tersebut membuatnya menghadapi dilemma antara ia harus tetap menikahi Anna yang telah dikhitbahnya, tetapi itu juga sekaligus akan dapat menghancurkan hidup Anna.

Sementara itu Ayyatul Husna, adik Azzam yang sering mengirim berita dari kampung, membawa kabar yang cukup meringankan hati Azzam. Agar Azzam tidak perlu lagi mengirim uang ke kampung dan lebih berkonsentrasi menyelesaikan kuliahnya. Karena selain Husna telah lulus kuliah di UNS, ia juga sudah bekerja sebagai Psikolog. Keahlian Husna dalam menulis sudah membuahkan hasil. Penghasilan Husna cukup dapat membiayai kebutuhan adiknya yang mengambil program D-3, serta adik bontotnya yang bernama Sarah yang masih mondok di Pesantren.

Azzam yang sudah sangat rindu dengan keluarganya memutuskan untuk serius dalam belajar, hingga akhirnya berhasil lulus. Azzam pun menepati janjinya ke keluarganya untuk kembali ke kampong dan segera mencari jodoh di sana, memenuhi amanat ibunya. Walaupun sebenarnya masih terbersit sedikit harapan untuk tetap mendapatkan hati Anna.

Apakah mungkin Azzam akan berjodoh dengan Anna? Ataukah Eliana yang sebenarnya juga masih penasaran dengan Azzam? Ataukah Azzam berhasil menemukan tambatan hatinya di Indonesia?..

Sinopsis KCB 2:

Film ini diawali dengan lulusnya Azzam dari Universitas Al-Azhar. Akan tetapi, nasib baik belum mendatanginya. Azzam belum mendapatkan pekerjaan. Akhirnya Azzam meminta tolong kepada Husna yakni adiknya untuk mencarikan pekerjaan agar terhindar dari omongan tetangga yang selalu mencibir.

Akhirnya Azzam memilih membangun usaha dengan berwiraswasta. Karena mempunyai pengalaman usaha di Mesir sewaktu kuliah, dia menekunin pekerjaan itu.

Seiring waktu berjalan, ada hal yang membuat Azzam sering bingung dengan pertanyaan ibunya. Tentang kapan Azzam akan menikah. Saat ini hatinya sedang berpihak wanita yang bernama Anna Althafunnisa. Akan tetapi wanita tersebut telah dilamar oleh sahabatnya sendiri yakni si Furqon.

Well … cerita ini tidak monoton begitu saja. Ada pula sang Eliana yang sedang jatuh cinta dengan Azzam. Tetapi Azzam menolak mentah – mentah karena dia menginginkan wanita yang muslimah.

Film yang di sutradarai oleh Chaerul Umam ini masih memberikan nuansa Islami yang kental. Oh iya … penulis Ketika Cinta Bertasbih ditulis oleh Imam Tantowi.

Yang jadi pertanyaan adalah Siapa yang menjadi pilihan Azzam tentang pendamping hidup dan perjalanan hidupnya ? Sedangkan bagaimana dengan Anna dan Furqon ? Apakah Eliana akan mendapatkan cinta si Azzam ?

Kalu nk tau kena tgk sendiri...baru ada thrilll...hehehehhe

Semalam, Hari Ini dan Esok

2010-02-03T21:05:00.005+08:00

Semalam,
Masih jelas diminda detik dan ketika kali pertama aku sedar kewujudan kau ditempat itu. Hanya selepas beberapa bulan baru kau muncul. Walau pun kau membelakangi aku, hati aku tertanya2 siapa kau? Kenapa aku tak nampak sebelum ini?

Semalam,
Jelas terbayang keakraban kita. Hari demi hari, perasaan dari ingin tahu meningkat kepada sudah tahu dan meningkat kepada ingin tahu lebih. Dari teringin ke suka. Dari suka ke sangat suka. Dari sangat suka ke amat menyukai dan menyenangi. Sesungguhnya ianya adalah sesuatu yang sukar dan amat jarang berlaku pada aku. Suatu hari aku menzahirkan kata2 yang aku sendiri tidak pernah menyangka akan terkeluar. Dimana, pada aku kau menerima nya dgn baik. Maka aku sangka baik2 aja selepas ini. Setiap kenangan itu masih ada....

Semalam,
Masih terang diingatan dikala aku menangisi kata2 mu. Dikala aku berkali2 memujuk dan merayu agar dimaafi. Kau membuat kesalahan. Aku juga tidak lari dari membuat silap. Kita kan manusia. Adalah wajar melakukan kesilapan. Tetapi, besar kesalahan ku, besar lagi keegoan mu. Hampa yang kau rasakan, hampa lagi perasaan ku. Masih juga bermain2 dimataku bila mana ini semua berlaku. Sesungguhnya aku tidak sepenuhnya menyalahkan kau atau pun aku. Sebagai seorang perempuan, aku tau. Dan aku tetap menegaskan yang dia jugak memainkan peranan dlm hal ini. Marah ku padanya tak penah luntur. Berkali2 ku cuba pujuk hati agar belembut...tapi untuk dia... tidak sama sekali.

Semalam,
Persahabatan kita makin jauh. Berbagai2 usaha aku lakukan utk pulihkan semuanya. Ternyata ego mu tebal sekali. Dengan angkuhnya kau katakan mungkin akan mengambil masa 10 tahun untuk maafkan aku. Aku amat2 terluka. Terlalu sakit. Pedih hati ini bagai ditoreh2. Bertahun jugak aku cuba memujuk, namum aku tewas. Akhirnya aku putus asa. Aku mati akal untuk memujuk kau. Dari jauh aku melihat kau bahagia. Dan aku pasrah. Ini yang kau mahu, maka ini lah yang aku akan berikan. Walaupun teramat pedih dan pilu sekali. Kugagahi jua. Ku kuatkan hati untuk melupakan segalanya. Bermacam2 cara aku lakukan antaranya keluar dari 'keluarga' itu. Ku lakukan semata2 untuk jauhkan diri dari kau. Beberapa benda bodoh jugak aku buat semata2 untuk melupakan kau. Tapi mana mungkin. Kita sebangunan!

Hari Ini,
Sejujurnya aku masih tidak mampu melupakan kau 100%. Masih ada sisa2 kenangan itu dlm hidup aku. Sejujurnya aku tidak bisa dan aku tidak tegar mencari yang lain. Kerna luka yang amat pedih ini aku rasa semuanya akan buang masa. Aku terus kan hidup aku dgn cara aku. Aku mencari bahagia dgn cara aku sendiri. Aku masih mencari kekuatan utk melupakan kau sepenuhnya. Tapi apakan daya. Aku manusia yang susah utk suka dan susah utk melupakan.

Hari Ini,
Perkhabaran yang aku terima merobek hatiku. Apa semua ini? Kau mahu meninggalkan 'keluarga' kau yang satu ketika dulu penah menjadi keluarga aku. Dan kau mahu menjadi ahli baru dalam 'keluarga' baru aku sekarang. Apa ni? Masih ada lagi keluarga lain yang bole kau pertimbangkan. Kenapa keluarga aku? Apa yang ingin kau buktikan. Apa kau ingin ikut aku? Untuk apa? Kau hanya meruntunkan lagi jiwa aku. Tidak cukup kah kau menyiksa aku selama ini?

Hari Ini,
Sejujurnya perasaan aku berbelah bagi. Bohong kalu aku katakan aku benci dia. Bohong kalu aku katakan perasaan itu telah hilang terus. Tapi bohong jugak aku katakan yang aku suka dia dlm keluarga aku. Seikhlasnya aku tidak tau apa yang harus aku fikirkan dan apa yang patut aku rasa. Yang pasti perasaan marah itu ada. Perasaan tidak puas hati itu ada. Ya! Aku masih mempunyai perasaan. Perasaan yang berbelah bagi.

Esok,
Semuanya di tangan Allah. Kita tidak tahu apa akan terjadi esok. Aku jugak tidak tahu apa yang aku mahu terjadi esok. Segalanya ku serahkan padaNYA. Hanya dia yang tahu apa akan terjadi esok. Sebagai hambaNya aku hanya memohon yang terbaik buat ku... dan buat keluarga ku...

AMIN

Senyum seindah suria....

2010-02-02T21:05:00.008+08:00

Sungguh tidak rasa sihat lately. Setelah sekian lama tak sakit... Lemah sungguh terasa badan. And to be honest, I'm amazed with myself. Sakit pun ada kudrat nak habis kan keje... Where did I get all the strength pun tak tau. U name it, sabtu? Ahad? pun gi ofis semata2 nk siapkan keje. Mmg la mulut ni bising2 ngomel keje banyak... tapi still tak smpi hati nk lambak kan kerja sdr kat orang lain. Baik hati jugak aku ni kan... Kuang Kuang Kuang...

January was a busy month for me. Very very ok... I mean, I didnt expect to be that busy at all. New year, new job scope, more load, more responsibility. Sesungguhnya aku heran, kenapa aku tak bising mcm dulu. Naper tak complaint2 macam dulu. Skrg more positive (but still mulut ngomel), more sifat terbuka, more willingly to accept kesemuanya.

BAU semakin meningkat. January agak kelam kabut la... But moving forward hope will be better. Just want to concentrate in giving the best. In what ever I do. Dan, berazam tidak malu melayan kerenah orang2 yang tidak memanfaatkan diri. Tak kuasa dan tak de kudrat dah nak layan. Trying very best to be as positive as possible.

Antara event that keep me busy:

SMILEY DAY / BREAKFAST POTLUCK

NB: Notice given to prepare all this; less than a week!!! But again, we should just aim for the best. Thanks to all who have helped to make it happen. Tukang gunting, tukang gantung, tukang susun... and all the tukangs....The result, see it for your self.....

Budak tak betul ni... sibuk nk masuk dlm gambar gak... hahahahah!

Bintang- bintang....berkerlipan.....

Makasih ye dik, tlg carik kan baju ni... Muahhhsss

p/s: gambar potluck tak diambil sebab sibuk menyediakan mknan... baru nk makan bos panggil meeting... By the time naik nk makan lupa amik gambar.... but the food was delicious...

Baru 1 acara utk bulan Febuari... ada lagi 2 menanti (itu yang rancang, ad hoc belum tau lagi).. more events coming...jadi tungguuuuuuuu

Ketika Cinta Bertasbih

2010-01-24T23:46:00.003+08:00

I am so in love with this song since the first day I heard the song. I dont know why but the lyrics sangat menyentuh kalbu. I only manage to watch the movie (more like sinetron) tadi. Rupa2nya ada sambungan... CAIT!!! Have to get Kasma to download part 2 ASAP.

Please enjoy the song....

Peaches

2010-01-24T11:26:00.014+08:00

"My niece wrote in her book; my mom is a homemaker. Her teacher gave her big question mark n told her 'ini salah. Homemaker tu org yg buat rumah dr batu bata'. Now this is REALLY STUPID!"

I wrote this in my FB status for 2 days. Among the responds:

1) WTF????!?!? ada cikgu gini??? LOLabes la masa depan anak2... kui kui kuuuiiiiiiiiiii........
2) escalate to headmaster
3) OMG biar betul...cikgu english ni graduate mana ni? even tjk dictionary pun x ngaku salah tu...bodoh sombong...OMG now i'm really thinking twice of going back...kalau tu teacher qistyna...habisla dia kena 'cili' dgn I ...huhuhuhuh
4) OMG!!!! Who's that *tuuuttt* teacher??? This the biggest joke of the year. Buat malu persatuan guru jer.
5) ini ajaran sesat. sama la mcm aku kena masa sekolah rendah dulu...
6) Oh lord... macam mana ni??? Nak balik M'sia for good! Habislah anak I kena belasah dgn cikgu2 kat M'sia..

Generally, I gave same reaction when my sis told me that. I'm not sure it's the teacher or the school. When I asked my niece 'cikgu laki ke pompuan'? She said 'Ustaz...something'. Hmm.. minta maaf, bukan hendak merendah kan martabat ustaz. Tetapi sepanjang hidupku, I only got to know one Ustaz who is really really really cool. Cool here means not like typical ustaz. This ustaz of mine is so 'modern' in the sense that dia mengikuti aliran zaman.

Now I know a ustaz is a person well verse in religious topics. But why restrict to only keagamaan? Allah tak penah suruh kita menuntu ilmu keagamaan SAHAJA. It must be balance. It is super cool to have a cool ustaz. A person who is so good in keagamaan and yet bole dibawak berbincang soal dunia... apatah lagi topik ENGLISH. I mean, this kind of ustaz yang akan menarik perhatian budak2 sekarang to learn psl agama. They will have even more respect to this kind of ustaz. Once my fren told me that he was caught by his ustaz drinking "BEER" in his dorm. Bermatian2 ustaz tu marah dia. Dan bermatian2 jgk la dia explain yang dia tak minum beer. What he actually drank is ROOT BEER!!!!. Now tell me... how can u respect a person like that??

Imagine your child in this situation. (refering to the homemaker thing). Wouldnt they will be confuse. I mean, the mother told her that she is a homemaker. She completes her biodata and submit. When she got back her books, the teacher marked as wrong. The child will be wondering who to believe? My mom or my teacher? Cannot be my teacher because he is a teacher. He should know. And I dont think my mom will lie to me..... very confusing kan...

For me, it's ok to make mistake and not knowing the meaning of 'homemaker'. Aku pun dulu tak tau. But, when my sis photostate a page of dictionary with the meaning of homemaker and he is still in denial... well mmg payah la... what other method can be use to teach a teacher?? Takan nk masuk dalam paper or complaint kat guru besar. You are a teacher doesnt mean u know everything. We learn EVERYDAY... Kalu salah, belajar dari kesalahan. Tu je...

Enuff on teacher stuff.

I got a MAS cabin crew fren who is really nice and always buy me oversea stuffs. Besides being my most reliable shot glass buyer, she's also my supplier to mark and spencer's -specifically the bath gel.

I used to like Waterlily better. But it is no longer on production, so I change to White Peach and Almond. I just love peaches!!! I just love the smell... Tapi skrg dh lama dh my fren tak gi UK. Maybe sebab longer working hour and she got a cute and adorable baby boy yang tak bole tinggal lelama. But I really hope she will go there jgk one day and i will definitely pesan more of this.

Last Thursday, a fren of mine in the office showed me a range of Marks and Spencer's body lotion. I wasn't interested until I saw the White Peach and Almond body lotion. Alamak!!!. Lama gler tak bau benda ni. At that point of time KD was holding it. Then I was like.... 'I like that... i like that smell'.... but since she hold it first, takan nk amik kan... so tak pe la... KD bought 4 of 'em. Masa tu dlm otak dok pikir, bila la cza nk pi uk lagi... hehehe

One hour after the incident, KD came to my place and put this on my table.

Yippieee!!!! KD dgn murah hati nye telah memberi ini kepada ku... Sangat sangat and sangat suka ok!!.. Hehehehehhe. Maka dgn itu.......

Ini telah pun dicampak kan ke dalam tong sampah... hahahahaah. (mmg dh nk habis pun).

p/s: I remember I wrote here that I dont care bout losing weight. But I think I have to think twice. I weight myself last nite and I have the number. I gained 4kgs and I dont realize it. DAMN!!. All this while I tot the number is 71. Hampeh! Double Hampeh! Is it all the vitamins and medication that I never missed? GOD help me. Healthier or skinner??? I really need to do something. FAST!!!!!

Petua

2010-01-21T21:18:00.005+08:00

I am the only one in the family with skin or to be more specific pimples prob... Since day one I know what pimples are, they never stop introducing themselves to me. Not only on my face, my back, betis, paha, b****t, kepala, anywhere they feel like 'cakking' me. But now is not as bad as before. Of course we should strive for the best kan...senantiasa membaiki diri... so ini la salah satu cara membaiki diri... heheheh

My very generous officemate gave me a petua yang mmg dia buat. She said hers was way worsen than mine. When she amalkan the petua, alhamdulilah. It worked. Seriously, looking at her face now, I just can't believe that she used to have pimples probs. So this is what she gave me and I'm giving it to all because sharing is caring ok. Firstly, u gonna need this:

YES!! Eggs.. but not normal eggs... the ayam kampung eggs... You dont have to be at kampung to get telur ayam kg. Melambak jual kat market (well at least that's where my dad help me to buy it...hahahah). For those yang tak berapa kenal ayam kampung. Slightly kecik dan kaler putih.. Kesucian. Ayam kampung kan patut 'suci'. Hahahaha.

Ok. So what do you do with eggs? Use only the white egg. Sapu pada seluruh muka. Biarkan kering mcm mask. After that, cuci dgn air suam. Oh ya... lebih baik selawat sebelum sapukan pada muka. Repeat the whole process smpi habis putih telur tu... Do it 3 days berturut2. It suppose to tighthen you liang roma. My experience, lepas buat tu.. .muka sungguh tegang and terasa cerah.. dan sangat best... You should try.

Pimples issue always come side by side with oily face issue... so, this generous fren of mine also bagi petua; more like introduce me to a product that might help the prob.

So ladies and gentlemen... introducing:

AIR TAWAS

Baru pakai tak smpi seminggu and I can feel the difference. Before this kalu mekap pagi nk gi keje by the time 10 am, dh bole kumpul minyak kat muka buat deep fry. Now, amat amat amat kurang sangat. Not to say hilang terus, but sangat2 kurang. Mekap pun tahan lama.. ye la.. sebab minyak tak de so tahan lama la kan... But that fren of mine kata benda ni tak bole pki lama2. Smpi kita rasa selesa dan habis minyak hilang then stop. Otherwise kering lak muka nnt.

Sesapa yang ada isu dgn minyak yang bole deep fry ayam ni, sila ka ke kedai kecantikan (cth RY Salon or Mydin) utk beli benda ni.. Tak mahal... yang besar ni RM12.90. Ada 1 size smaller... kalu tak berani nk beli besar try kecik dulu... Oh lupa nk bgtau cara penggunaan. Boh kat facial cotton, sapu/gosok kat muka smpi hitam... Ulang smpi hitam tu habis... Cuci muka cam biasa lepas tu... Digalakkan guna 2 kali sehari...

So renung2 kan... dan selamat mencuba.... Hehehehhehe

Linguine

2010-01-17T21:13:00.008+08:00

Happy Sunday!!!
Hmmm... happy ker? Camne nk happy kalu ahad pun kena ke ofis buat keje. Gilo per buat keje hari ahad? Mmg. Aku la orang gila itu. Nk buat camne... Hari2 biasa meeting memanjang. Baru nk masuk minggu ketiga January penuh dh diary aku. Aku pun tak tau la... Pening. Time2 ni gak sakit datang menyerang balik.

Smlm gi jumpa DR Askandar. Dia minta buat MRI. Since saturday dh penuh, dia minta dtg balik on monday. So tommorow la nk gi buat MRI kol 10.30 pagi. Hopefully the result is good. Tapi I can say that physio treatment mcm a must je. So now nk kena adjust time bila bole gi physio. Byk benda kena pikir. Mmg la nihal medical kan, tapi nk mengelak kan byk mulut kat ofis tu kena la buat perancangan yang teratur. Apa2 pun tunggu la keputusan MRI esok...

Balik dari ofis tadi tergedik2 nk masak. Tahap kelaparan yang amat maksima. Terbayang2 linguine yang adik mkn smlm kat Tony Roma's. Konon2 nk buat la... basically mcm tau jer nk buat sebab mmg nmpk senang. Ingredient dia tak byk. Mcm kat Tony Roma's tu cuma udang and tomato... I'll show you how the linguine at Tony Roma's looks like. Something like this la...

Tapi tu la.. Orang kata jgn shopping barang dapur masa tgh lapar... Bila shopping masa tgh lapar... ni la jadinya...

Hahahahha... Tgk brocolli, nk brocolli. Tgk ayam nk ayam. Tgk minced beef nk minced beef. Ni la jadinyer bila beli barang masa tgh lapar... Semua campak sekali... Hahahah. Gler meriah bahan2nya... hahaha.. Pape pun janji taste sedappp.... Kira pass gak la nk mkn. P/S: I dont eat all ok... gler per nk balun 1 pinggan tu? Hahahah

Ok habis citer makan. Skrg citer lain. Lupa lak nk update latest bag collection. From sini la, mana lagi.

Actually yang beli beg ni my officemate. Bila dh dapat, dia cam tak berkenan coz it's so not her. Since dia tau I berkenan and the bag is no longer in the katalog, dia pun dgn baik hati jual kan this bag to me with RM2 discount. So I bought this bag from her at RM50. So happyyyy. Sangat2 suka beg ini kerana jahitan dia sangat kemas dan beg ini sangat terletak. In total I have bought 5 bags from the web. One yellow, blue, white, grey and camel brown. Camel brown is otw. Dah order tapi tak smpi lagi... the other 2 simple jer...

Heheheh... Love it...

Get to know me better...

2010-01-14T19:08:00.004+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
*I have to agree on this......

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
*Ye kot... Nak tambah, rambut kena cam rambut zamani, tinggi skit, pastu jgn poyo ok! Hahahaha

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

*Ini adalah tanda soal... Tapi kalu jumpa jodoh kawin jer la kan... heheheh

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

*Plenty dates??? Mcm tak betul jer...

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

* Agak betul... but nk study and learn not the formal way. Means no exams... Bole?

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
*Not so important. Janji dpt gaji bulan2... hahahah. Tapi mmg plenty dream jobs la...
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

*Kolomahan den

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

* Mungkin secara tak sedar

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

*Setuju. Sapa setuju angkat tangan gak!! hehehe

Wanna check yours? Kat sini

Kau dan Aku

2010-01-13T22:27:00.009+08:00

Ada la beberapa hari tertinggal nk update blog. Sebab kehidupan ada terbusy. Tak macam orang tu yang sempat lagi update blog sambil buat muka ketat. Jgn marah you... Hahahahah

Antara Event yang berlaku:

Last Saturday 9.1.2010 went for Maybank Awards Nite 2010. Above is the before and after of my evening dress. Sekali pandang tak nmpk beza... The the diamonds actually cost me RM60...Cait!!!. Tapi kalu tak pergi dinner tu rasa rugi la plak kan. Bukan senang nk dapat pergi dinner camni. Kepada sesiapa yang calon kan namaku menjadi insan terpilih.. Thank you very much. Antara event / orang yang ada mlm itu adalah:

Finalist Maybank Idol. Pemenangnya ialah MBB Jakarta. Mmg mantap dia nyanyi.

Yup. Performance by CT lijah.... not bad. entertaining. Pada la dgn 60K yang dibayar. Hehehehhe

Oh ya. Today is RED day for Kenny Rogers.

and we arrived at KRR Bukit Raja, this is what we see:

Perghh!!! punya la ramai orang... Merah jer permandangan ku... So lari la ke KRR Setia Alam..Hampeh... sama jer.. Sudahnya mkn kat Madam Kwan's. Janji perut kenyang... HEheheh. TQ Azul...

Ok now abit serious. Kau dan aku. Memang kita tak sama. Tak penah serupa. Kita berbeza dari segi rupa, kepercayaan, kesukaan dan kebencian. Hebatnya Allah mencipta kita dgn menjadi berbagai2. Walaupun kita ada percanggahan atau kesukaan kita yang mungkin bagi orang lain tidak, kita haruslah peka terhadap keadaan sekeliling dan sensitif dgn orang keliling. Aku bagi contoh la... Ko suker giler2 pki perfume byk2. Dlm erti kata lain, sekali ko pki perfume, habis sebotol. Tapi ko kena ingat, ko punya wangi tu belum tentu aku suka. Belum tentu aku bole terima. Oleh itu, pki la perfume yang ala kadar. Jgn smpi buat orang lain nk termuntah dek wangi ko. Skit2 dal la... Ini pki perfume kat badan sdr bila naik kereta dh jadi mcm air freshener kereta. Habis 1 kereta bau kau. Tolong la sensitif skit... Nasib aku tak termuntah jer tadi tau tak!!!. Kalu tak... confirm aku muntah atas ko!. Sebab tu la Islam tak bagi pki wangian2 yang terlampau. Selain dari menarik perhatian kaum lelaki yang bole cenderung kearah maksiat, ia jugak bole menimbulkan ketidak selesaan orang lain seperti aku. Tolong ye... lain kali tolong sensitif. Islam mengamalkan kesederhanaan. Pki perfume bole... tapi kena sederhana. Jgn smpi buat orang lain macam nk mampos tahan nafas. Ok? Reminder to all and to myself...

Mati Dalam Iman

2010-01-05T21:43:00.004+08:00

Kalu mati dalam iman... busuk tak?? Kalu mati dalam iman, ekau tosonyum tak? Hehehhe. Gilo dak xpin ni. Bukan apa... nk tau jer. Xpin termuntah2 tadi masa mandi kat bilik air. Aipp!! Jgn pikir bukan2. Bukan muntah sebab apa. Muntah sebab ada sekor CICAK yang tak mati dalam iman!!! Tak sempat lak nk tgk cicak tu senyum ke tak. hehehehhehe

Dia punya busuk. MasyaAllah...tahap gaban! Semalam lagi dah terbau masam. Ingat kan apa. Dok la tercarik2... apa kebenda la yang tertinggal ke apa ke... tak jumpa. Tapi hari ni baunya adalah amat kronik sekali.. Ku bukak tingkap...tak plak bau... Rupa2nya dicelah pintu dia terselit. Mesti cicak tu tak sempat berak kan. Sebab tu bau dia teramat la menusuk kalbu. Adeh...

Hari ni teramat2 busy kek opis tu. Xpin rasa lepas ni akan tambah busy. Im back to all the adhoc projects. I think I'm getting used to it already la. Dulu cam nk mengamuk gak sebab bos selalu bagi sekerat jln. Agak2 project tak sempat habis on time, panggil xpin masuk. Tertekan gak. Lama2 dh get used to it. Dh keje mkn gaji. U got to do what u got to do la.

Tapi den goram hari ni dgn duo kap lam bolakang den tu ha. Alahai... agak ey baru dorang meraso buek kojo hari ni. Momokak on very simple things. Den tension gak la pasal pepagi lae dh kono mongadap. Dah tu lak den tak mkn ubek den, lupo. Kopalo den ni ha mcm nk molotup! Dh tambah momokak dorang tu... Adoih, nk pocah palo den. Den raso nk lompang ey derang tu ha. Bokiro tak kono tompek. Siap korang. Ada ubi ada batas. Aih... silap2... ada ubi den nk makan... muahahhaha

Sebut pasal sakit ni... Hari ni teruk sangat la tengkok aku ni ha.. Ubat dh nk habis. Nk gi klinik tadi pun tak sempat. Dok mengelak nk jumpa specialist. Afraid of the outcome. Tapi rasanya kena gi gak. Terpaksa la gi sesorang. Masalahnya bila nk gi. I need to take half day off la... Rasa cam makin terus dari yang dulu.. Tengkok dh terasa kebas... dulu tangan jer... bunyi cam kronik...kan? Harap tak kronik.. Aku baru nk start busy..so cam tak de masa nk kronik2 nih... heheh

p/s: Esok nk tgk wayang ngan scandal den...mau join?? Meh la...hahaha

p/ss: Lupa lak nk cakap... Aku bawak beg kuning ni ke menara. Pergghh!! mendapat pujian ramai.. Bila bgtau berapa hengget aku beli.. lagi tertekan dorang.. Muahahah

Andai Masih Ada

2010-01-04T22:50:00.005+08:00

Kalau mama masih ada,
Esok akan diraikan bersama.

Kalau mama masih ada,
Esok mama enam puluh tiga.

Kalau mama masih ada,
Mesti kita rasa 'berkeluarga'.

Kalau mama masih ada,
Mesti papa tak sedemikian rupa.

Kalau mama masih ada,
Tentu kesunyian itu tiada.

Kalau mama masih ada,
Pasti ada peneman bicara.

Kalau mama masih ada,
Pasti dibebel sepanjang masa.

Kalau mama masih ada,
Pasti dijerit 'solat kena jaga'

Kalau mama masih ada,
Sakitku akan terjaga.

Kalu mama masih ada,
Sakit mama pun akan kujaga.

Kalau mama masih ada,
Pasti semua akan bahagia......

Tetapi itu semua, Andai Masih Ada...

Yang pasti Mama telah tiada.
Yang pasti Mama dirindui semua.
Yand pasti kami huru hara.
Yang pasti kami hilang punca arah.

Yang pasti juga, kami tidak mampu melawan takdir. Kami pasrah dgn ketentuanNya.
Kami mohon kekuatan dariMu Ya Allah. Kami juga mohon Kau tempatkan lah mama digolongan orang2 yang solehah.

Ya Allah, tolong sampaikan pada mama. Bagitau dia saya amat amat amat merinduinya.
Ya Allah, tolong lah peluk cium mama bagi pihak saya.
Ya Allah, tolong la jaga mama ya.

Seperti yang mama pesan : InsyaAllah, kita akan berjumpa di syurga kelak...

MISS YOU MAMA.... SO VERY MUCH....

Mulakan Tahun baru anda dgn...TEKANAN!!!

2010-01-03T19:59:00.005+08:00

Sungguh amat tertekan bila kena mulakan new year dgn keadaan yang amat tak terurus. My house internet was out. At first it was only the modem adaptor. Then papa got a new one (actually kedai punya). Then try to log in tak bole. After consulting Ocha, it got to do with the streamyx. Tried to get it fixed but get pissed off... Biasa la.... Tau2 esoknya... the wireless lak rosak. Hmm... Wat a new year to start... Sungguh tidak memberangsangkan.... But wat ever... Life goes on.....

Talking bout new year.. Biasa la... orang akan tnya apa azam baru? Hmm...perlu ke berazam? For me azam tak penah menjadi... Azam tu hanya akan ada dlm kepala otak ni 3 bulan max.. Masuk bulan ke 4... azam ke mana.... tekad kemana? Heheheh.. So tahun ni aku tak nk azam. Aku cuma nk ada listing on apa yang aku nk achieve. Tapi aku tak la bersungguh nk dpt kan nye... Sebab kalu dh bersungguh2... maknanya dh berazam...So lupa kan jer la... Heheheh

So yang pertama:
Selalunya dulu aku berazam nk kuruskan badan... This year... NAH!! Lupa kan saja.. Wahai badan ku yang bg aku ttp terbaik walaupun berlemak sana sini, ko nk kurus ke... ko nk gemuk ke, ko punya pasal.. Janji aku sihat dn aku bahagia dan aku tak nyusahkan sesapa.. OK? Deal?? DEALLLLL.... hehehe

Kedua:
Aku berhajat nk membayar segala hutang puitang aku pada semua orang. (I keep a list on those who I owe..so dont worry) InsyaAllah aku ingat sapa aku hutang. Last year aku tak berazam pun nk bayar utang. Tapi alhamdulilah aku berjaya kurang kan utang aku gak... sepanjang tahun lepas, aku dh berjaya settlekan hutang aku kepada kawan2/sedara mara aku dlm RM5k. Will try to settle all by this year... InsyaAllah... tak byk dah....

Ketiga:
Aku nk kawin...Hahahah. Bole statement camtu?? Selama ni nk ber bf pun tak de perasaan. Sekali tu terus nk kawin.. Muahaha... Someone said to me... Ko kena tau apa ko nak. Tu la masalahnya.. Aku tau apa yang aku tak nak... Apa yang aku nk?? Agak susah... Tapi tak pe... Someone said to me oso... Kita kena usaha.. Tak usaha takan dpt. Get this from someone's blog:

Kenapa perlu susah-payah jika semuanya telah pun ditakdirkan? Kenapa harus kecewa sebelum bertemu gembira? Kenapa si dia tidak datang begitu sahaja?

Hidup ini adalah untuk berusaha dan beramal, bukan untuk mempersoalkan takdir. Jangan ditanya, “kenapa perlu mencari si dia sedangkan si dia telah pun ditentukan” sebaliknya tanyalah diri sendiri “apakah usaha yang telah dicurahkan di dalam perjalanan mencari si dia.”

Oleh itu kesimpulannya, usaha tangga kejayaan... Hehehehehehhe

Ini jugak menarik perhatian aku:

Mungkin anda pernah diajukan soalan , “kenapa masih belum berumahtangga lagi?” Jawapan yang lazim diberi adalah, “Tidak ada jodoh lagi..” Mungkin selepas ini anda akan mempunyai jawapan yang lebih sesuai ..

Jodoh, rezeki, ajal dan maut adalah takdir Allah s.w.t. Allah s.w.t telah berfirman di dalam surah Al-Hadid ayat 22, “Dialah yang menciptakan tiap-tiap sesuatu lalu menentukan keadaan makhluk-makhluk itu dengan ketentuan takdir yang sempurna.”

Di dalam kitab Fathul Bari, Al-Hafiz Ibnu Hajar mencerita bahwa seorang ulama sunni pernah berkata, “Jika Dia menghalangimu atas apa yang menjadi hakmu, beerti Dia telah menzalimimu; tetapi jika Dia menghalangi kerana sesuatu yang ada padaNya, maka sesungguhnya Dia memberikan rahmatNya kepada sesiapa saja yang dikehendakiNya.”

Jodoh kita telah pun ditentukan oleh tuhan. Apabila tuhan menghalangi sesuatu dari seseorang kerana kehendakNya, sudah tentu halangan tersebut merupakan “sesuatu yang terbaik”, kerana tuhan Maha Mengetahui. Apabila tuhan telah memutuskan “sesuatu yang terbaik” kepada makhlukNya, bermakna tuhan sedang melimpahkan rahmatNya kepada makhluk itu.

Mungkin selepas ini, ketika disoal oleh kaum keluarga dan sahabat-handai, “kenapa masih belum berumahtangga lagi?”, jawapan yang sesuai adalah, “semua ini adalah rahmat Allah.”

Renungkan lah....

P/S: Baju dinner dh disiapkan... will post the before and after pix later....

Hukum Karma

2009-12-30T20:29:00.009+08:00

What Hukum Karma got to do with the pic?

Nothing... hehehe.. This pic is my latest handbag collection. Dont you just love it?? I love handbags... and I have to admit I already have quite a lot. Macam2 ada. Kecik, besar, lebar, panjang...kaler? hmm... mcm2 gak. But for a handbag maniac like me, alot is never enuff... hihihihi

To the bachelors out there who dlm proses nk ngorat I, don't worry. I have a good news. I dont go over branded handbags. (for the time being...heheheh) I love handbags. Any kind will do. But so far, the most expensive bags I ever bought was RM70. (After 50% discount). No kidding. I dont buy expensive ones. But I have an expensive handbag as a bday gift from my frens. From Topshop. I know the bag cost them nothing less than RM100. However...dia dh putus. I'm working hard to sambung balik tali dia... agak susah sebab tali dia di'tocang'kan....

I'm quite amazed to see some of my friends who are really crazy over super duper expensive handbags. They can afford to buy a handbag that cost them around RM1.5k. With that kind of money... I can get more than 40 bags from where I shop. Heheheh. Masa nk beli handbag RM70 pun pikir 100x. Keluar masuk kedai 3-4 kali... Ini kan RM1.5k handbag. Sorry... Tak tau la later in future dpt laki kaya yang memerlukan pemakaian beg2 sedemikian rupa.. Wallahualam.. and AMIN... hehehe... But as for now, I will maintain to my standard. But so far I'm proud of my taste. I bought a handbag on 50% sale that cost me around RM45, and my fren thought I bought it for more than RM100. Well, I take it as a compliment.

I have a office mate who ada laki yang sangat kaya. She will shop handbag yang harga ribu2an. For me tak kisah la... cost laki kaya and she need to have those to be at her standard. Ye la... Laki kaya, takan nk bawak handbag RM50 bila kuar dinner ngan laki kan. Saham laki kena jaga.. Memula tu terpikir gak.. Ya Allah...byk ye duit dia beli handbag mcm tu. Kalu I tak sanggup. Tapi bila pikir2 balik, skrg mmg la tak sanggup sebab tak berduit. Cuba nnt berduit and kita jgk kena jaga title laki kita. Buat kata laki kita tu standard tinggi. Kena la jaga. Bila dh berpikiran camtu, baru la timbul kesedaran. Kekadang orang kaya ni bukan dia nk sgt beli benda2 mahal. Tapi sebab kena jaga standard. Mcm officemate I ni. Kekadang dia beli gak imitation punya. Kalu ori cost her RM5k, dia beli imitation RM500. Ok la for her sebab sapa akan tau dia bawak yang imitation punya pun... kan... hehehe... the beauty of being rich ppl. Bawak yang tipu pun orang ingat ori... heheheh

I like guess handbag. Tapi smpi sekarang tak terbeli2... Bila ada duit nk beli (konon time dpt bonus nk self-reward la), design lak tak lawa. Bila ada design lawa, duit lak tak lawa. So kesimpulannya, tak de jodoh dgn beg Guess. Maybe later la. Minta kat bakal laki buat hantaran... Hehehehehe.

I oso like shoes. Tapi collection ni tak byk sangat. Leceh skit kasut ni. Bila beli kena selalu pki. Kalu tak kasut rosak... so sayang la kan... But I still have this in my wish list.

I love boots so very much. Dari form 4 lagi teringin nk beli boots. Tapi I am very cerewet person. I dont simply like any boots. Penah masa form 4 dulu I saw this beautiful perfect boots by Hush Puppies. Harganya?? RM300 something. For a student tat time, harga itu mmg tak masuk akal. So terpaksa la dilupakan. Susah nk carik a pair of boots yang betul2 menarik perhatian ku. I saw 1 yang dipakai oleh one of the the band member at concorde. Jatuh cinta beb. Serious lawa.. Nk beli jgk..haha... tapi maybe dah tak de kot. Kena gi survey. Tapi berjaya gak pinjam kasut tu for my Retro nite dinner. Merasa la kejap.. tapi mmg terbaekk wokkk!!!

Ok berbalik kepada Hukum Karma. I google it to know the true meaning of it. Byk yang kata 'tiada istilah hukum karma dlm Islam'. Which I personally agree. Hukum karma ni dtgnya dari agama Hindu/ Buddha. Islam tidak ada hukum karma. Tetapi dlm Islam Allah telah janji, setiap perbuatan akan mendapat pembalasannya yakni perbuatan baik ataupun sebalik nya. For me setiap umat Islam perlu percaya pada pembalasan Allah dan tidak pada Hukum Karma walaupun secara kasarnya ia adalah benda yang sama. Pembalasan terhadap perbuatan kita. Mungkin dulunya kita as a Muslin hanya percaya yang pembalasan hanya la diakhirat. Tapi, I personally feel that sekarang pembalasan bole berlaku bila2 masa. Dan tak salah kalu dikatakan yang pembalasan skrg amat cepat. In my life, contoh amat ketara. And I realize now. Untung dan bagusnya pembalasan segera ini, kita dpt cepat2 insaf dan bertaubat. Sebab InsyaAllah masih ada masa lagi. Tapi terfikir tak kita kalu pembalasan cuma diakhirat. Conf tak sempat nk taubat. So... back to the basic, setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya. Kita hanya perlu pikirkan sahaja.

*Skrg tgh lapar tahap gaban tapi tunggu esok jer la terus bfast... heheheheh

* Kaki toatie masih terhenjut2. Sian tgk dia... Tapi apakan daya. Andai ITU bukan masalahnya. Dah lama aku bawak toatie.....

* Gigi aku masih sakit. Tapi apakan daya. Andai ITU bukan masalahnya. Dah lama aku bawak diri aku gi klinik.....

*Adakah masalah ITU akan berakhir? Hukum Karma kah itu???

Lost and Pain

2009-12-28T19:23:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling totally lost now. Kosong. Empty. Kenapa? Tah... Terlalu banyak benda difikirkan smpi terus kosong kepala otak ni. Someone said to me. This is life. Kena belajar hidup sorang2 walaupun sebenarnya kita berkeluarga. Sebab keluarga kita ada dan akan ada keluarga masing2. Diri kita sendiri belum pasti. Bila kita sakit, keluarga kita ke nk tgk2 kan? Setakan demam selsema tu insyaAllah bole tapi kalu dh lumpuh tak bole bangun....sapa nk jaga??. Belum tentu adik beradik nk tlg jaga. Bila fikirkan balik...betul jgk. It was actually said to me. Ntah la.... Yang pasti... hidup ni satu gamble... kita tak tau apa akan jadi... kita gamble dgn masa depan kita. Hanya berharap dan berserah pada Allah.

Selain dari pain dihati, ada lagi pain2 lain yang menyerang diriku... Sakit tengkok dan belakang ku ini macam makin menjadi2. Nak2 bila dia attack kepala. Aduh!! Peningnya mcm nk tercabut kepala. Bukan kepala... nk tercabut tengkok ku. Serius sakit beb... Belum lagi pinggang. Duduk salah berdiri pun salah. Nk ngadu kat sapa pun tak tau. Dulu ada gak ma bole ngada2. Skrg ni ngada sorang2. At times bila sakit sangat kepala, rasa nk pitam pun ada. Set yang mcm tetiba vision blur... berpinar2. Maybe biasa la kot. Mmg orang pening camtu kot. Lantak....Dr Zaini wanted to refer me to specialist. Again. Kekadang pikir, apa aje yang bole dibuat Dr Askandar tu. Dia pun kata pain will come back. No surgery required. Balik2 physio. Bukan tak nk buat. Tapi leceh. Leceh sebab kena berdepan dgn bos. Nk amik timeout mmg bos bagi... tapi admin lak bising. Bila Admin bising, bos bising balik. Dah mmg tak suka la bising2 nih. So tahan je la selagi bole. Sendiri tanggung la beb.. Tapi Dr Askandar hutang tak buat MRI. From there baru leh nmpk bebetul. Setakat ni cuma nmpk tulang bergerak skit and himpit urat yang menyebabkan sakit kepala dan kebas2 tangan....

Orang kata Allah bagi penyakit sebab nk hapus dosa. Banyak sungguh dosa aku rasanya. Sakit macam2. Lepas 1, satu lagi... Kurang ke dosa aku? Hehehehe. InsyaAllah. Tak la aku mengharapkan sakit utk nk hapuskan dosa. Dosa ttp dosa. Allah dh janji setiap perbuatan tu ada balasannya. Dh ko buat dosa... ko terima la padahnya safwin oii... Hihihihihihi.

Ni lagi satu masalah, aku telah menyebabkan kesakitan pada Toatie. Sapa tu? Ha... ni dia...

Pagi tadi, dlm keadaan kepala tgh serabut, aku kuar umah. Smpi kat pintu depan nmpk toatie dgn girangnya duduk bawah meja dlm rumah (dlm rumah adalah kwsn larangan bginya). Memandangkan pintu terbuka dan ada orang didapur, I ignore her la. Means tak la halau dia kuar dari umah. Kuar jer dari pintu terus bukak gate. Which usually I will only bukak gate if I'm already in the car. And usually masuk jer keta terus zoom kuar. Nk jadikan citer, Dh bukak gate baru masuk keta. Masuk keta tertiba bawak keta slow2 reverse. More like angkat break, tekan balik, angkat break tekan balik. Smpi kat pintu gate lagi slow... tertiba dgr bunyi kucing ala2 jerit kesakitan. Sekali tu nmpk toatie berlari sambil mengheret badannya. Ya Allah!! Aku terlanggar dia ke? Bila masa dia kuar??... Terus berenti n kuar keta... masa kuar keta ni nmpk la toatie lari masuk dlm umah. No more heret badan tapi dah cam tempang. Ya Allah sian nya. Gi tgk dia usap and say sorry. Tetiba dia gigit tgan gue!!! terus benggang. Darah beb! Adeh. Salah aku gak la... sebab langgar dia. Tapi aku bukan sengaja. Dia yang kelaur sapa soh!. Ishh2. Balik2 tengok dia terhenjut2 skit... tapi should be ok... try gak lari2 dgn dia... She still can run, Kira ok la tu. Kalu tak mana nk carik duit ubat dia... diri sendiri dok menanggung sakit......

Sebut pasal sakit. Ni sakit lagi satu. Aku tngah sakit gigiiiiiii... Ya Allah. Rasanya tak penah aku mengalami kesakitan gigi. Dan tak tau macam mana nk react bila gigi sakit. Again dulu kalu masalah gigi jumpa jer mama. Tau la dia nk buat apa. Aku tak penah jumpa dentist ok! My only denstist was my mom. The only tampalan yang penah aku buat masa form 5. The one and only. Nk kata gigi cantik tu tak de la... tapi so far tak penah ada masalah. Tapi sejak 2 minggu sudah. Ni semua gara2 Ginger cookies abg jeff la nih. Keras!!... terus sakit gigi... Uwahhh!! ...camne ni. nk gi dentist tah berapa la plak kena kan... kang elok2 ingat 1 lubang jer... tetiba 4-5 lubang... kalu 1 lubang RM50... adeh!! letih den.... Nak tak nak... try la tahan selama mana yang bole tahan. Jgn bengkak dah la... Mkn pun sebelah mulut jer... hahaha... cam cacat pun ada gak... Tapi tak pe... sakit tu penghapus dosa... muahahahha

I'm Sorry..... Goodbye??

2009-12-27T11:10:00.003+08:00

When we say 'I forgive u', do we really mean it?? As for me, it is very unlikely I would say yes I forgive u. It will take a looonnngg time for me to heal. I will not say something I don't mean. Sebenarnya, most of the time I have already forgiven them, but I want them to know that I don't. Why? I don't know. Maybe because I dont hate / angry at someone that easily. So when I so, mmg akan mengambil masa yang agak lama utk heal. If the person that I'm angry / hate tu tak de depan mata, it's ok. Tak de la rasa marah sangat. Tapi bila dorang dtg and say, I'm sorry. I jadi mcm benci balik. But deep inside I already forgive them. Teruk betul perangai kan.....

Last 2 days, someone who successfully make my life totally miserable years ago, came back. I've been ignoring him since the day he put me in deep shit. He came back and beg for forgiveness. Honestly I have forgiven him long time ago. Whatever happen between me and him, I take it as dugaan yang Allah bagi and as a lesson for me not to simply trust ppl. I dah redha dgn apa yang jadi. I humbly say to Allah that I redha with all this, and I beg Allah to show me the truth. I halalkan apa yang dh terjadi but I need to know the truth. I beg and beg Allah to show me the truth and Allah did answer my prayer. Terima Kasih Ya Allah. Walaupun bertahun aku menunggu, aku tetap bertima kasih dgn jawapanmu. Cuma, utk aku beritahu dia yang aku telah memaafkan dia.... terlalu sukar. It's not that I love to see him suffer and keep on begging me for forgiveness but I dont know. Between me and Allah, I redha dgn ketentuanNya. Tapi between me and him. I don't know. Do I really forgive him? I just mad and I still am.

Am i bad for not forgiving him? Am I that selfish?. He beg and continue begging me. He explained why he did it. But for me, it still doesn't justify why he did it. I came out with a long list of terms and conditions for him in order to be forgiven. Ya Allah... teruk ke aku? But I was cheated! My feelings were hurt! Tah la... I just dont know what to do. As for now, if he can proof to me all the things that I wanted, I MAY consider to say to him that I forgive him. Kalu tak, ko minta maaf je la kat ALLAH. DIA maha Pengampun.

A box of chocolate

2009-12-20T10:47:00.003+08:00

Life is like a box of chocolate? Betul ker? Hmm... mcm tak jer... Before beli chocolate tu kan kita dh tau what to expect inside. If you choose to have dark chocolate, dark chocolate u will get. If you choose to have almond, there u are... almond. So why is it life is like a box of chocolate??

For me, life is more like a mystery... a gamble. We dont know what will happen in future. We work hard and try alot of tricks to have better future. We just keep on trying and trying and trying. But not necessarily we will get what we want. Mcm gambling la. We try to win. Bermacam2 cara dibuat utk menang. Tak semestinya menang pun. Bila kita tak menang, then life penuh dgn kekecewaan, penderitaan, penyeksaan. Tapi bila kita menang, penah tak kita terus bersyukur? Selalunya tak. Kita akan menjadi tamak, haloba. Akan terus cuba utk menang lagi banyak... Itu fitrah manusia. Is life as easy as what u look inside a box of chocolate? Definately not. Dont ever wish it will be as easy as a box of chocolate sebab if it's too easy, tak best. Very dull. Let it be more challenging... Baru betul life....

Tetapi,bila life terlalu challenging, adakah kita cukup kuat utk hadapinya? Bagaimana kalu kita tak bole hadapinya? Jatuh tergolek jadinya nnt. Bila dh jatuh tergolek, apa nak buat? menangis kesakitan? meraung agar orang keliling tau yang kita jatuh? menunggu orang angkat kita? Atau cuba sedaya upaya utk bangun dan teruskan perjalanan? Itu semua antara pilihan2 yang kita ada. Terpulang pada kita yang mana satu kita nk pilih. Yang pasti, ALLAH takan duga umatnya kalu umatnya itu tidak dpt menanggungnya. Oleh itu yakin dan percaya la akan semua dugaan yang Allah bagi kat kita, kita pasti dapat tangani. Cuma masa dan waktu yang akan menentukan berjaya atau tidak kita mengharunginya...

Kisah 1 & 2

2009-12-13T13:19:00.005+08:00

12/12/2009

Kisah 1 (via sms)

A: Sabar jer la awak. Jap lagi dia smpi la tu. Awak jgn marah2 ye... Kalu marah nnt kena jual. Hehehehe

Me: Kena jual? Sapa nk jual saya? Awak?

A: Eh Bole ker? Berapa harganya?

Me: Eh, Kalu awak nk jual, buat apa tnya saya berapa harganya. Tnya la pembeli yang nk membeli. Confuse lak saya... awak nk beli ke nk tlg jualkan?

A: Nk beli... bole ker? berapa harga nya?

Me: (dah sudah!!!) Saya rasa saya dah bgtau awak dulu... Kita kawan dulu ek..

Kisah 2 (face to face)

D: Can I ask u something?

Me: Sure u can

D: Can I be your bf?

Me: Smiling :) (dlm hati... gilo ape kau??). I'm sorry. Like I said... It's not easy for me to like someone more than frenz. I'm not saying no and i'm not saying yes. What I'm saying is why dont kita kawan dulu...ok?

Dua2 kejadian ni berlaku pada hari yang sama. Dan D, baru pertama kali ni jumpa... Naper tetiba ni? Poning kopalo den. Di saat aku tak perlukan benda ni... berderet lak datang.

Apa yang aku minta.. korang dua orang ni jgn la buat aku rimas... Elok2 ada friendship kang terus hilang semua. Korang tak tau aku ni benggong...hehehehehe

Safwin, selamat la ko lepas ni..ADEH!!!

Bukan Cinta Biasa

2009-11-07T20:54:00.000+08:00

Afgan – Bukan Cinta Biasa

Kali ini kusadari
Aku telah jatuh cinta
Dari hatiku terdalam
Sungguh aku cinta padamu

Cintaku bukanlah cinta biasa
Jika kamu yang memiliki
Dan kamu yang temaniku seumur hidupku

Terimalah pengakuanku
Percayalah kepadaku
Semua ini kulakukan
Karena kamu memang untukku

Cinta ku bukan cinta biasa
Jika kamu yang menemani
Dan kamu yang temaniku seumur hidupku
Terimalah pengakuanku

Itulah Sayang

2009-10-25T00:53:00.001+08:00

Tanya sama hati
Apa asal sayang
Adakah tandanya nampak dipandang
Kumbang rayu bunga
Bulan dan bintangnya
Punya tanda-tanda hubungan mesra

Tanya sama hati
Pernahkah merindu
Ingat masa lena apa mimpimu
Masa berjauhan
Apa nan dikenang
Bila difahamkan itulah sayang

Jikalau tidak kerana sayang
Kuntuman kasih tak mungkin kembang
Andainya jemu mengganti rindu
Jambangan mesra tentulah layu

Dia ker?

2009-10-19T19:36:00.002+08:00

Naper dia ek? Ni betul ke atau mainan perasaan??? But why him? takan sebab mlm tu jer terus mcm tu... Dah tu nmpk kerek lak... Bole tak pergi jauh2 semua benda ni... Aku tak de masa la nk layan. Lagi pun bukan dia....

Waiting for apa yang HB cakap... Hope Mr. X akan dtg cepat... Tapi musykil mcm mana kebarangkalian itu akan berlaku? Bila dia akan berlaku? Smpi sekarang tak terfikir benda tu akan berlaku... Tapi tu semua kuasa Allah... Aku hanya tunggu dan berdoa....

Naper la benda ni semua jadi... Kesian kat KD... Naper mesti ada salah paham... kenapa mesti ada tuduh menuduh? Just because I rapat dgn u habis orang kata I bodek u? Penting ke u dlm hidup I yang nk kena bodek. Mungkin utk menjalankan kerja penting la.. tapi semata2 nk menjalan kan kerja yang bole memudahkan orang lain.... Can't we just cut the crab and work as a team... Dh makin buruk dah...tak tau la... semua mcm dh kena rasuk....pening....

Sometimes, Most of the times and at this point of time..........

2009-05-28T22:07:00.002+08:00

SOMETIMES......

* I think I know you just because we are close, but I don't coz we all will change.

* I feel like telling you rite to your face, but I wont coz I know you will get hurt.

* I hope you would know me better, but you don't maybe coz you dont want to.

*I'm confuse between being myself or to be what people want me to be.

*I'm hurt when people misunderstood me, but I can't change how they feel about me.

*I need someone to listen to what REALLY I have inside, but the only person who can listen is gone.

*I really want people to try to understand what I really want. Not assume what I want. Please ask and understand why I acted such way.

* I just dont know what to do and need guidance

MOST OF THE TIMES............

* I hurt people unintentionally.

* I menyusahkan orang tanpa sebab.

* I dont appreciate people's help (so someone said)

* I'm broke....hehehehe

STARTING AT THIS POINT OF TIME..........

* I will avoid self betrayal

* I will apply the law of straight line

* I need to stop to please others and start to be kind to myself. (I know you will say...'please' others? Like Duh?? But hey... never assume you know me)

Things that make me crazy

2009-05-19T21:05:00.008+08:00

I dont usually consider myself 'busy'in the office. Yes I have work. Yes I have datelines. Yes I have issues with work. Yes I feel busy BUT I never felt so 'uncontrollably' busy.
Reason??

CSE

Not Customer Service Executive!!! Crisis Simulation Exercise.

I am suppose to assist Af on this. It's her baby. I enjoy doing it. But masa terlalu suntuk. I only wish the task was given to me earlier. Well, your bos don't trust that you can do it. So what to do. Diam jer la. I still remember what my bos told me. This thing is too big for me... Like Duh!!!!
I wont be asking something that I feel I cant do. But what ever it is, this thing is really making me occupied. Makan, minum, mandi, tido now all about CSE. So many things to do with so little time. But I believe we can make it. I hope I am a great help to Af.

Well, how busy I am pun dgn keje, weekend is Family Time. NO MATTER WHAT. My ex bos once told me that sometimes we have to put aside our family. Work comes first. Because without work we cant maintain a family (reason paling bodoh aku penah dgr). But HELL NO!!!. No matter what my family comes first. And the best part is, my ex bos told me that when I applied for Unpaid Leave sebab nk jaga Arwah MAMA. Double Bodoh!!.

(enuff cursing ppl)

So our weekend biasa la... gi jln2, sini sana. Kekadang tak de haluan. So antara tmpt yang kami sekeluarga (Ocha's fly) pergi is:

1) Pantai Jeram - port seafood baru. 20 mins from Pekan Kapar.

2) Went for book sale - The Big Bad Wolf Book Sale.

Gler murah. On average the book price is RM8. The dictionary is from RM5 - RM20. Bukan kamus bodoh2. Like MacMillan's OK!!!! Tak caya?

Total semua ni tak smpi RM400 OK!!!. Try la beli kat MPH. Mau Riban!!

Budak2 punya. Kamus Hijau RM5, Kamus Biru RM8, Kamus Merah RM10

Selamat Hari Ibu

2009-05-09T23:13:00.002+08:00

Kepada semua kawan2 ku, sedara2 ku, adik beradik ku dan seluruh warga dunia yang bergelar Ibu....

"Selamat Hari Ibu"

Kepada mereka yang masih mempunyai ibu, pesanan penaja adalah....
Hargailah setiap detik dan ketika anda bersama ibu anda. Kerana yang pasti..detik itu tidak akan kekal. Dan apabila detik itu berlalu, anda pasti merindui / menangisi saat2 itu. Percaya laaa....

Kepada mereka yang telah kehilangan Ibu.....
Buat la apa yang patut. Paling penting sedekah la apa yang patut. Agar mereka senang dan tenang disana. Tak guna ditangisi mereka yang telah pergi...
(ni pesanan penaja utk diri sdr)

La... Hidup lagi rupanya...

2009-04-24T20:54:00.005+08:00

Hehehhehhe.
Hidup lagi aku rupanya.
Gler lama aku tak memblog kan diri.
Antara reasonnye ialah laptop ni telah berhijrah ke Kuala Lipis and I dont really feel like using others. Tapi bila laptop ni dah balik pun... still tak de feel like this is mine. Cam connection tu dh hilang. Cuma lately terasa nk melepaskan rindu kat laptop ni.

Actually, terlalu byk benda jadi lately. Terlalu banyak. Tak terkira and tak terfikir. Knowing me, I hate to think about problems. I feel that the more I think of the prob... lagi byk prob akan dtg. For me... kalu bole solve... ok... tak bole solve... dah... Lantak. Sesungguhnya aku dah tak de kudrat nk memikirkan lagi.

You see...
This is actually, really what and how I feel about myself. Percaya atau tidak... terpulang... Like I said... Apa yang aku rasa psl diri aku. Aku tak penah luah kan selama ni. Its between me and myself. Dan aku masih tak pasti perlu ke aku tulis. Tapi memandangkan aku dh tak de 'jln keluar', aku tulis jgk la. I need a way out!!!

1) Orang yang sangat degil. Sangat sangat.
Masa aku muda2 dulu (ye aku dah tua skrg...) aku pun agak heran. Bila kena marah dgn pa and ma, jelas kelihatan kat muka dorang yang aku ni mmg degil sangat. Kekadang aku pun heran. Kenapa la aku degil sgt? Kenapa la aku buat jgk benda yang dorang akan marah. Tapi kalu aku rasa aku nk buat... aku buat jgk. Dan bila kesan perbuatan aku tu jadi negative dan menyusahkan org lain, aku tak penah menyesal apa yang aku buat. Cuma aku sedih sebab buat parents aku marah/ sedih. Tapi disebabkan aku ni stuborn, sampai ke sudah pun parent aku takan nmpk muka yang tertulis 'kesian pa and ma'. Sebab muka aku selalu akan nmpk muka degil.

2) Mmg malas mengemas.
Ini mmg real. Aku lah manusia yang paling malas nk mengemas tahap dewa dewi jula juli. Seriously. Tapi akan dtg jgk waktu2 dimana aku akan berkemas. Cuma not like 'normal' ppl who will kemas selalu. Tapi walaupun barang aku bersepah, tlg jangan sentuh. Coz I know where to find my things dlm keadaan bersepah tu. Cuma tak sedap la orang memandang. Penyakit ni mmg aku ada smpi skrg. Bila nk berubah?? Ntah....

3) Tak reti memendam rasa
In other words, aku akan cakap apa yang aku rasa. Walaupun tak de sapa tnya. Aku tak reti simpan dlm hati. Aku marah aku cakap, aku tak suka aku cakap, aku suka lagi la aku cakap. Tak puas hati, suka, gediks, geli, bosan, tension, bole katakan semua aku cakap. Maybe sebab dari dulu lagi mmg suka bercakap. Tak kira... dgn kawan? dgn family? sesapa jer la. Sebab tu lepas grad aku go into customer service line. Sebab aku suka cakap. Tapi kepada some aliens aku tak bercakap la. I can be very pemalu with strangers. Very the! Tapi to some ppl, bila aku suarakan apa yang aku rasa drg rasa aku ni melawan. Suka provoke. Suka pikir yang bukan2 and suka tak dgr cakap (sebab aku akan cakap benda dari angle yang lain). Actually no. To those ppl yang dah kenal aku, dorang tau. Aku tanya/cakap tu sebab aku melihat dari angle yang lain. Kekadang angle tu tak wujud pun. Aku saje je reka. It is more like 'what if....' situation. So bg org yang tak paham... safwin ni suka melawan. Orang kata buat ABC... buat je la... Naper lak tnya tak bole ke buat A1, A2, B1, B2.....?

4) Can be blur.com to the max.
There will be some times that I will be blur.com to the max. Well some may say that i'm insensitive. Well that's true. Esp bila bab orang marah. Ada penah berlaku 1 insiden.....

Me: B, Ko buat apa?

B: (Lama baru jawab)... Ko tak nmpk sia tgh basuh baju (orang sabah bah...)

Me: Keep on asking her questions such as... ko dah mkn? ko dh study tak utk paper esok..blah..blah...blah.

B: Safwin, ko tidak tau ka sia tgh marah sama ko? Lagi ko tnya banyak2 mcm tu?

Me: (Blur.com). Ko marah aku? Naper? Seriously what have I done??? ........

Ni la contoh blur.com aku. Seriously I dont realize bila orang marah aku. Aku tak jumpa mana butang sensitivity aku. I dont know when ppl are mad at me... and I dont know why they mad at me. Maybe sebab kurangnya daya sensitivity tu buatkan aku tak sedar yang kekadang perbuatan aku ni buat orang tak suka. To those yang aku penah buat camni.. Im sorry. Sesungguhnya mmg aku tak tau.

5) Agak pendendam
Aku agak pendendam. Tapi amat jarang berlaku. Hanya akan berlaku pada orang yang tak pasal2 carik pasal dgn aku. Aku tak la semulia sesetgh orang yang bila org baling taik kat dia.. all she can say is... biar la... masa dia akan tiba. For me... aku akan pastikan masa dia tiba. Aku akan kasi 'masa' dia tu. This happens lately kat ofis. Aku rasa dh lama sgt aku bersabar dgn sesetgh orang. I will revenge. But profesionally. But I will make sure I win the game. Hey! Dont blame me. Korang yang bersusah payah cari arang, buat bara, tiup bagai nk rak nk hidup kan api. Now it's my time to simbah petrol kat bara tu (time korang tgh bersusah payah meniup bara tu). Gler pengganas aku. Hahahahahah. Betul la test FB...

6) Amat jarang make a decision (spesis malas pikir)...tapi
Tapi sekali I have decide on something, selagi tak melanggar undang2 agama and negara, I will do anything... anything to make it come true. Rite now, I'm in the process of making decision on something. I really look forward for it to come true. I will MAKE SURE it will come true.

Begitu byk kelemahan aku... kekadang aku terfikir... bila la aku nk berubah. Tapi aku terfikir balik. Apa yang aku nk ubah? Kalu aku ubah kelemahan aku, maknanya nnt aku tak de kelemahan sebab kelemahan tu dah diatasi. Dah mana ada makhluk dlm dunia ni tak de kelemahan. I am known for my weaknesses. Kalu kelemahan ni hilang, maka hilang la 'Safwin'. Maka tidak akan ada lagi 'Safwin' yang ada kelemahan tu. Maka safwin akan tukar menjadi 'dont know who'. So aku terfikir, daripada aku berusaha membuang kelemahan aku yang dah sebati dgn aku tu dan bertukar menjadi orang lain, baik aku belajar menerima kelemahan aku kerana ini juga akan mengajar aku menerima kelemahan orang lain kerana kelemahan setiap seseorang itulah yang menjadikan dia dirinya. I will just have to adjust to their weaknesses.

Actually ada byk benda dlm kepala otak aku ni. Terlalu byk and all jumble up. Tak tau mana nk tulis. Terlalu byk yang mencarik 'jln keluar'. Lepas semua ni keluar....tetiba aku jadi blank. Maybe it's time for me to stop. Jln keluar tak bole terlalu luas. Takut yang terkeluar tu tak terhandle. Cukup utk kali ni. But one thing for sure.....

"Safwin will never be the same"....there's a reason for that. And I'm tried of trying to be the old 'safwin'. Obviously some ppl dont like it. Since I have lost a lot of ppl and things in my life for the past few years... hmmm.... never mind... Ignore it...

Bye for now.....

Skodeng

2009-01-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

Hari ni first day aku keje dalam taun baru ni. Last week cuti sebab konon penat for Xpa's wedding. (alasan sungguh tak logik). Anyway, sampai jer office pagi tadi aku buat acara rutin. Mkn kat cafe atas tu ha.

Tepat (or mungkin lebih skit) 8.45 turun la ke tmpat dimana aku sepatutnya duduk dan buat keje. Sekali tu terpandang aku report aku. Wei!! kan aku dah siapkan on 31st before cuti tu? Sapa lak letak kat meja aku nih?? Aduhai!! Benggap betul aku... Aku la yang letak kat meja aku. Yang aku tak submit report kenapa? Adeh! Start tahun baru dah lembab otak.. Adeh!!!

Terkocoh2 aku sumit report. Dah tu tak email lagik plak tu... Lepas satu- satu keje aku perasan yang konon dah buat tapi tak complete. Camne la bole jadik camni. So lepas dah buat apa yang patut aku buat....sedar2 dah 12.30. Lunch time. Si Jeff lak ajak lunch (pelik. Selalu punya payah nk ajak lunch. Hari ni dia lak ajak. Alasan sebab Pat ajak).

Balik dari lunch... system eyretel lak buat hal. Dah tu dorang2 ni tnya aku. Bukan keje aku pun. Korang patut report kat orang lain. Knowing 'org lain' tu dorang2 malas nk layan, aku pun tolong la. Walau pun aku ada keje lain yang aku kena buat lagik. Ding dong ding dong, lagi sejam nk balik... Adeh! cepat sungguh masa berlalu. Keje rutin aku tak start pun lagi. Dok settle keje sampingan ni. Esok ni ada harapan bos panggil meeting. Aku bosan tul la kalu kena panggil meeting. Honestly, i feel our departement punya meeting tu tak kemana. Membuang masa jer. Sorry la but itu mmg apa yang aku rasa.

Balik aku gi melawat Mawar. Alhamdulilah Mawar gave birth to cute and healthy baby gal yesterday @ 1.45pm. Lega sangat2. Aku pun risau mawar nih. Hopefully semua yang bakal terjadi in 2009 ni yang baik2 dan menggembirakan aja buat Mawar. Teruk jgk dugaan yang dia kena in 2008. Tapi tu la... ALLAH tak duga hambanya kalu dia tau hambanya tak kuat nk menghadapainya. I always pray the best for you, MAWAR.

Skodeng?? Apa jadahnya tajuk aku dgn citer hari ni? Hehehehhehe. Saje je. Aku terasa cam nk skodeng org. (skodeng in my own defination la.... not the normal defination). Tadi dah berjaya mengskodeng skit2. Hehehhe. Tgk la nanti. Dear 'who ever you are', nanti kan kesekodengan ku.... Muahahahahhahaha

Happy New Year 2009

2009-01-03T20:35:00.012+08:00

Yeayyyy!!! Tahun baru muncul lagi....

Ini bermakna dah setahun aku mula merapu kat blog ni. Blog ni blog aku...suker hati la kan....

Neway, before diterus kan kemerapuan ku ini, meh nk list down para2 penyambut hari jadi di bulan January ini:

3 - Aku malas nk letak nama. Trying so much to delete this date from my head. Unfortunately tidak berjaya... Lantakkkk

5 - Arwah Mama and Aad (Ad, hadiah dh beli tau....beshhh!!!)

16 - Naffzan Ashadi and Ida

Sapa lagi yek? Tak de dah kot... Ni jer org yang penting yg perlu aku ingat tarikhnyer...

Ok. Biasa la...Tahun baru selalu dikaitkan dgn azam baru. (Nama jer azam baru tapi mesti isinyer sama cam tahun-tahun yang lepas).

Ok la... Ni azam aku:

Pertama:

Ni mmg akan sama tiap2 tahun. Dan tiap2 tahun jgk la tak menjadi. Azam yang pertama dan akan sentiasa kekal di carta ini sebagai No 1, nk KURANGkan BERAT BADAN!!!!

Tak penahnyer kurang berat ni. Bertambah ada la... But I think last year ada kurang skit ( Oh, it was last-last year) Tapi seperti biasa, naiknyer mmg laju...So azam tahun ini MESTI/WAJIB/PASTI kurangkan berat... I need to get rid 10kgs of my fat... Tak byk kan... 10 kg jerrr...ahaksss...

Kedua:

I will make sure business yang aku buat tak stop cam tu ajer. Yg pasti kena ada kemajuan. Nk business yang lagi besar. Aim: Bukak kedai... Target : insyaAllah by end of next year.... AMIN!!

Ketiga:

Aku kena make sure azam pertama dan azam kedua berjaya!

Buat masa ni itu jer la yang aku target dlm hidup aku (perggh!! Safwin ada target dlm hidup siot... satu perubahan yang positif....ahaksss). Well.... nk buat camne... safwin dah sedar diri....hihihihihihi

Ok enuff wif Azam baru.... sekarang meh nk citer psl few events yg berlaku dlm seminggu dua nih....

1) 20/12/2009

Selamat Bertunang Dzu....Semoga yg dirancang berjalan dgn lancar

Selesai sudah sorang kawan aku. Sekarang ni tinggal aku ngan kasma jer... (camne kasma?? Kita bila lagik???) Hahahahahha

2) Cuti2 dgn Family Acik

Family acik mai sini on 20/12/08. Happening gler.... Budak2 mmg syok la main 24 jam. Mak budak and makcik budak pun syok dok gossip.... hihihihihiihi. Tu acara wajib tahunan. Eh bukan tahunan... Tu acara wajib tiap kali berjumpa. Nak2 tahun ni (eh tahun lepas) byk benda yang nk digosipkan... lagi la tajam tanduk aku... Nyaris2 tumbuh ekoq!!

Antara tempat yg dibawah gi masa family acik kt sini:

Berjaya Times Square - Tak beshh pun! Aqeel la ni nk gi sgt....

Nasib la yang ni best!!! Satu hari kat sini. Bukan budak2 jer syok tak sedaq dunia... Mak2 budak and makcik2 budak pun joinnnnnnnn....Hahahahah. Bapak2 budak jer control skit.... (Oh... Family Nda pun join sekali...langkah kanan...)

3) 27/12/08

Abg Zul yg dermawan (Ecehhh!!) hehehe. telah bebesar hati membuat mkn2 hari ni.... Menunye:

a) Smoked Turkey - Aku mmg first time mkn benda ni.... Sedap. Esp cranberry sauce dia. ( Aku sememangnyer gler dgn keturunan berry ni. Blueberry, Cranberry, Blackberry, Strawberry...perrghh....lazattt!)

b) Roasted Lamb Leg - Lagi satu pergh!!. Lazat tak terkata.... Of course kalu lamb mkn dgn mint sauce...sodappppp. Dua2 main course ni dari restoran fav azul....

c) Pesgetti - (spagetti daaa).. Ni aku yang minta ocha buatkan.. Biasa la... ocha kan terror masak.. heheheh

d) Garlic bread and mushroom soup.

e) Potato and brocolli salad

f) Buah limau....sempena nk raya cina nih

g) Air limau plus asam boi.... Lazatttt.....

Tak caya.... tgk nih.....

4) 1/1/09 - New Year

Tarikh ni Xpa buat her reception kat Dewan Kiambang Sek 7. Since gambar kat Kemal lom amik lagik... So tak de la koleksi gambar wed Xpa. Nnt kalu ada aku boh kat FB jer... Seperti biasa aku la tukang mekap. Eh....sebut pasal mekap... Aku nk bgtau skit yek... Aku kalu mekap, aim aku nk kasi cantik org yang aku mekap. Jadi aku ni tak la peduli sgt kalu kaum kerabat ke sahabat handai pengantin ni suka ke tak mekap aku. Bagi aku janji pengantin suka, cukup. Sebab dia yang BAYAR kan... Tapi yang aku tak paham tu... ada gak org komplen mcm2 psl mekap aku. As I said, aku tak heran dan tak peduli... Tapi aku cam musykil la... Yang dok komplen pok pek pok pek tu pun kekadang mekap tak betul.... so... harap maklum la... Korang kata la negative apa pun... mmg tak lut.... Tetapi kepada yang memuji... Alhamdulilah....:)). Thank you very much. Semoga tangan dan akal ni masih terus berusaha ke arah yang terbaik....

5) 2/1/09

Mami & Pa kater nk belanja...Yehaaa... Memula kata nk belanja kat Johnny's tapi full hse. Lepas tu kami tukar direction. Nk tau gi mana? CONCORDE!!! (Ni kali ke 2 gi dlm masa 5 hari ni). This time ramai gler yang gi. Semua gi termasuk Dea and Ainan. Yang tak gi ialah pengantin baru and Aan. Apa acaranya? Saje... Mami and Pa nk ucap terima kasih and nk celebrate bday Aad this coming 5hb. Biasa la... Kalu dh kat concorde tu lupa segala diet miet nih... sorry... Last time gi tak amik Oyster...this time gi... aku belasah smpi 8!!... Sedap... Betul!! (Aku sorang jer mkn menda tu mlm tu....Aad kata dia phobia gara2 Mr. Bean. hahaha)

Habis mkn lelepak kat lounge. Best giler... Papa pun join... Hehehe. (Hmm... pa mmg lain skit skrg nih....) Ada gak dekat smpi kol 12 baru masing2 ingat nk balik.... Tapi band mlm tu mmg best. Nak2 the Batak Band tu... suara derang.... perghhh!!! mcm ada built in mic... Dorang tak main la pki mic2 ni... Live... sedap siottt!!!...

Tu yang kiri sekali tu... suara bass gler... sesapa yang minat music sangat2 la direkomenkan pergi ke Melting Pot Concorde Shah Alam... best gler...

Itu jer la antara kejadian2 yang berlaku beberapa minggu nih....Nk selalu memblog kan diri tak bole. Laptop kesayanganku ini terpaksa dilepaskan ke Kuala Lipis. So sekali dpt, panjang la skit ceritanyer....

Oh Ya.... Aku lupa nk letak kat sini. Antara yang perlu aku laksanakan tahun 2009 nih:

1) Kawin on 20.09.2009 - Mmg takan dpt la sebab first raya -Hahahah

2) Aku dah book Aan nk design wedding ring... Double Hahahaha

3) Book Aad for weeding dress... Triple Hahahaah

4) Cari org nk kawin - *silent*

Jadi ka tak jadi ka... Wallahualam......

Iyeee.....Tau tau....

2008-11-05T21:40:00.003+08:00

Tau mmg dah lama gler tak update... Ada beberapa faktor yang mendorong kearah kemalasan atau ketidak ada masaan utk mengupdate blog ku ini. Antaranya:

*Mmg malas.....tahap gaban!!!

*Nk bukak laptop pun tak sempat...sebab
-Busy (busy apa?..tunggu...later bgtau)
- Yah dok guna laptop

*Byk benda nk citer smpi tak tercerita....

*Dok sibuk baca blog orang.....

*Malas nk upload gambar dlm blog (mcm la wajib upload gambar kat blog??!!..DUH!!)

*Pape jer la alasan yang seangkatan dgnnya

Ni pun masih malas nk buat pape... sebab hati tgh bengkek gler dgn org2 yg tak reti buat hidup org lain senang... pikir kepala hotak dan buntot sendiri jer... Org2 yg mmg suka menuysahkan org lain..yang hidupnya tak lengkap kalu org lain tak susah. Walaupun dia dlm keadaan senang bin lenang......

Apa2 pun....kalu nk tau citer....Tungguuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!

Punyer laa......

2008-09-20T08:45:00.003+08:00

: tak tahan dgn tahap kebusukkan yg agak luar biasa nih.....seminggu lagi weiii.....

: tension berat turun skit jer tahun nih (ke tak turun langsung??!!). Selalunya min 4kgs. Maybe sebab baru lepas operate and dok umah jer bulan posa nih...

: bersemangat nk menambah income sara diri...hihihihi

: nervous tunggu monday ni - Jeng, jeng jeng.....

: sedih baca kisah2 org lain yg terus-terusan diberi dugaan ALLAH. Esp Mawar.

: tak mau pikir ttg kesedihan yg pasti akan ada bila melawat kubur Mama nnt. Ya Allah, Pls dont let me cry this time....

: wondering how this raya would be?. -Balik umah maktok bersama2 semua including mami and my step siblings...

: bersepah bilik tak kemas2 lagik.... (It's not something new....hahahah)

: syiokkk bila dpt cuti raya smpi lepas raya.

: dah tak tau apa nk cakap....hehehhehe....

Balqis dah discharge

2008-09-14T11:49:00.010+08:00

Alhamdulilah B1 dah kuar hari ni. Her urine test back to normal, dah bole mkn dah so doc decide to release her pagi tadi. But she still on Antibiotic and some other medication. Hopefully she gets better before balik raya. Amin.

Here are some pics masa kat ward:

Le Meridien for Iftar

Azul dpt 8 voucher for Iftar at Le Meridien Hotel KL Sentral. We planned to go before B1 admitted, so nak tak nak yesterday we seek permission from Dr. Ling to take B1 out for Iftar. Luckily Dr Ling bagi.. so kita gi la mkn kat sana... punya la sedap Alhamdulilah... smpi balik umah sakit perut...hahahah...

The entrance

Bergambar before menunggu waktu Iftar

Selepas berbuka... posing lagik...

Selesai mkn2, hantar balik kakak ke SMC. Last nite Azul, Ocha and adik tido kat sepital teman kakak. So balik SKI dgn Yah. OTW back, masa tgh sakit perut giler2 kat dlm kereta (driving) tetiba terpandang satu cahaya yang amat pelik and besar....

Memula ingat ada kereta eksiden smpi terbakar... tapi api cam besar sgt... kot lori bawak minyak terbakar kot... eh...tak kot... so...semakin menghampiri tmpt kejadian (gambar diambil pada masa kereta sdg bergerak...luckily I always have my camera in my handbag) Rupanya, KILANG terbakar....

Masa lalu kat area situ, terasa bahangnya. MasyaAllah panasnyaaa.... terpikir cmne la panas dan azabnya neraka (insaf la jap)....Tak tau la kuar dlm paper ke tak psl kilang nih.. tak beli pun paper hari nih.

Today

2008-09-12T15:40:00.002+08:00

-is exactly 1 month I am on MC. This date last month I was admitted due to Viral fever at SMC. Dr. Hazim extended my MC for another week coz my nose still 'berkerak' and bengkak inside. I did my follow up yesterday to remove the 'kerak'. Masa buat tak sakit, tapi half an hour after dat, MasyaAllah punya la berdenyut area hidung membawak ke mata... Raised by Mama where we were tought not to easily take any painkiller and try as much as possible to tahan sakit, I didn't take any medicine for that. Alhamdulilah mlm skit sakit pun skit2 hilang....

-kakak dah dua hari admitted kat SMC due to UTI / Bacterial Infection. Since kakak demam panas, we bawak jumpa Dr. Ling. (Kakak lately, for the past 2 months selalu demam. Her demam only attack ker at nite. Dan her temperature akan naik gegila.) Before gi SMC, we went to klinik Dr. Shima asking for referal letter. That was at 9.20 la lebih kurang and her temp 38.1 (which is already high for 7 years old kid). Later about 10 am at the hospital when the nurse checked her temp, it was 40.4 (less than 1 hour!!!). Terus nurse kena masuk ubat kot buntot. Takut kena sawan. Naik jer ward terus kena letak towel kat ketiak la...atas kepala la...atas perut la... to kurangkan her panas. Of course she was on drip. Dah dok muntah, dehydrated la makcik tu. Towards petang she was a bit ok. But when I visited her this morning, nmpk la dia cam tak berapa sihat. Weaker than yesterday. Tadi Ocha message kata Kakak start balik vomitting. Tambah ngan cirit lak... Hmmmm... nk gi tgk la nih...

-Today gak birthday Sharia... Hapy Birthday Sharia. Sorry I couldn't find any of ur photo in my PC. Dlm album ada lah... nk kena scan la plak kan...later la kay... Anyway, enjoy ur day. May Allah bless u and your family always.

till then...chowwww

Happy Birthday Balqis a.k.a Kakak

2008-09-10T11:07:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Balqis

Balqis dah 7 years old. Dah besar dah kakak sekarang. Be a good daughter, sister and niece ok!! Sayaaannggg Kakak....

(Kek tak de lagi sebab kek adik pun belum habis... so weekend ni baru nk beli- will upload gambar kakak with cake later)

Happy Birthday to All Septemberians

2008-09-09T13:02:00.005+08:00

September mmg ramai yg celebrate Birthday. After I saw a list of september birthdays in Aishah's, terasa nk buat list gak. Based on apa yang di ingat dlm pala nih... Hmm let me see..

4 - Norli
7 - Bazleen
9 - Bibi Chik and Fidya
10- Balqis and Amirah
11- Rasa cam ada tapi tak ingat.... (bukan WTC runtuh time ni ker?...hehheheh)
12- Sharia
22 - Ammar
25- Lizzie & Aqeel
27- Azie
28-Kak Tnee, Kak Alee and myself
29- Zack
30-Ina Zarinawati

So today,

Happy Birthday to Bibi Chik (Sharifah Nadirah Syed Omar AlQadree)

I was not hallucinating.....

2008-09-08T21:40:00.003+08:00

This was the conversation on 26th August between me and my officemate, Jeff, at the hospital less than 24 after the surgery.

Me: Jeff, Mr Ho berlakon kat TV yek?
Jeff: Berlakon. Citer apa?
Me: Tah... Something to do with Clear...shampoo Clear. If I' not mistaken the title is GODA..or something....
Jeff: Goda?? (giggling). Dia nk goda sapa? Naper I tak penah tau pun citer tu.
Me: Ala tu citer baru...kat 8TV. I baru bgn tido time tu... tetiba ternmpk kat TV. I ingat I mimpi. Tapi rasanya betul la MR. Ho.
Jeff: U miss him ke smpi nmpk dia kat TV. Hihihihih
Me: Bukan la... I rasa betul I nmpk dia
Jeff: Ye la. Nnt I balik ofis I bgtau dia u rindu sgt kat dia smpi nmpk dia kat TV...
Me: I nmpk dia laaaaaa.......

So today masa tgh boring... terjumpa la citer GODA kat 8TV online. Memang SAH!!. Mr Ho yg berlakon dlm tu (Epi 3). Dgn swift dia lagik. So sesapa nk tgk Mr. Ho kat Goda, gi la here. Click kat All shows, pilih Goda.

Selamat Menonton!!!!

Happy Birthday Bazleen a.k.a Adik

2008-09-07T22:34:00.008+08:00

4.00 a.m - Bgn nk gi sahur kat Mc D shah alam
Bie: Happy Birthday Adik!!! Adik dh 5 years old sekarang
Adik: Birthday adik esok la.... Sekarang mlm lagi
Bie: Oh ok.

8.00 am - Adik baru bgn lepas smbg tido lepas sahur
Adik: Bie bgn... Dah pagi. Dah birthday adik...
Bie: Ye ker... Happy Birthday Adik....

(Excited gler B2 today. Dia yg first bgn, gerak habis semua orang)

Dlm kol 10, semua dh siap nk kuar carik hadiah adik. (Bertuah tul budak2 sekarang. Bole request apa nk for besday. Kalu dulu...jgn harap. Dpt hadiah pun dh cukup baik!!)

Dlm kol 5.30 ptg baru selesai semuanya... Penat seh!!! satu hari kuar... Ni la hasilnya seteleh berjam2 kuar carik hadiah....(Memandangkan besday Balqis a.k.a Kakak on 10th, so beli la sekali terus)

Adik punya:
1) SP2 (Ala2 Gameboy) - from Papa n Mama
2) Thomas & Friends - from Bie
3) Disney Princess Colour Pencils and Note book - from Dacik
4) Teddy Bear - from Nda

Kakak punya:

Basically sama cam adik. Except from me. Kakak nk 'Emergency Cart Set'- Ala2 set doktor2 nih la...

Since dah beli utk anak menakan yg pompuan ni... Tetiba teringat lak kat anak menakan yang boys tu. Jarang dpt hadiah dari Bie ni. Esp Nassar. So carik2 la benda yg kot2 dorang suka...:

Naffzan dpt Radio Control Batmobile and since abg dia dapat 'car' Nassar pun dpt 'Shackin' Wacky Sounds Driver'.

Padini Warehouse Sale 4-6 Sept 2008

2008-09-06T20:20:00.015+08:00

This is my first time dpt email on Padini sale. Tetiba rasa cam nak gi. Dpt jer email tu (from kasma la..sapa lagi yg rajin hantar benda2 nih) terus ajak dia n Ocha nk gi. Well, Kasma cannot make it. So I gi ngan Ocha. Memula ingat nk gi on the 4th tapi hujan... So, we went on 5th and 6th. Nk tau murah ke tak.... Ha...tgk la sendiri what we bought..

These are for myself:

(Padini Khakis and Padini Long Skirt - RM 6 each)

(Brands Outlet RM13 each)

(Brands Outlet- Blazer RM 9 : I bought 2. Lg satu plain black. Same Price)

(Miki Denim Jacket - RM 6) Psstt: This is actually Miki Maternity....Yeap... for preggy mommy..but wth...bila pki tak nmpk preggy pun..hihihihi

(Seed Ladies Shoe - RM 9)

My nieces and nephews punya:

(Miki for Boys - RM 9 each : The original price for pants is RM89.90 and baju RM59.90)

(Miki and Seed for girls- RM 6 each)

(Seed and Padini for girls RM 9 each)

(Bag and pouch for Kiddies - RM 9 each)

My lil sis bought some stuff gak. Kalau nk tgk gi ke Yah's. Malas nk upload gambar kat sini.

What I like bout this sale is that, sesetengah sale kalu dorang tulis price starts from RM6, maka akan ada la satu ke dua ke barang yg RM6. Tu pun yg hidup segan mati tak mau.. Tapi ni... mostly RM6, RM9, RM13 and paling mahal pun RM19. This is really good bargain. (Ps: Thong, panties and bra pun ada jual... hampeh tul padini nih)

Cerita Selangor Medical Centre(SMC) -Editted (upload more pics)

2008-09-02T20:58:00.012+08:00

On 24th August, dlm kol 6 ptg gi 'check in' kat SMC. Kalu la bole masuk malam...mmg sehabis2 malam la nk masuk. Tapi memikirkan kena posa la segala bagai... masuk la ptg. So posa start kol 12 mlm sebab scheduled to operate around 8 am the next day.

Esoknya at 8 am dorang dah soh tukar baju... dah dibawak ke OT (Dewan pembedahan). Dari wad dah ada 2 nurse tnya mcm2 soklan. Nama sapa? Bila last mkn? Sapa sign borang nih? Dah baca surat bius? Blah blah blah... Smpi lak kat OT tu sorang lagi staff kat situ tnya benda yg sama. Jawab jer la. They are just doing their job. Sementara tunggu DR yang patut buat ku pengsan and DR yg patut mengoperate hidungku, dorang letak kat holding area. Tunggu punya tunggu smpi jadi heran. Apsal aku tak berdebar2? Selalu benda2 camni mesti aku rasa semacam. Tapi tah...relaks jer... Tepat kol 8.20am, nurse kat depan tu dpt call. Tetiba i feel strange. Bunyi cam pelik jer. True enuff, yg call tu DR Hazim. Dia nk postponed the op sebab MIL dia jatuh and pengsan. No wonder la relaks jer... So hantar balik masuk wad.

Kuar jer dari OT ocha dah tunggu. Aik? Hmm.. Tak jadik. DR Hazim ada emergency. Postpone esok. Lepas tukar balik baju, dorang hantar breakfast. So bila dh nmpk mknan (2 keping roti ngan milo je pun) belasah la mkn. Around 8.45 dah settle mkn semua. About one hour later, sorang misi ni masuk ( I think she's Indian from India coz her English not that good - what more her BM kan?) asking me dh mkn ke belum. I said dah la.. Rugi la tak mkn kan. Dh org bagi... Amik jer la.. Rupanya dia tnya tu sebab kalu I tak mkn lagik DR Hazim 'ajak' operate skrg. So since I dah mkn.. operation will be at 3pm. So 'puasa' la lagi sekali before operate.

So around 3 pm smpi la kat OT tu (lagi sekali). Masuk je pintu tu nmpk DR Hazim. Tetiba...dup dap dup dap. HA!! confirm operate nih. Tetiba berdebar. Masuk jer terus ke holding area and terus disoal jawab by DR Zul (tukang bagi pengsan). From holding area terus ke BILIK BEDAH 3. Dup dap dup dap lagik. Camno la rupenyer tmpt org operate. The moment I dok jer kat tmpt nk operate tu org semua tgh busy gler buat apa tah. Masa tu la mulut ni terkumat kamit baca apa yg patut. Later I saw Dr Zul amik my left hand and dah nk start cucuk apa yang patut. While waiting for him to carik urat yg mana patut cucuk, one nurse came to me and put the mask. She said it oxigen. "Nafas cam biasa ye". Camne nk nafas cam biasa. My nose block. So kena nafas kot mulut. Tgh elok2 nafas tetiba.... Eh, pesal aku rasa semacam ni. Intai2 Dr Zul dah cucuk... Oooo camni rasa bila kena bius...(sempat lagi pikir camtu hahahah). E eh... apsal rasa semacam ni mcm semacam jer... Ehh...ehhh....eh.... LUP!!!!!! GELAP............

Eh rasa nk batuk lak... Batuk la... Uhuk..(batuk pun cam nk tak nak). Uhuk lagik... sambil mencuba sedaya upaya nk bukak mata. Ya Allah...apsal berat mata nih? Bukak mata jer berair. Mencurah2 air mata. Bila lak aku nangis? Naper aku nangis??. Aku kat mana nih... ?? Tetiba dengar cam ada baby nangis... Oooo... kat holding room. Baru lepas operate. Operate? Apa jadi kat hidung aku? Nk pegang hidung tapi tangan ni nk angkat Ya Allah punya la beratt!!!. Naper rasa semacam nih? Tak suka nyer... It's like my mind is working but not the body. Lemah ya amat. Tetiba kedengaran 'Pn Safwin'...Puan dah sedar?... (hangguk mana panggil aku puan nih... aku lom kawin la).. tapi sempat gak menggangguk... Hehehhe..'Tak pe. Puan rehat dulu yer. Nanti kita masuk wad'. Ha... pape jer la... Nk rehat pun tak bole... asyik nk batuk jer.. Tekak punya la perittttttt!!! Hidung??? Alhamdulilah... mmg tak sakit. Cuma rasa 'berat'. Walaupun dlm keadaan sedar tak sedar, sempat kedengaran 'Ma, BB mana ma?' (or something like that - tapi suara tu mmg kenal sangat esp bila dgr terjerit2-hahahah). Oh! My dearest nieces and my sis tgh tunggu kat luar... cepat la bawak kuar... malas dh nk tunggu kat sini. Uhuk! Uhuk! Uhuk lagik...

Ok puan, nk naik sekarang? Saya panggil kan nurse ye...Sekejap. About less than 3 minutes that nurse pun sampai. The moment pintu OT tu bukak, I saw my nieces, ocha and yah. The first question my nieces tnya. 'Bie kata nk buang hidung, tu ada lagi' (I told them that DR kena buang hidung I. That's why kena operate) Hahahah... I gelak jer. Tetiba kakak tnya.. 'Naper bie nangis'. Bie tak nangis pun kakak.. mata berair jer.

(Adik mengintai dari pintu bilik op - Mana Bie nih, lamanyaaa!!!)

(Kakak pun join sama intai)

(Baru kuar OT - Muka (esp hidung) kembang semangkuk!!)

Bermula la episode dlm wad. Later ptg tu the rest of the family datang. Dlm Mami ngan Ocha posa tu pun dorang teman kan. Ocha and her kids mmg everyday ada. Dari pagi smpt ke mlm. (Thanks Ocha-heheheh). Mami lak hati operate tu balik bukak puasa and dtg balik teman smpi 12 mlm (eventhough visiting hour smpi 9 jer tapi... u know la..private hospital). The next day ramai kawan ofis and geng2 dtg melawat. Dorang tgk cam confuse. Operate ker? Naper mcm tak operate jer...Heheheh. Special thanks to those who caring enuff to melawat me. Thanks to MGCC for the fruits. Thanks to Cza, Ghaus and Rima for the Magazine, flowers and Ice cream. Thanks to my QA team for the biscuits and fruits.

So on 27th, as DR Hazim promised, bole balik. Tapi walaupun dah discharge, my nose still bleeding and my tekak is damn so sakit. Nk minum pun payah. Cuma hari ni selepas 2 hari puasa... alhamdulilah dah bole mkn skit. But nose? Still ada darah skit2 and berair jer. But getting better. On this 4th, I have my second appoitment (after the op) dgn DR Hazim. Hope semua will be ok.

(Nurse Bazleen smpi tertido jaga patient....heheheh)

Acute on Chronic Rhinosinusitis (Pansinusitis)

2008-08-20T18:37:00.003+08:00

"Acute on CRS"

'alam maya' menyatakan:

Acute: Of abrupt onset, in reference to a disease. Acute often also connotes an illness that is of short duration, rapidly progressive, and in need of urgent care.

Rhino-sinusitis is an inflammatory process involving one or more of the paranasal sinuses that usually follows an allergic reaction or viral upper respiratory infection. In some cases, rhino-sinusitis may occur due to increased production of bacteria on the surface of the sinus cavities.
Technically there is no difference between Rhino-sinusitis and nasal polyps, though a slight distinction is made that nasal polyps are a worst case scenario of the condition of rhino-sinusitis. Rhino-sinusitis refers to the inflammation of the tissues of the nose (rhino-) and sinuses. Nasal Polyps (tissue swellings) can form within the nose and sinuses, these are responsible for many symptoms described by patients with chronic rhino-sinusitis.

Chronic rhino-sinusitis is the inflammatory and infection that concurrently affects the nose and para-nasal sinuses. Chronic Rhino-sinusitis is a debilitating form of sinusitis that can lead to significant physical symptoms as well as substantial functional and emotional impairment.
Chronic Rhino-sinusitis may become extensively painful and tissues of nose (rhino) may swell since this condition lasts for longer than 12 weeks. In chronic rhino-sinusitis, a long duration of the following symptoms is typical and may be present:
*Nasal polyps
*Cystic fibrosis
*Nasal obstruction

Chronic Rhinosinusitis is a persistent inflammation and swelling of the membrane and tissue lining the nose, sinuses and their connecting channels. The definition of a chronic nasal and sinus disorder is a combination of symptoms, persisting more than 12 weeks. Nasal symptoms occur due to tissue swelling within our nose while sinus symptoms occur due to blockage of the osteomeatal channels which will block air flow and mucous drainage. Chronic Rhinosinusitis can improve briefly, however it does not go away completely even with many different medications and longer periods of treatment. Therefore, this "blockage" tends to be permanent and causes symptoms to persist and linger. In fact, these symptoms may be less obvious to an individual than those that occur with acute Rhinosinusitis. However, they can impact on our quality of life significantly

Pansinusitis : inflammation of all of the paranasal sinuses.
Pansinusitis is usually the result of infection rather than allergy, and in extreme cases may require surgery.

Akhir kata, the operation is scheduled on Monday 25/8/08 at 8:30 am @ Selangor Medical Centre.

Happy Birthday Papa!!!

2008-08-19T14:05:00.002+08:00

Hepi Besday Pa!. Moga pjg umo and murah rezeki. AMIN.

Baru Ku Tahu

2008-08-19T13:30:00.002+08:00

Baru ku tahu betapa bohsannya tak keje. Pelik tul. Time keje paler ni asyik la nk cuti. Asyik la kata bosannyer keje. Tapi bila kena cuti camni... Aduhai... Bosan gak.

I was on MC since Monday 11/8/08. Masa tu demam. Selasa admitted to SMC. Demam panas a.k.a Viral Fever. Ingat kan biasa la. Ye la...skrg ni kan musim demam2. So standard la demam tu kan. Kita ikut musim gak la. Admitted dlm kol 11 p.m. Setia Ocha ngan Azul teman kat SMC tu smpi admitted. Kalu ikutkan mmg nk balik jer. Tapi mmg tak larat gler time tuh. Masa amik darah kat A&E tu doctor kata normal. Uiighh!! Lega. Jangan la kena denggi lagi. Dah penah sekali kena serik beb!!. Naik lunyai badan kena denggi. Tapi viral fever pun ala2 denggi gak. Letih gak menahan sakit. Lepas A&E dorang bawak gi masuk wad. Sekali tu Ocha kata dapat Dr. Shaikh. Macam penah ku dgr nama tuh. Kawan papa rupanya. Kawan surau jln jingga. Aduh. Baru ingat nk dpt doc 'wangi' tu. (Doc masa kena denggi. Wangi seh... masa buat wad visit belum sampai dah bole 'bau' dia...hahahaha)

Dr. Shaikh cek punya cek and kata...panas nih. (kalu tak takan admitted kan). Terus kena drip and ubat antibiotik yg dicucuk kedlm drip. (Ada sorang nurse tu gila kasar... sakit gler masa boh antibiotik tu. Yg lain ok jer. Yg sorang ni ha... tension jer).

Esoknya Dr Shaikh datang balik. Biasa la Doc kena visit at least 2 kali sehari. Bila dia datang cek my tekak merah bak delima. Selsema bagai nk rak. Dia pun heran. Terus I was refer to doc ENT. Masa tu dlm hati kata... ENT? Dr. Soni? Hmmm... Belasah jer la. Sebelum Dr. Shaikh blah dia kata i will refer you to dr. Hazim. Dr. Hazim??? Tak penah dgr pun. Hmm.. .Pape jer la.. belasah. Oh! before that Dr. Shaikh soh gi buat x-ray. X-RAy??? Terconfuse kejap. Demam pun kena gi x-ray ker? Bukannya eksiden or patah kaki. Eh! halo!! Dah doc suruh tu buat jer la... Degil!!!... OK...OK...

Lepas xray smpi mmg sah lagi nyata la kena refer trus ke ENT. Kena buat CT Scan la plak. Pe hal la plak nih kan smpi scan2. Lepas result scan kuar (time ni demam dah kebah..cuma hingusan jer mencurah2 and muntah tak renti2). Dr. Hazim announce that I have a Chronic Pansinusitis. Dlm erti kata lain sinus yang agak kronik and need to be operated ASAP. Aduh!! Bila tahun lak aku ada sinus nih. Tak penah tau ada sinus tup tup terus kena operate. hmm.. 'Doktor saya nk balik bole tak'? Balik? Hmmm.. selalunya kalu kes camni kena terus operate. Tak pe la.. Awak balik dulu. Pikir dulu. Mkn ubat dulu.. Rabu nnt datang balik. Saya KIV awak nyer operation.

Masa tu pikir nk balik jer. Malas nk pikir pasal sinus ni. Kalu ikutkan tak la baik sangat lagik. Jln pun terhuyung hayang lagik. Tapi malas (or takut) nk operate punya pasal...balikkkkkk...heheheh.

Tapi kejap je dah rabu. I have appointment with Dr. Hazim tomorrow. And I need to be prepared to be operated ASAP. Apa2 pun need to be done before puasa starts. Which is less than 2 weeks. Kalu operate... hmmm... lagi lama la MC (home rest)... Bole ke tahan lama2 dok umah nih?? Aduhhh!!!

MGCC The Real Deal -Heroes

2008-07-20T01:59:00.008+08:00

The preparation @ MAGIC operation room a.k.a Karaoke room / Recreation room (5th Floor). 2 days before the event. Antara activiti : meniup/ mengepam over 700 balloons, packing the goodies (total of 350 of ikea mug with MGCC -real deal sticker plus a car sticker courtesy from M2U)

Preparation kat Rooftop lak. Beside the word HEROES tu are all the faces of 'heroes' in MGCC. Nearly 400 staffs dah. The red carpet tu is the entrace to rooftop. Now, gambar bawah tu is the nite before. I stayed back till about 11p.m every nite 3 days before the event. And the Big Apple tu is the courtesy (more to kena paksa beli) by Nini. Hihihihi. Thanks nini!!

Permandangan pada hari kejadian. U can see the penyambut tetamu membahagikan the goody bag, the wheel of 'fortune' and the committe posing (pantang nmpk camera - nmpk je camera penat terus hilang and pose)

Antara mereka2 yang datang and support the Magic Inc. Thank you so much. Glad to know that u guys enjoyed the event. The food, the goodies etc. So... what's next? Annual Dinner la... Tungguuuuuuu!!!

Latest collection of my part time job

2008-07-07T23:59:00.002+08:00

"Hi Safwin. Your make up is superb. Everyone wanted to know how you managed to transform me into a lovely maiden...he..he..he.."

That is part of the sms I received today. So glad Sharon a.k.a Sara loved it. I'm glad ppl around her loved it too. She's actually my cousin's boyfriend's cousin. I was quite nervous to make her up for her reception because she will be wearing saree. I must admit that I am quite weak to make hair do. I prefer wearing tudung. I love playing with tudung and try to make ppl look good in tudung. Anyway, I managed to make Sara look beautiful. And most importantly she loved it.

Despite of doing make up for many many many many times, I still feel that I need to take a pro course or something to make my skill better. I never satisfied with my skill eventhough most of my client loves it. For me I need to learn and keep on learning. Coz make up is just like fashion. It will keep on changing. So my foundation must be very strong. Eventhough I had 2 certificates from different 'cikgu', I still feel there is a need to keep on learning. InsyaAllah.

I'm giving myself say 3 years to actually have a 'Bridal & Boutique'. I'm praying and working hard to materialize it. With the support of my siblings and family, insyaAllah it will come true. The mistake I did was not having a dream and plan. Well, ppl learn from mistake. It is definately not easy to be successful. It will definately consume more time, energy and most importantly money. But above all this, it must start off with a dream follow by a plan. That's how it's gonna work and that's how I'm going to make it work.

Wish me luck....Hehehehe....

Insan Bernama Kanak-Kanak

2008-06-28T20:42:00.011+08:00

1) Kakak - Kakak admitted to SMC this morning due to some infection in her usus. She was ok when she had her breakfast kat Kapar Town but later she complained 'sakit perut' to the extend nk jalan pun susah. Her papa and mama bawak gi clinic and later was refered to SMC. The doctor took her blood for blood test. The result should be out soon.

I dont really like menunggu org sakit ni. Kita pun bole sakit. Letih ooo... Menjaga org sakit memerlukan takan kesabaran yang tinggi. Which I dont think I have that. Hehehehe

2) Acai - From my previous post I mentioned that I visited Rumah Kanak2 Tengku Budriah. Well, supposedly there is another visit today (dept lain yg buat, I jer sesibuk nk gi lagik) however it is postponed to next month. Sedey gak la.. Sebab I'm looking forward nk jumpa Acai. My fav. Well it is more like I'm his favourite. Heheheh. Comel kan.. Masa gi sana he will never let me go out of his sight. Nk dukung la segala bagai. And jgn harap budak lain can seat beside me. Mmg dia tak bagi.
Just look at him. Isn't he so adorable. Cuteeee. Jatuh cinta trus ngan mamat kecik sorang nih. Hihihihihihih. I still dont know his background. But I will definately find out. I'm so in love with this cute little boy.

3) Alisa - Mawar's dotter confirm kena undergo chemotheraphy. Oh dear!. I tak bole tgk my late mom chemo apatah lagi a cute-not-yet-3 years old gal. Mmg hebat dugaan ALLAH bagi kat mawar. Apa2 pun, usaha la selagi terdaya. 1 advise from me Mawar, pls dont take any susu kambing kononnya utk cure the CA. NEVER!!. I've seen what susu kambing can do to a CA patient. It make the CA worse!! So please. Get away from susu kambing.

Updates

2008-06-16T20:38:00.003+08:00

Lama seh tak update blog. Here are some things in my life lately.

1. Charity - Visited Rumah Kebajikan Kanak2 Tengku Budriah at Cheras last Saturday. Penat nak mampos. But I had fun. Seronok melayan budak2 yg kurang nasib baik. This event organized by ECCO (E-channel Menara) and Magic Inc (MGCC-Bkt Jelutong). Every month Maybank will send representative to tmpt nih. Those kids pun mmg expect Maybankers to come every month to pampered them with love.

2. Alisa - Mawar's dotter. She was diagnosed to have a tumor dlm kepala. Tumor sebesar RM0.50 tu MIGHT have CA cells. The tumor was successfully removed last Friday. Todate I still haven't got the time to visit her. I will be taking leave this Wednesday to pay her a visit at Damansara Specialist Hospital. To Mawar, byk2 bersabar. Allah takan duga kalau umatnya itu tak dapat menerima dugaan itu. U are strong that's why u are chosen to be tested with all this.

3. Transfer - I might got the transfer I wanted (siap gaduh dgn bos tuh). Well, at least that's what my boss informed me last wednesday. However, on Friday my bos said to me... 'I might have to think it over again. I think I need to do Isytiharah on whether shall I release u or not'. Eh!!! Hampeh gler... He IS ALWAYS like that. What ever it is, memana pun sama sebenarnya. Mana you campak pun I will still do my job. But it would be better kalau I can gain new experience. Cuma kalu tetiba my tahap kebohsanan melanda... Well.. be prepared my dearest bos. I sometimes do what I myself dont expected. Heheheh

4. Unsolve issues - My biggest and most critical problem have reach the max (I think...). I still have yet to find the solution. Truth is I have no idea how to live for the next 3 months but I do hope it can be solved by then.

5. Unwanted dreams - At this point of time I dont see the importance of having you in my life or in my dreams. However, it seems that you are appearing in my dreams more than you have in real life. Truth is I dont need you to colour my dreams. My dreams would be better without you. (I hope). So please...shhyyyuuhhh!!!

6. Unhealthy 3 weeks - I have not visited FF for the past 3 weeks (or more??). I was so busy sampai tak sempat 'fikir' bila nk gi (Yeah! blame it on your schedule!!!). So basically i'm taking leave this wednesday not only to visit Mawar's dotter but also to visit my RM155-monthly-fee-fully equip-sweating place. Hehehehe.

That's all folks...!!! See ya

Have You Ever.....

2008-06-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

Have you ever feel that you really know someone but in reality you dont?

Have you ever feel that he's the one but it turn out to be otherwise?

Have you ever hope to forget bout him but his image is glued to your mind?

Have you ever hope that he will not be the one but at the same time you know that only him can make you happy?

Have you ever try to avoid him but whenever you see him your heart will immediately stop functioning?

Have you ever hope that you can erase all the mistakes you've done and forgive each other?

Have you ever wish that you did not have a fight with him and everything is back to normal?

Have you ever wish that you didn't meet him at all so that you dont have to go thru all the pain?

Have you ever???.....Well....I Do....

I do hope I can forget bout him forever. It's been 4 years...It's time ( I said that every year for the past 4 years)

I do hope any of us can end this fight. I tried. But both of us just too stuborn!

I do hope I dont have to see his face anymore.

But at the same time I do hope that we can be friends again....

Truth is I dont know what to hope. But I do know that this is killing me. The time will come. Either I go... or you...

Fit Vs Food

2008-04-09T23:13:00.003+08:00

I was on leave last Tuesday to accompany Ocha to one of the Fitness Center in Bukit Tinggi. FF in Bukit Tinggi is nothing compared to TF in USJ. TF is like damn so canggih and so class place to get healthy. I was forced (in a way) to go to TF coz was trying to help one of my friend who worked there. They have this quota that the have to meet daily (or is it weekly??). So pretending to be her client, I was brought for a tour in that 3 storey building. Like I said, I was impressed with almost everything there. The equipment, the saunas, jakuzi, steam room etc. Even their dance room (they have this bollywood dance, techno dance dan byk lagi). Maybe I was amazed because that was my first time ever visiting a fitness center. I dont know that you can have fun trying to be healthy. But the fees is kinda 'membunuh'. Especially if you sign up for the personal trainer. I dont know that the fee is membunuh until I visited FF in Bukit Tinggi.

I have to admit that FF is nothing compared to TF (the surrounding i mean). But they have all the baiscs that you need to be healthy. Best thing is, the fee is much much more affordable. Truth is, the whole package of TF is as good as if you enroll yourself at SlimWorld etc. YES! U heard me rite!. But in FF, the admin fee and registration fee is only RM167 (April Promotion). YES! and they dont force you to pay using your card like TF did. TF will charge it to your card under installment. Which mean they have already took up the total amount from the credit limit. But not with FF. The best thing that I like most bout FF is that they allow you to 'freeze' you subsciption up to 12 months (as what the representative said). This is very useful when it comes to fasting month which obviously no one will want to sweat on a threadmill.

Enuff with that. Later in the evening, we (ocha, B2 and tukang sibuk a.k.a yah and me) went to Sunway Pyramid. That was ocha's first visit since the new wing opened. It was my second. The initial plan was to eat at Subway however the tukang sibuk a.k.a yah suggested we try the newly open fast food restaurant called Wendy's. Heavenly superb!. We ate the burger. Yah took 1 slice and I insisted Ocha to take 2 slices burger. We also ordered brocoli and cheese potato baked and chili (NO! not chili sauce...it's chili). Cewah!!! konon macam tau apa kebenda Chili tu. If not because of Ocha's recommendation (more like paksaan) I will never know the wonderful, superb, marvelous taste of that chili. Credit to Ocha! Yeah...I have to admit that she got the taste and she knows what her siblings like and dislike.

Since I still have the Subway promotion voucher (thanks to Jeffrey), we decided to take away Subway. Not only that, we also tapau J.CO. Yea..J.CO. Call me jakun but this is my first time eating it. I've tasted Big Apple and trying J.Co lak since namanya menjadi sebutan lately. My opinion... I think I like Big Apple better. But J.Co still not bad. Bole la. But Dunkin doughnut is wayy out of the topic. Hehehhe. Kinda lupa daratan huh??!!

Actually there are numbers of kedai makan yang buat we meleleh air liur. Byk gler ok! Nasib perut and poket ada hal limit. Kalu tak... GONE!. So we decide to try Carl's Junior this saturday. Yup, this saturday. No more IKEA weekends. Welcome PYRAMID weekends. Of course if we talk bout Carl's Junior standard, we have to bring along...not you YAH! heheh... we have to bring along our banker... the one who obviously will pay the bills. Yg Berhormat AZUL...Muahahha.

Will upload the pic later. TBC......

2 weeks!!!!!

2008-04-02T20:17:00.009+08:00

Yeah! 2 weeks no update. Been busy lately. Sooo many things happened. My precious WMF2809 pay his visit to his doctor twice this month. 'Workshop Pakcik Mat' is his usual clinic. The first visit due to the timing belt a bit 'tegang' (as what pakcik mat said). So he had to longgar kan a bit. I guess the timing belt is just like me. I was a bit 'tegang' with some things for the past couple weeks. The second visit was because some 'pengcungkil amatur' yg tidak berjaya mengcungkil kereta ku. Alhamdulilah they failed to cungkil the car but their action caused me to repair the door as it can't be open neither from outside nor from inside. Kesimpulannya kereta tak bole bukak pintu. So again, klinik pakcik mat la arah dituju....heheheh.

Since early March a collegue of mine was on MC and later was admitted to hospital. He'd been suffering from gall stone. He went thru few times of checking here and there and finally the doctor decided to laser him. So after all the lasering , home rest for 2 weeks. This is where 'MY OWN' timing belt started to feel 'tegang'. All his work load transfered to me. Well, actually to me and my other collegue. Both of us shared his load. Statistically my work load increase by 37% (statistic given by my bos actually). Not to mention that I am one of MGCC Magic Inc committee and we were busy with our 'Chocolate Fool Day' event. Will explain that later. Going back to the extravaganza work load that I had, I'm amaze that I actually managed to do all the work. Despite of the complaint I made to myself everyday without fail, I still manage to do it. Of course la I have to sacrife my weekend. No more 'IKEA' weekends for me. For the past one month, no more leisuring, lepakking and day dreaming at IKEA. Man!! I missed that! My weekend = struggling in the office.

'Chocolate Fool Day'

This was the ad for the chocolate fool day. 'Fool' day is simply because this chocolate was distributed on the April Fool day itself which is yeterday. Hell memenatkan!!. Imagine to distribute almost 1 thousand boxes to the whole office. Of course with the help of other committe (other committee mostly helped on the distribution part jer, the packaging part biasa la... muka2 wanita2 jer yang buat) Packaging was the most leceh part. But overall it was ok. We managed to get some good profit out of it. No bad...!!!

'Demi masa'

It's been while since I had my last 'mengandam' job. Its not because Im not getting any offer but since my mom passed away I've been avoiding to do it. Why?? Tah la. Mood tak sampai kot. I will only accept the offer if my close friends ask for it. Few weeks back 'S' approached me asking me whether I'm still doing the makeup thing. She wanted me to make up her fren. And I said yes. So the day was last saturday. I was told to be there at 8a.m as the S's friend need to be ready by 9.45 (but her akad at 11am-awal gilos!). I usually need 2 hours for make up and doing hair. It's actually less than that but I usually will sembang2 with the pengantin to get rid of all the butterflies in their stomach. It is proven that if u are panic, nervous, angry etc, the foundation will NOT blend into your skin. Kira nnt nmpk tak sekata. That's why i prefer sembang2 and try to calm the pengantin.

I arrived there at 7.50. U see, when ppl tell me I need to be at their place at 8am, I expect that person would be ready by the time I arrive. Meaning, I can just straight do what I'm suppose to do. What I dont like is, bila aku smpi la baru nk terhegeh2 nk mandi la., nk berak la, nk tu la nk ni la. COME ON! For God sake, havent they heard of 'DEMI MASA'. Please la. Value time. To my supprise, in the house they have this poster of 'DEMI MASA'..... Buat apa gantung kalu lu tak baca. Buat apa baca kalu lu tak buat. Buat menyemak jo poster tuh! Sakit hati gua tgk!! Tapi nasib baik la pengantin yang gua mekap tu pandai cover. Sambil mekap sambil sembang. She's not bad. Very talkative. She a lawyer, she has to be talkative! Hehehehe. This is a pic of her taken before (actually tgh apply foundation -lupa nk snap before start) and after. She wanted the make up to be 'natural'. Alhamdulilah she love it. So far I never fail my client. Hope my talent stays that way.

What women should have and should know

2008-03-15T12:27:00.002+08:00

A friend emailed me this. Worth reading....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needsto...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to seeher in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a youth she's content to leave behind....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .... ..
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, thatwill make her guests feel honored...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruiningthe friendship..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY... the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more... and why she shouldn't take it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table... or a charming inn in the woods... when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...

Sorry

2008-03-11T23:13:00.004+08:00

For the last few days, I sleep with kakak in her room. Adik sleep with my sister in my room. Adik’s having selsema so aircond is total no-no. Last night, I slept early. Well not that early. Around 11 pm. Kakak came in later. Of course la I tak sedar. Tidur mati. But tgh malam ada la terjaga. Coz I heard kakak like bunyi2. That’s not something new coz almost every nite she will have the bunyi2 and then she will sleep back. However last nite slightly different. After the bunyi2, silence for a while. Tetiba jaga dia dah kat sebelah.

“Kakak tak bole tido bie…”
“Laaa… naper lak? tadi ok jer…dah gi tdo…”
“Tapi kakak tak bole tido”.
“Gi la baring dulu… nanti tido la” Talking to her with my eyes close.

Kakak pun gi baring kat tempat tido dia.

“Bie bukak lampu… kakak tak bole tido”
“Kalau bukak lampu camne nak tido?”!!
Menggelegak dah nih!. I raised my voice to kakak. Then she started crying. Dah mula la tu…. Lagi kuat dia nangis lagi kuat I scolded her. (Apa nk jadi aku nih!). Then I told her if you want the light I have to get out from the room as I cannot sleep with lights on. Then she increase her crying volume. ARRGGHHH!!..

“Bie nk tido la kakak. Esok bie keje. Paham tak? Malas la nk layan kakak” (I cannot believe I said that!!) So I bangun wanted to go to the toilet. Lagi kuat dia nangis. Dia ingat I wanted to leave her there. Later mama dia terjaga and kuar tanya kenapa?. Masa tu la baru tersentak!! (Yup… tersentak/tersedar masa dlm toilet)

1.Yang aku gi gaduh dgn budak umo 7 tahun kenapa? Sian dia.
2.Apsal tetiba tahap kesabaran merundum?
3.For all this while I allow kakak and adik to share bed with me, but why not now?
4.Pity her. Tah2 dia kena ‘kacau’ ke. Lately kan she don’t want to talk about ‘it’.

So pagi tadi before off to work, I kinda wake her up. Just to say that I’m sorry. Sorry I yelled at her. Sorry that I raised my voice, sorry that I don’t even think to offer her to share the bed with me. And most of all, sorry for not understanding her…

SORRY KAKAK!!!

Bila nak saksi....???

2008-03-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

Di kala kebohsanan.......

Kisah Ajmal, Kakak and Adik

2008-02-25T21:11:00.002+08:00

Ni lah kisah kanak2 zaman sekarang:

1) Ajmal

Tak payah citer banyak. Tengok tangan bengkok camni apa lagi. Jatuh. Ajmal ni my cousin. Baru in kindergarden. He followed his daddy to change the 'atap zink'. You know la budak2. When you say 'dont', they hear it as 'do it'. So bila berjalan atas siling tu apa lagi... Pereparppp!!!!. Jatuh. The best part is no one heard anything. They (the parents) only realized it when the found his slipper is up there tapi tuan punya tak de... Tau2 dah jatuh masuk dlm bilik. Senyap jer. Dia pun tak berani nk nangis because dia tau salah dia. Ajmal suffered from total dislocation of his elbow. Broken wrist and benjol kepala. Was rush to the hospital. Direct to ICU, did scanning and he went for the operation twice....Hmmm...

2) Kakak

Kakak made this 'story book'. The title of the book is..."Buku cerita Hantu...Ha...Ha....Ha". Antara isi kandungan nya; "Ha...Ha...Ha... Saya adalah hantu terbang"...."Nama ayah saya pocong. Kami adalah keluarga hantu. Nama adik saya Zombi. Nama kakak saya Joon. Nama ibu saya Hantu". I was a bit surprise nama dia tau nama2 keturunan nih... Bila tnya dia kata kawan2 dia bagitau. See...Budak2 sekarang. Baru standard 1 dah tau semua.

3) Adik

"Adik, gi naik atas mandi pastu siap"

"Nak gi mana?"

"Adik nk gi mana?"

"Adik nak gi em...o...em...o (as in M...O...M...O)" -Trying to spell out the shop name.

"Huh? Gi mana dik?"

"M...O...M...O..........TESCO!!!"

"Hoi...sapa ajar tah"

As usual...adik mmg hampeh!!!!

My 'ayu' Day

2008-02-15T22:53:00.002+08:00

Mimpi apa tah hari ni nk gi keje pki baju kurung. Actually dulu hanya 2 perkara that will make me wear baju kurung to work. First during Ramadhan. I dont know why terasa kealiman menyelubungi diri bila tiba Ramadhan. Infact during college time pun mmg akan pki baju kurung everyday ke class. Like so alim gitu. Terbawak2 la tabiat tu smpi keje. You will be looking at the ayu me for the whole month. Next is when I terbabas tido and no baju to wear therefore baju kurung menjadi mangsa. (Sbb baju ni the material tak payah iron). Actually thats what happened today. Tido terbabas. Nk cepat pki baju kurung. Lagi pun mmg lama tak pki baju kurung tanpa sebab.

Sampai keje jer everybody was like....wah... pesal ko ayu ari nih?. Pesal nmpk lain hari ni? Pesal tu... pesal nih. Ayooo!... Wa pki baju kurung je la... It is not big deal. (Nmpk sgt wa brutal smpi pki baju kurung pun org tegur). But it was really uncomfortable for me today. Today is the day that I have to do a little bit of running here and there. To settle things that I am not supposed to settle. Smpi ada org tegur, apsal cam semacam je? That obvious huh? Siap pesan lain kali pki jeans jer la. Cam biasa. Baru senang skit. Caitsss!!

Lepas lunch ada meeting. Calls ada lagi 6 tak buat. Actually nk buat awal2. But tetiba tmpt gua tak bole bukak system. Nk tunggu org IT rectify the issue? Minggu dpn pun tak tentu. Nk tumpang kat tmpt geng lain, dorang tgh buat keje. Maka terpaksa la singgah office esok sambung that 6 calls. Jap jer. Pastu merapu kat comments tu....Done. Monday leh hantar. Meeting ended at 5 something. Ingat nk balik la. Ocha minta tlg amik kakak dari sek agama. Tapi tak bole. Gua nk attend briefing dari big big bos gua. Actually apa yang dia nk cakap tu wa dh dgr kat Langkawi. But wa berminat nk tau how he will handle the staffs here considering that they... I mean we had been demotivated since last 4 years. He is very much aware of the situation but like I said, I am more interested to actually hear what he is going to say.

He handled it quite well. For me...very well. But I must admit that some of the staffs dont understand what he was trying to say. You see, he is the kind of person who dont give a straight 'no' to the face. His PR skill is good. Selalunya org kat level dia ni cam hampeh skit. Tak payah gi jauh la. Bos2 yang bawah dia pun mmg mostly hampeh. I can barely heard a single negative word from his mouth. Oh! I actually cought 1 word. Which is 'problem'. ( I cant believe I said this. I actually QAed my bos) Hehehe. He will never use a negative phrase or any negative examples. He never say bad thing bout others. He tried very much not to say our managers are monsters. Never say we are wrong. He said all the 'moving forward' thing. How to make things better...together.... and I think what I like most bout him is that he never promise that he will give this or that. In other words he dont let us put overly high hope on him alone. It must be a team work thing. As a person who likes to be motivated by someone who knows how to talk and who talk based on experience, I like him. I respect him. He dont tell you what to do. He wants us to understand why we do it. That is more effective. So, thing I learn from him today:

1) Sometimes is not what you say, it is how you say it.
2) Beware of what you wish for. It may come true.
3) Effective communication is very important.
4) Ala....lupa lak... tu jer kot... Hehehhehe

Mak ai! Nk kol 12 dah. Apa la yang wa merapu sini kan. Anyway need to stop. Tomorrow ada bowling tournament kat pyramid. Wa dh kata wa tak reti main pun ada org ajak main. Kalu kalah jgn nak salahkan gua. Ahad lak nk gi Putra Heights. A friend of mine minta tlg buat mekap as her hubby nk buat photoshot for his portfolio. Wa pun buat la amal jariah skit. Lagi pun bole masuk wa punya porfolio gak. Wa kena mekap natural and gothic punk...(camne la gamaknya muka model tu nanti yek). Nanti kan....

Eh lagi satu wa tak paham and malas nk pahamkan diri. FB nih. The day before yesterday I cleared my requests tinggal bout 174. Pastu yesterday tertiba tambah to 209. Tadi wa bukak Fb mau nk tertonjol mata wa. 354!!! gila byk. Amenda la korang2 anto kat wa nih? Pening la. Wa rasa ajaran terkurang lak kalu wa ignore semua. Kesian penat2 korang dok depan pc, pilih muka wa, click send, tunggu jap... alih2 smpi kat wa, kena ignore. Tu yang wa tak smpi hati. Tapi nk buat camne. Korang ada idea tak?? Tolong wei!!

Facebook

2008-02-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

What is Facebook (FB)? According to FB itself, FB is a 'social utility that connects you with people around the world'. How long have this FB exist? If you ask me...I dont know. But I came to know bout FB somewhere middle last year. At that point of time I dont really know what is FB. But I know the existance of FB. I dont even bother to have a closer look on what FB is all about. I thought it is another version of 'My Space' and 'Friendster'. But someone change my perception on FB. A long lost friend found me in FB. (Dont ask me how my name exist in FB coz I dont know!!) What I know is that she was so glad that she found me. According to her, she had been trying to get in touch with me for a loooonng time. She was my best friend when we were in Standard 6 (that was like 19 years ago). I am so glad dia dpt cari I. Harapkan I...hmmm... Tak tercarik la.

So that starts everything. Of course being a super dumb in IT make it worst for me to understand FB at the first place. Again with the help of IT genius in this house (who else! Ocha la). Slowly I begin to understand what FB is all about. I start looking for my old friends and amazingly I do have my long lost friends here in FB. When I say long lost fren, I really mean loonngggg lost fren. Some of them I havent met in more than 10 years. I also met one of my best frens during my college time and she is currently in London wit her husband. Bila dia kawin pun tak tau...Hehehe. Bila dah terjumpa my lovely fren ni who is in London, later I figured out ramai rupanya org yg I kenal dok sana. YES...sana means London. Aduh! Tekanan jiwa bermula!!! They are all happily working there and me here? everyday facing stress!! Sungguh jeles!! Kira2 dlm 4-5 org yg I kenal kat London. Uhuk! Uhuk! Uhuk! Nk gi gak!!! (Mimpi la Safwin!)

That's all bout FB. Something interesting happened to me last few days. Antaranya, we had a mini bowling tournament in Alam Sentral Shah Alam. The reason I joined that tournament is because Af offer me to join her group. And saja suka2 (OMG!! Baru teringat yang tak bayar kat dia lagi. Hopefully I dont forget to pay her on Monday). So saja la main2. 1 group consist of 5 ppl. There was me, AF, Kak Jijah, Epoi and Af's anak menakan. We were playing like we never played before. Dah tentu suka2 jer. The funny thing is that we call our lane as "Lane Berhantu". It is because there will be 1 pin that will fall by itself whenever the thing try to turunkan the pin. We were playing with this free 1 pin. Later towards the 2nd game, the worker came and clean our lane. They were cleaning others as well la. They used a bottle of soap sprinkle it on the lane and use the machine to clean it. Kak Dot later came to us and said "Habis la hantu korang, dah kena simbah dgn holly water...." Heheheheh. True enough after that.... none of use can actually play. Hahahahah! How coincidence. There were no spare at all. Not to mention Strike la!. So funny. Nasib game dah nk habis.

One more funny thing bout this bowling. I won Best Female Player. Kuang kuang kuang!!. How and what is my point? Dont ask me coz I also dont know. Infact when my name was announced, I asked them back. 'Salah kira ka?' Hahahaha. But dah org nk bg... Amik jer la...Here is a pic taken after the tournament.

P/s: Last 2 nites Adik was sleeping wit me. We shared the single bed together. Suddenly dia tarik my hand. She was asleep. At first I thought she wanted me to hug her. OH! She just love ppl hugging her time tido. So knowing her nature, I let her pull my hand. Tetiba out of sudden both her hand holding my hand and she BITE me!... Yes. She bite me! terjerit2 dia. Rupanya ngigau!!! Punya dok main petang tu. dok gaduh2 dgn kakak dia. Lastly Aunty dia yang kena gigit! Uwah!!!...... Later bila dah bgn I ask her why she gigit me... She gave me that blur2 look. Adik...Adik!!!

BTW ada bekas tau adik gigit....:(

Busy....busy...busy....

2008-02-02T11:09:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since my last update to my blog. Reason is I was very very very busy. Tak percaya???....hmmm...

Virtual Banking 1st convention - Langkawi 25-27/1/2008

I was informed one day or two days before the event. I was a replacement for my colleague (Mr. J). Mr. J refuse to go as he hates outdoor activities. I thought he was just kidding when he say wanted me to replace him. Lagi 2 hari ni gi dia kata "Bos said ok. U can replace me". As for me, I'm ok jer. I prefer outdoor activities as compared to indoor (like ice breaking la, ntah pape lagi). So kelam kelibut la 'preparing' for the event. So 24th nite we all gathered at Menara Maybank and the buses (all together 3 buses) depart from there at about 11pm. There were 2 buses for MGCC's and 1 bus for E-Channel (Virtual Banking consist of MGCC and E-Channel)

We arrived at Kuala Perlis about 6.20a.m. And waited bout 2 hours for the ferry to Langkawi. And Yes!!! Our 1st convention is in Langkawi. To some ppl Langkawi = shopping or langkawi = chocolates or langkawi = pinggan mangkuk...hehehe. Which is true enough. Some of my male friends were forced by their wife to buy pinggan mangkuk, sudu garfu, senduk bagai....heheh...
Sian tgk dorang....

Anyway the event went on smoothly. What I like bout this event is that the trainer/facilitator will never force you to do the outdoor activities. We were basically enjoying our time. It was fun. Really fun. And the next financial year (which will starts this June) MGCC will have the honour to organize the event.

Oh! I almost forgot bout JB. (Yes sherry....its JB!!! And you know who...heheh) I just wanted to add comments on him. I was pretty kesian on him thru out the event. (At first I tak tau pun dia gi...kalu tau mmg I tak gi) I always avoided him what!. Anyway back to JB and Langkawi. He was so 'home alone' there. I never thought he was that pemalu. Selalunya tak tau malu. Diam jer cam org bodoh (Mmg bodoh pun!! -jahatnya aku!) But it's true. He acted as if tak de PG (you know who Sherry...hhehe) dia hilang akal. Tu la... You dont appreciate me when we were friends. Now that we are not.... sapa susah. Not that I dont try to berbaik dgn him. He was so sombong to accept my apology. (Macam la dia tak buat salah). So skrg sapa yang rugi? Obviously I'm not!!

Ok. Enuff wit Langkawi story. We arrived at Sg. Buloh RnR at apprx 11.p.m 27/1/08. (Our driver bawak skit punya laju). Our bus were the first to arrive. Nasib la amik cuti on 28th. Konon nk rest tapi kena gi Ikea la segala bagai. Bangun dlm 8 a.m gak. Tetiba teringat something. ALAMAK!!!! Caterer tak confirm lagik...Caterer?? untuk apa tuh? Haaa.... Utk ni la..

My Bos Retirement Farewell Party

My bos is on the right. Yang left tu super bos....hehehe... This farewell event was scheduled on 30th. Tertiba on the 28th baru teringat. Adus!!!!. Patutnya before pegi Langkawi I suppose to get 2-3 food quotations. Tapi lupa sesangat. Apa lagi... Minta tlg my sifu (CL). So finally on the 29th at about noon, dpt la confirm dgn 1 caterer nih. Alhamdulilah. Of course wit the help of CL.

And the best part is most of the staff love the food. Ter'at all' jap. Heheh. Tapi punya la kelam kelibut. The party ended bout 6p.m. Lepas kekemas pastu balik. Bila dah balik tu teramat la penatnya. Mana tak. Penat Langkawi blom habis....dpt penat menggelabah nk carik caterer (penat tau bila menggelabah nih) Dah tu penat on the farewell dah lak. Dahtu the most penat among all Penats!!! SCORING!!... a.k.a kerja ku!!!Adus... Ada lagi 2 hari haram 1 team pun tak habis... Pening! Tapi belasah gak and I managed to complete beratus calls tuh. Yehaa!!!. (Pat helped me with 1 call -Thanks buddy)

Enjoy some pics from the Party. I will upload gambar lain in my fotopages later.

P/s: I've been having headache too often!!!

Anger that may lead to stress!!

2008-01-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

"Ya Allah, aku berlindung denganmu daripada berpecah, sifat munafik dan akhlak buruk"

I have been starring at my laptop for the past 2 hours, trying to figure out what are my feelings rite now. Angry? Sad? Hate? Happy? Hungry? It's a mixture of everything!!!. One thing for sure is at this moment of time I am emotionally disturbed. But if you think that it is a routine 'monthly thing', sorry to say you are wrong. We women have feelings not only during 'that time' but all the time. It's just during 'that time' it's a bit uncontrollable.

During my teenage, I always have problems controlling my emotion. To be more specific to control my anger. I will be screaming like a crazy person trying to let go of my anger. I can't control that at all. But I guess as we get older, we tend to know how to control certain things. To this very minute I'm still trying and will keep on trying.

Supposedly today is my dept head's Farewell Dinner. Yes! The only nice, kind and understanding boss ever exist in my office. I was overjoyed for today's event. My plan was to take pictures of all my collegues so that we can frame it up and hand it over to our bos. So that he would remember the faces whom always give him trouble! (Heheheh). I was so excited that I even planned on what to wear to work so that it will look nice in the pic. :P

But everything don't seem the way I planned it. It was already past working hours. We were lepakking wasting time. Most of us rather waiting in the office than go back and out again for the dinner. Except for this one guy because his house is about 5 minutes drive from the office. I or rather we were called for a meeting (Not from the 5-minutes-drive guy). Now that starts everything! A simple meeting that tensed me up. Really up! I was so pissed off. At first it was just a statement which lead to my disaggrement and while trying to elaborate further I got really confused and angry! I just can't tolerate people who pandang remeh on etika kerja simply because to 'solve' things. Kononnya benda tu dah solve. Kononnya benda tu kecik jer. But the 'impact' to us is so great!. Why can't he see that!!. And what ever it is do not overrule your bos. Especially when you have a good one. Pay some respect guys. After all he is your bos. Just because you are our representative, it doesn't mean you can make your own decision. Geessshhh!!! Am I thinking too hard or he don't think at all?

I didn't know that I was mad that time. But after we adjourned the meeting, I felt this watery thing on my eyes. At that point of time I knew that I was holding my anger that lead to 'limpahan' air di mata. YES! I can end up cry trying to control my anger. That's just the way I deal with it. I tried to cool myself. Had my moment alone in my room. But, the moment I felt pain on my forehead and my neck, that's it! I knew it. It went up and up. I just want to go home. I figured out that if I make it to the dinner, I will not be me. I will just keep silent and do my job which is eat. That's why I decided not to go. I sms Ocha telling her that I dont feel like going. Langkah kanan when Azul is also fetching Yah @ Brunsfield. So dekat sgt la.

But I still have the money and the camera with me. Wanted to pass it to 'J' but he refuse to take. I think he noticed. (Or was it so obvious that he knew it just by looking at my face). Then I gave it to Abg 'I'. I lied (have to) to him said that I have to rush back. Then I went down and waited for Azul.

When I think it over, I wonder what makes me so mad. When I got home, some of them rang me, sms me. I just dont feel to answer them. I just want to sit and think of my behaviour. Am I being selfish? Am I being unfair? Did I give them a hard time? I don't know. I try to think that I am rite. But I'm afraid that may lead to 'hey aku betul!!' (bongkak) attitude. That's why I put Doa Mengelak Daripada Perangai Buruk as intro to this entry.

"Ya Allah, ampunkan la aku sekiranya perlakuan ku ini menimbulkan rasa tidak senang hati dan menyusahkan sahabat2 ku. Sesungguhnya yang buruk itu adalah dari ku dan yang baik itu adalah daripada Mu".

-AMIN-

Bertambah

2008-01-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

Antara 'penambahan' yang berlaku:

1) Bertambahnya berat badan
- Time posa dulu ok jer...Dah ok dah... lately telah meningkat segala faktor yang mendorong ke arah penambahan ketumpatan badan...hehhe.. Kena start posa

2) Bertambah usia
- This happens every year. It will not stop until we stop breathing. I will be carrying new number this year. Welcome '31'.

3) Bertambah work load
- This is expected. Increase in workload is very much expected but can I really carry this extra load? Will try... tak try tak tau.

4) Bertambah stress
- Workload tambah stress tambah la.. Bila stress tambah kena tambah kan kecerdasan otak memikirkan cara utk tangani strees.

5) Bertambah gedix nk baca buku
- Well at least this is a positive one. Last week baru habis baca buku 'Once Removed' by Andrew Luci. Cerita bout one mat salleh guy living in Malaysia. Very funny. Nice story. Especially utk hilang kan stress. Skrg tgh membelek 'Jangan Bersedih'. Keagamaan skit. Well hidup kena la balance kan. Baca buku keagamaan ni biar sedar diri skit. Biar insaf skit. hehe. Tapi biasa la... bab buku agama ni mula la slow je baca. Baru 1 page...ngantuk...!!

6) Bertambah relax
- More relax in living daily life. A lot of things happened last couple of years. Those things really made me think alot bout life. The more I think the more I will tell myself to relax. Try to accept things the way they are meant to be. Just try to follow the flow.

Asyik tambah jer? Mana kurangnya?

PS: Kakak dah ok.. much better. Sek kebangsaan still sama but sek agama dah tukar. I can conclude that sek agama ni very good sebab baru 3 hari kakak dah 'bawak balik' macam2. Ocha kata dia siap ajar adik dia kata kalu nk lalu depan papa or mana kena tunduk. Kalu papa balik kakak ngan adik kena salam papa. And kena sembahyang (of course la. This is expected from sekolah agama). But everything ok. Cuma kat sek keb tu ada lagi sisa prob tak habis lagi.

PSS: I got back my car on Monday evening. It cost me almost RM1k!!!... Aduh!. Migraine la cam nih!

My Bad Luck Day

2008-01-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

Not today...but yesterday. This is what happened....

Today is epit's wedding. So dah planning nk gi jgk wedding dia eventhough Noreen refuse to go. (Well... she said she had more important things to do but I know it's just an excuse..:P)
So bgn pagi terus tgk almari baju. What to wear? After few minutes, I decided to wear this Green baju kurung moden with kain satin. Obviously this is my fav as the colour is GREEN and I bought this kain when I was on unpaid leave (masa jaga mama sakit). Nmpk terus berkenan. Cinta pandang pertama...hehehe. That was like almost 2 years back. I remembered wearing it only twice. Tu pun attend wedding dinner. So... ok... I have decided what to wear. So nk gi iron baju la. (Note: Ocha bought her new iron. Not to say yg lama tu dah rosak but the new one is the kind yg old style tu... yang berat skit. Suppose to function better.) I swithced on the iron. Memula no 2...hmmm... not so hot... so I put straight to 4. Ok... just nice. Half way ironing the kain rasa cam panas skit.. So I go back to no 2. Waited for a while. Then I started to iron again. Letak jer kat kain tu....THAT'S IT!!!... Nasib la tindakan reflect ku masih berfungsi. There, on my kain a nice 5cm x 0.5cm hole.!! Aduh!!! Kain ku... Hampeh punya iron (Of course I blame it on the iron!. It was doing fine on no 4 but suddenly became so hot when it is on no 2-Stupid!)

But still ok. I managed to 'tampal' the lubang and still can wear it. I don't want to spoil the day only because a hole on my kain. So terus la bersiap. I have to fetch Kasma. ( I pujuk her to accompany me as in the invitation card says 'Cik Safwin Saidin & partner'). So kena la carik sesapa jd partner since I don't have a so called 'permanent' partner.

Everything went well. I arrived at Epit's around 1 something. Smpi terus mkn and duduk jap. Tgk tetamu cam ramai jek so ingat nk bgn n carik epit. Just to let him know that I dtg to his wedding. Jumpa dia kat meja beradap. Salam2 and amik gmbr. To upload kat my fotopages ( As I promised Iva utk amik gmbr epit n wife). Klik here klik there. OK ..Done! "Dah kasma, jom balik". So we headed to our car and gerak!

Masa otw balik tu tetiba teringat kat jep. Yup. Jep dh selamat balik Myanmar. Tak sempat nk jumpa dia. So ingat tak pe la. Gi la melawat mak Jep. So dari Ampang singgah la Melawati. When I made my turn to Melawati junction tetiba tergerak hati lagi (asyik tergerak hati jer smlm). "Eh, ko nk tgk umah lama aku tak?". I said to Kasma. "Belasah la..". So kona la ke jln B tu. Dekat selekoh B12 tu tetiba kereta terhenjut2. Dah! Apa pulak nih... Nasib baik sempat stop kan kereta kat tepi jln. Pelik!. Tak de angin tak de ribut main henjut2 lak keta nih. Try start keta. "Vroom!!" Ok. Bole start. Lega. Tak de masalah. So I happily tekan clutch and masuk gear. "Eh! Pesal ni. Aku salah tekan ker?" Try lagi. Tak bole jgk. Ha Sudah! Pesal keta aku tak bole masuk gear??? UWAH!!! kenapa kah ini terjadi! Apa lagi...call ocha la...Hehehe.

Me: "Wei, keta tak bole masuk gear la. Camne nih?"
Ocha: "Hah! Naper lak"
Me: "Mana la xpin tau"
Ocha: "Hmm, jap soh azul call Pak Cik Mat"

At this moment I already knew that this car need to be towed!. Sementara tunggu I call papa. Hoping that he will be in KL area. "Papa kat Rembau attend kenduri" Adus! Tunggu jer la.
So dipendekkan cerita, I talked to Pakcik Mat as he need me to check first before he can confirm that the car need to be towed. Conclusion for my checking, Pakcik Mat said try to get break oil and put it in the clutch punya bekas and try to pump. Kalu bole tu bole la bawak. Kalu tak bole mmg kena tow. So memerah otak lak nk pikir camne nk gi carik break oil nih. Bunge!!!. Dia dok kat Melawati.

Me: " Salam bunge. Ko balik umah mak ko tak minggu nih:
Bunge: "Salam. Aku balik. ni dari umah mak aku la ni"
Me: " Ye ker? Ko kat umah mak ko la yek nih. (stupid! she just told me that). Aku nk minta tlg nih. Aku kat Melawati nih. Keta aku rosak...blah...blah...blah.
Bunge: "La..ko lambat skit jer. Aku baru kuar. Aku dh kat area Ampang"

Gone!.......Ha! Zack!!!

Me: "Zack ko balik umah mak ko tak?" (Weekend seems to be balik-umah-mak day)
Z: "Balik. Tapi aku skrg kat Bukit Raja"
Me: "Hampeh!. Ko buat apa kat sana? Ko gi umah aku ker? Yang aku nk lak kat Melawati...blah...blah....blah...

Habis dah kawan harapan. As the same time kasma tried to get help.She managed to get her bro inlaw's friend to come and have a look at the car. They did something but come up with conclusion that the car still need to be towed. Well nak buat camne. After I thanked them I made a call to ocha. Pastu Kasma kata "Eh, kita tak yah bayar ke? "Ha ah la..." So kasma asked kena bayar ker? (Lepas tu baru perasan kinda stupid coz obviously he will say no). True enough the guys said " Tak pe la"... I think because kami ni pompuan yang cam blur2 wearing baju kurung yang agak glam. So they kinda have to say no to this so called glam-blur2-girls. Hehehe. Anyway thanks abg mekanik. (we dont even ask the name!!)

To cut the story short again. Gi lepak umah kawan kasma jap which happen to be seberang jln jer. While waiting for ocha. Lepas ocha dh sampai Pakcik Mat belum kuar lagi. (Dah la fr shah alam and it was raining- surprisingly raining only at Melawati. As what ocha told me. Huh! What a day!) So sementara tunggu kena la singgah kat rumah Uncle Jaafar. I very much wanted to avoid going there. Tapi nk jadi cerita tak bole elak. So me, ocha, azul and kasma pun gerak la ke rumah tu sementara tunggu kereta untuk ditow. After slightly more than 1 hour, tow dh smpi and we all pun gerak balik. Otw back called Pakcik Mat. Kalu bole minta buat cepat psl nk gi keje on Monday. Pakcik Mat kata ok. Nnt dia call.

Today Pakcik Mat call kata keta tak bole siap. Ingat kan pump jer rupanya clutch pad rosak! So kena rongkah (bukak) the whole thing. So nk tak nk kena tumpang azul ke TBC esok n minta papa hantar gi keje. Ikut hati nk EL jer tapi...KEJE BANYAK!!!! Uwah!!!!

Pening!!!

2008-01-12T09:46:00.000+08:00

Ocha: "Jumaat nnt xpin hantar kakak sekolah yek"
Me: "Hantar kat gate ke hantar smpi class?"
Ocha: "Memana la...gate ke class ke"
Me: "Kol berapa nk kena kuar"
Ocha: "Latest by 7.10a.m"
Me: "OK"

So on Friday January 11th terjadi la episod menghantar my beloved niece to school. Balqis is in Std 1. Dia ni prob skit bila nk gi sekolah. The reason why mama dia tak nk hantar is because.....baca la seterusnya.

7.00a.m- Kakak: "Bie dh nk gi keje? Adik tinggal ngan sapa?"
Me: "Biar la adik tinggal sorang pun"

7.03a.m- Ocha: "Hari ni bie hantar kakak ye. Mama hantar adik"
Kakak: "Naper mama tak hantar" (Muka dh tukar skit)
Ocha: "Gi jer ngan bie...bie dh tunggu kat keta tuh"

7.05a.m- Masuk jer kereta....
Kakak: " Bie, kakak tak nak gi sekolah"
Me: "Tak bole la... kakak kena gi sekolah. Kan mama ngan papa dah cakap."

Dengan muka yang penuh emosi dan air mata dok bertakung, kakak diam jer. The 'drama' is about to happen.....smpi jer sekolah (which is about less than 5 minutes)

Me: "Ok kakak, jom turun"
Kakak: " Kakak nak mama!!!!! (started crying...loud....lounder...and....)

Maka bermula la drama swasta.... To actually get kakak to get out from the car took me bout 20 minutes. From the car to the scholl gate another 10 minutes. Meraungnya tok sah kira la. Like I said....Drama Swasta di Pagi Hari.... Semua mata terpaku memandang ku (Not because I'm pretty gorgeous or what...It's because I have a 'fight' with a 7 years old girl trying to 'drag' her to school. 1001 excuses dia bagi.... Kakak mengantuk sgt la... kakak rindu mama la... There was a question she asked me. Rehat pukul berapa (I told her mama will come during your 'rehat' time). I said in 2 hours. She said kakak tnya berapa minit.... kakak tak nak jam... Then I said it will be 120 minutes. Terjerit2 dia kata lamanya!!!!... I said mana lama... only 2 hours... Ye la tapi beratus minit....Eeee! Hampeh budak nih....

So berbalik ke 'dragging' her to the gate (baru gate tau!!!) Time ni ramai dh beratur for the perhimpunan. Kakak still meraung.... (director belum kata "cut!!!...tu yang dia tak stop lagi tuh") Pengawas pun dok la help me to pujuk kakak. Mana makan saman!. Punya la dok having an "intelectual reasoning" with kakak tak sedar dari tadi 1 teacher kakak dok berdiri kat belakang. I didn't realize until kakak said " kakak tak nak beratur!!" And the teacher replied " Tak nk beratur takpe..berdiri jer kat tepi....Bawak dia ke sana" She told me. So I did bawak ...hmmm... no...more like jln2 sesorang and kakak terpaksa ikut ( I was carrying her school bag). Smpi kat depan perhimpunan tu...Histeria lagi... Nk tak nak 2 org cik terpaksa pegang kuat2. Habis baju ku ditarik2 kakak. Cikgu tu kata... Pergi jer la.... So I did... Kakak punya la jerit time tu... She was screaming sambil terjege (something like terbeliakkan mata). As if cikgu tu dera dia... I walked half way pas tu pusing tgk kakak ok ke tak... Sian plak... tak smpi hati.... tapi terpaksa tinggal kan dia....tak tau la smpi bila kakak will be camtu....

Kakak ni bukan apa... me and my sis kinda agree that she may suffer from Didaskaleinophobia (School Phobia) . Check out my sis's blog for it: http://bamz107.blogspot.com/. Dia ada almost all the symptoms. Sian nya budak nih.

Turn out mama dia tak gi pun time rehat. Ocha takut dia tak nak masuk class balik. Bila amik kakak kol 12, makcik tu ok jer!!!!... Siap beli belah kat kedai buku. Habis RM4. Beli buku kaler la, sticker la, playing cards la... Hampeh tul.... Kesimpulannya: Nk hantar tu jer prob... Dh smpi sekolah ok jer.

So...sapa nk hantar kakak gi sekolah Monday nih? Hehehhehe....

Why Do People Lie???

2008-01-06T15:03:00.000+08:00

Who doesn't?... I remembered as a kid I used to lie. Well, most of the time. (hey! At least I admit it). Again, the question is who doesn't? I believe everyone in this world tell lies at least once in their life. Either you lie to your parents, your brothers, your sisters, your friends and most frequently you lie to yourself. As a kid we lie because we are afraid of punishment.

Why do we lie? I would say that people lie because they are afraid of the consequences of telling the truth. 'Truth hurts', some may say. But which one would you choose? Beautiful lies or hurting truth. If you choose 'beautiful lies' well nothing is this world is beautiful forever. And if you choose 'hurting truth', again nothing in this world is beautiful forever. Therefore, do expect to be hurt once in a while. After all truth doesn't hurt ALL the time. It depends on how you take it.

People say the older you get the wiser you are. Which I totally agree. As I moved on with life from kid to teenager, I realize that I lied too much. Especially to myself. So I decided to stop. I tried to tell truth nothing but whole truth. But I failed. This was when I discovered truth really hurts. Either it will hurt me or the other person. Then I realized that there will come a circumstances that we HAVE TO lie. I got this from the internet. They call it the advantages or more acceptable reasons for lying.

1)the truth can be very hurtful
2)helps avoid unnecessary conflict
3)helps maintain a sense of privacy

I would very much agree on this. Especially in 2 and 3.

I remembered once I tell the truth to one of my best friends. Guess what's the price that I have to pay for that. Our friendship!! Maybe I was too hard on her when telling the truth. Or maybe she is not ready for the truth. Anyway, we avoided each other for 8 months but thankfully we are now friends again. (How can you let go a 17 years old friendship just like that!!!)

Can we avoid lies? I believe not. There are 2 ways to look at it. For me it is 'ok' to lie if the results will make the world nicer place to live and make others happier. But what I dont agree is when the results of lying will hurt other people thus make the world not worth to live in.

So the choice is yours. You decide whether or not to tell the truth or lie. But if you ever come across people who lie to you, don't simply go crazy for that. Try to understand. Understand why they are lying to you. Try to understand their situation. Sometimes they might have reasons for that. But if they don't...then go ahead! Do what ever you want. Hehehehe!

Reminder

2008-01-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

At 9a.m sharp my handphone make noises. It was supposed to be a 'narathiwat' song but turn out to be 'zrttt....zrrttt' (because my hp was on silent mode). Ingat ke sapa call. When I looked at my hp, it was actually a birthday reminder. 5th January!!. Birthday Mama. Actually the phone doesn't have to remind me. Of course I remember my late mom's Birthday. I just forgot to delete the reminder.

Told that to my sis. "Ala, tukar je nama dari mama tu Ad. Kan ke birthday dorang sama". Ad is actually my step brother. Aunty's second child. (I still call my step mom 'aunty'. Cam susah jer nak tukar). Furthermore tak tau nk panggil apa. But definately I will not call her MAMA.